Will Tana Spend Xmas Alone? | Episode 8 | MTV No Filter: Tana Turns 21

Constant reminder that I

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never ever have that. - Woo wait Adena that's too fast, I'm going to fall. - Don't let mom fall why don't we put mom on it. (relaxed techno music) - Cheers to Tana being in Albany. - Oh Adena, thank you very much for having me, Jordan, thank you very much for torturing me Adena. - Have you tried any of this gel? - If I'm not Jewish, can I even eat this? - Are you? - That's how I feel, I live my entire life in fear of this candle. - Do you think you're eating gelt? - Yes. - Hello, guys. - I'm sorry. - I wanted to show you a minor one. - I literally don't think I've ever seen one in real life. - Do you know what they are, do you know why they are there? - I know there are candles in them. - Yes, there are like four on each side and this one is very high. - Me, I don't know anything about Hanukah. - This is like a loosely bridged version. - Okay, I'm ready. - About one hundred and fifty-six B.C.

The Syrians took Jerusalem and there was a group that rebelled and took back the temple. - Well. - And in a synagogue there is an eternal light that always hangs there and is always on. They only had enough for that particular light to last one night, but it lasted eight nights, which is why it is now considered the miracle of Hanukah. - Wow, that since then. - And every night you light another candle. - That's incredible, first of all your dad is much smarter than you like. (laughs) -The way he just explained that no, I'm kidding. - That's a very abbreviated version. - In all seriousness, that was the longest I've ever seen her look someone in the eye. - Honestly, it's hard for me to pay attention. -She at least pretended to be respectful and loving and that's all I can ask for. - Now in this country we eat latkes because latkes are fried in oil. - We are basically making all the oil. - Which coordinates with the oil of the minor that was on for eight days. - Exactly. - I think this trip has definitely taught me a lot about the importance of traditions and family and love during the holidays. - Okay, turn this. - And it definitely makes me want to establish my own traditions. - Oh, no, that was really bad. (laughs) - Tana, this is easier than ice skating. (laughs) (light, upbeat music) - Oh my gosh, sweetie, this is unreal. - This is a super formal mom. (broken glass) - Calling it formal and then having that happen is a lot of fun, mozeltof, right? - Hanukah, greetings for that.

Honestly, I only hear people yell that when it breaks. What does mozeltof mean? - I think it happened to the latkes, we ruined them. - Maybe we rub it with a little water? - Just make sure it doesn't happen, that's all. - Oh no, I'm open to similar photos, I want you to go and find the video interviews I did and posted on the grid so they're on my side. -When Tana starts talking on her phone during dinner, I think to myself that maybe we've missed table manners 101. -Sorry, hello. - My family doesn't use phones at the table. - Do you really want to take my phone from me?

That's so weird like families with values ​​like that, like not having phones at the table, we're all going to

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quality time together, like hello. - What will you do during the rest of the vacation? - I get stressed instantly, I think I'm going to go home to Vegas and I would feel obligated to do something with Jake, but I don't know, I don't know, yeah. It's so funny because I feel like every time someone asks me my vacation plans, it doesn't get any easier. I'm just going through the motions and like to tell people, as always, that they'd like to hear.

At the end of the day it will always be weird to me, but yeah, no, I don't know yet. Thank you all very much for having dinner and for inviting me. - It was great having you here. - I guess I didn't realize how comfortable I would be. I was nervous starting out, but you all are like Jordan in a way. Parts of Jordan are in all of you and I love Jordan so much, that's why I love you all so much. I want your family's impression of me to be very different from how psychopathic I can be. - I know but you also see it on Insta story. - I know it's like they know.

They're like giving up the facade, bitch. (laughing) - Did you hear that? - Hello. - Are you agreeing with me? - Are you agreeing with me? - Are you in my childhood room right now? - Yes, I am in your childhood bed, did you lose your virginity in this bed? (laughing) - No, but don't ask me that question either. - I was sitting in this bed before editing and that's all I could think about, I was like ew. - Have you already been here? (laughs) - It's crazy to me that this is Jordan's childhood bed. I had a lot of childhood homes, so it's crazy to me that Jordan only had one and it's still standing. - Do you want to see photos of me from when I was about your age? - Yeah.

Oh, okay, wait, I'm looking, you look so silly there. (laughing) - That was my barmitsfa. - Oh my god, I like wanting this on a shirt. These are iconic, are they you? - That's me. - You actually look very good there. You used to be attractive like you looked so normal. Oh my gosh, your family is so cute. - I think that was when we went to Israel, maybe. - Oh my god, they didn't know you were going to manage psychotic influencers. - I know right. - This is so cute like my family has never made me take a photo like this.

That's crazy, it's a tradition that's so crazy to me that I made that whole dinner for your mom. Like my mom like I have to prepare dinner. Last year was like the first year I did Christmas, not at my house, I did it at Emari's house. Because at least her family is having a structured dinner, there are kids opening presents, it's the holidays. I don't know, I liked going home and leaving gifts and it was very sad for me because I thought this doesn't even feel like Christmas. You can pretend to love your family as much as you want, but it's not that I like them, that I don't connect with them.

It's like if my parents died, am I going to

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the rest of my life regretting the fact that I didn't go this Christmas, but also if I go this Christmas I'm going to be sad all the time, because I'll be the one doing everything. Keeping it all together, you know. Be dad. It's like he's my parents' father. It sucks, I don't want to be like that, I just want to be the kid. - You're angry with them. - Yes. - About your childhood, about how you were raised. - Yes, I think it lies more in forgiveness.

I think I can say I forgive them as much as I want, but it's like they're terrible parents, like that can never be undone. Like I never had what everyone else had, you know, it's like that's life. - Except it's amazing that you have all these friends who like it. - Yes. - Everyone you know wants you to come home to them. - So yes, now the holidays for me are about what I feel like as a family, what seems normal to me. The only person who feels like family is Emari. He, literally, in one person is like the entire family I never had. -So, like Jake, I assume your family would want to spend the holidays with your family. -It's more about him and his emotions than him being weird with his family too. -Why don't you ask him what he is doing right now during the holidays? - We have talked about it, we both like it, we really don't know.

I guess the valuable lesson here is that the holidays are about love, and that's what I have to try to channel. You know, obviously I'm going to spend this holiday celebrating the love I have wherever I am. And probably being at Emari's house, I mean, no matter what I do this holiday season, I'm just going to try to focus on love and the people I love and doing what I love and trying to be where I love and whatever it is. And actually it's not that it's normal but I think it's me. That's Tana and nothing will ever be so normal again. - Me, I want you to know that after this Hanukah trip to my house we are now officially family. - Wow, thanks for, you didn't even invite Albany, I'm not going to thank you, thanks Adena. - I told him to invite you. - Yes. - I called her right before that phone call. - Yes of course. - Yes.

Thanks for inviting me man. - You are welcome. - Why am I a little sad to leave Albany? I think I learned a lot about tradition. A lot about family, a lot about love and a lot about Jordan and I'm so glad I went. - Family. - You are my family, I hated touching you. - I do not like. - Come on brother. (laughs) (upbeat music)