MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL IS DYING? - GRAV3YARDGIRL

The special reason I wanted to talk to you about this is because I can relate to There's so much I was doing on YouTube for so long and I think around 2014 my views were going down. Seeing a lot of comments about it, I saw everyone else standing up, I watched this all happen and I thought, oh my God, like I'm old. People don't care what it is anymore and I realized why they weren't looking. because I wasn't fully involved and I was hiding elements of myself and I was no longer myself. I was thinking too much about numbers and thinking about what other people think of me instead of doing something I would actually do. click that was also the same year I came out and it was the same year I like I stopped caring like Oh I look too girly in this video, my voice is too extravagant, am I saying things that allude to what I like?

Guys I'm being too crazy or too offensive or to the right, like once I came out and like, this is who I am, it completely changed my

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and my videos, um, so we've been on 10 different things. I was facing the world because it was one hundred percent, yeah, I wasn't saying you have to come out, but you do it in a way because there's a lot of your life, your personality and everything you have, hai-yah and as a viewer. I've noticed it and I'll be honest, I was really obsessed with your videos in 2015. Ash, I love the bravest girl.

I love her reviews. I think she's really cool, yeah, and I started noticing little things like, well, this. something happened, I can't talk about it, yeah, well I'm going through this, but I don't want to talk about it yet and it was constant and I was like I wanted to connect and I couldn't, yeah, get together. you now and hear more about your struggles where you come from where you are oh my god who is this is you and this is who I want them to watch any of your

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s should see you are more than you know fun products yeah at some point I started to dilute everything, so when I first got my channel I felt like I had nothing to lose, thank you, you know, we talked about the whole cemetery, friends, thank you, you told me, which is something.

I didn't know I thought where the name graveyard girl came from and you said I used to go ghost hunting all the time. There was one particular cemetery in Galveston where I basically lived in it like I was there all the time. day and I wouldn't literally, is it too crazy for you to know it's two kings when you stop doing that? Well, okay, before I start YouTube, I would like to sit on tombstones and take pictures and whatever, and that's why I said I never knew this kind of thing was disrespectful because people would be like, oh, what if Was your grave?

This is going to sound so crazy. I know well that I was so alone and so sad that I just like going to a cemetery and hanging out all day and literally talking to dead people. I thought they were my real friends. I felt comforted there. I felt like there were people there. I felt like that particular cemetery is like all the super old tombstones. Their next generation is probably around all day, so I feel like no one remembers these people anymore, no one comes to visit them, yeah, and I don't know who they are, but I just listen to them hanging out because you like giving people attention. and love that literally don't get like that are people that like no one comes to see them, yes, and like you, yes, and that was when you started your channel that you were making videos for people that no one wanted to hang out with as if They were misfits. that's how it was when I started watching and making videos, yeah you know sometimes I don't understand how I'm the same person, it's like I lost everything about me, that was my self, but I feel like it's just because I stopped doing it. show people that side of me because when I first had a channel I would film when I was having an actual panic attack, but I would film during it because that's me clicking on that, that's me because I just want people to know that .

Like they're not alone, like I went through this, do you have a group of people that you trust, he says, think about the people at Starbucks or, oh yeah, but I feel like that's a little sad, okay. Yeah, but that's real, you know, I mean, and I don't know, seeing people throwing up in my face because they say she doesn't do anything all day except go to Starbucks like six times a day, but she's nice. "That's my social interaction, you know, and it's like I refer to them as my friends, but it's not that it doesn't make me cry, they're not friends that I would like to hang out with, I just think that for the most part, That's true, why would they?" You're okay, I know because I think sometimes in real life I feel like it works really well for YouTube, right?

Because I can pack it all in and be funny in a cool, interesting way. It's quite intriguing and you want to watch it for 14 minutes, but I feel like when I'm face to face with people I get really uncomfortable and I like it, and no, I don't like crying to get thrown away. Is this my turn to cry on YouTube? um, I don't know, I don't know why, I guess I guess just because I wish I never had friends like I did when I grew up because I was too weird for friendship, I don't. I'm weird like that, it's like I don't know, sometimes it's hard for me, like, how do you like it?

Expressing, like, oh, I love collecting old shoes tied with string, unless people really want to sit down and get to You know, that doesn't make any sense. Don't know. I just like everything we were talking about before, where it's like I don't like the feel of it. I disappoint people and sometimes I like it like I'm just having a bad day. or a difficult time or I just want to sit and maybe hang out with someone but do nothing and I feel like that's boring. I'm not trying to say hey, do you want to be my friend? we can watch Netflix together because I realize that I don't do anything here is my analysis on our channel you are thinking too much sometimes you are uploading too much they really heard that you are supposed to do it every day that is not no no, there are many

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rs of old school and I put myself in the same category because I fell into this trap, I feel like you have to go higher and what is really more meaningful and impactful is when you spend time and put your soul and energy into something and release it to the world.

I think you need to focus your energy on doing things that you literally would like to be like I think in this video. I love this video, but I also think you're not taking risks, yeah, you know that. Of course, this really works, it works, of course, that series is great. I love it, but I would love to see you as a fan. I'd love to see you do something completely out of your element. Yes, the audience on YouTube has also changed. Know? like as many people see me in public now as they used to see you every day, don't ask that because the Lannisters, oh my god yes I would never, well the truth is the reason they stopped looking is mainly because them, but that's how it is.

Sometimes with us you have to capture a new audience of people who love all sides of you, yes, who are not just looking for a cartoon character to talk about a product and who are not just looking for a panic attack, they want it all. Yeah, and that audience is out there and I think you could capture those people one hundred percent, that's why I wanted to be with you these years, yeah, because you're so good and you have such a good spirit and I love being around you and my. I love your energy and you like things but you're not crazy but you're crazy in a good way some of your stuff I'm not thinking about if it fails or something because it doesn't matter because like you I'll be excited again about it, yeah, you know, yeah If you could, I would be so good to talk to you because I feel like it's not even other similar viewers.

I would say this. I feel like it's like other you that were like because I know. I feel like this may be completely false, but I feel like a lot of people in the industry probably looked at me and said, "Well, she's not a beauty guru, she doesn't know what she's doing," she has no talent, she doesn't edit, she doesn't do anything. . you know, and I think now it's like the whole world is like I don't know, I feel like there's probably a lot of people who are happy to see me and it's no longer competition, digging up everything that's one hundred percent. in your head and I understand that feeling, believe me, yes, but first of all I thought maybe you would say no because no one wants to collaborate with a

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web channel, but let me tell you something about those people and some of them. you are probably looking at mm-hm those people who think like that will disappear and they are not happy and they can leave themselves people who say that I only collaborate with this or this or this or oh my numbers and their numbers no, these are all those people I have not had heard from them in a long time and the reason is that they are not authentic because they make no one care that they do too many brand offers, they have too many products and they literally walk around talking about money.

That sucks at those people, you're not that person if you're a real person, yeah, like me, and that's why I love you and that's why I watch people like you, because I like it and this was one of the breakdowns most exciting I've ever had. I've done it sometimes or even thought about it. I traveled, I hate flying. I had to do it for the first time in my entire life. Look, I'm really afraid of

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on a plane, but I came because I thought, yeah, this is my dream. sitting with someone who I admire, who I love, who I think is good, who just needs someone to be like, let's take a chance, come on, let's make this sauce, our girl 2.0, yeah, you need to live your life and you need to live it in your videos. because even the little aspects of your life that you hide, okay, we're outside, but we can't show my God what this is, a part of your house, that or things like that, it's like I'm watching your channel and I have If I grew up Looking at you, I would say: how is it possible that she doesn't evolve or change?

She seems to be the same person she looked at when I was 12 years old. That's a little strange when you've changed, yes, completely, you just haven't shown it, yes. that's what we have to do there are some things that I noticed in your house that you haven't shown and I'm here that's why I'm going to point to a thumbnail and then we'll see what the audience thinks click or I'm going to point to it first with a click or ignore it . I would ignore it a long time ago. What is bloody car? Oh my gosh, that's so crazy because, for example, we create the water where the audience is.

Yes, so much so that they wouldn't leave. There's a ghost there that if you say his name like a. The year will bring anchor and that's the store we go to, yeah, which one is the real thumb.