Kurt Cobain's Last Days Nirvana Series #15 Kristen Pfaff's Abrupt Death

Well ladies and gentlemen, this is an updated version re-edited for your pleasure, the first part of my Nirvana

series

about the

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of Kurt Cobain and how Courtney Love manipulated like I said 95 people, we all took it from the same places and I trusted in that they were telling us that you yourself see things that you said that you are often misquoted a lot on the even deeper dive into that 94 Rolling Stone article we are going to expose even bigger lies, well we would be hypocrites because everyone do it too, we are all also tense about the number 30. roddy bottom has flown home to san francisco, enter dylan carlson carlson headed to the nearby stan gun store and bought a six pound remington 20 gauge shotgun and a box of ammunition for about 300. this.

It's good Friday It's Easter weekend He's got a great visit with Francis Bean He wasn't in jail He didn't escape He left He said Hey man, you know maybe we should take them to the house tonight And we were drinking, you know? It wasn't, uh, it wasn't like I anticipated anything the next day. Love canceled Cobain's credit cards and hired private investigators to track him down. Are you telling me you found out your husband left rehab? He has a shotgun, you think he is suicidal but he decides not to accept phone calls at your hotel. Records prove that Kelly and Courtney were in contact eight times on April 2, more than any other day all week.

Look at Michael Cali Dewitt and Jessica Hopper. Sort of troubled teenagers without a really clear path, they even got into heroin at very young ages, probably because, of course, what I want people to ask themselves after watching this video is: do I think wrong about the

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Kurt Cobain week? Is it missing on Kurt? Either Cobain's mind was lost or he let people know that he was alive and well and then he retreated to the Aurora Strip to feed his addiction as he had done several times before over the next few

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. Courtney is going to talk obsessively to Rosemary Carroll about a divorce about money about how she can get as much money as possible

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's

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told them the investigation was just for show and not to be too thorough apparently they followed orders detective donald cameron king doctor Chief County Coroner Dr Nicholas Hartshorn was an old friend of Courtney Love and her ex-husband James Moreland in the late 80's Hardhorn was in the business of promoting punk rock groups and created them for you your own arrogance oh that's right I'm arrogant Now you're right, be careful with arrogance, it rubs off on you, you would have quit when your girlfriend died, that awkward silence says so much that even the interviewer is left speechless, it becomes very evident after this whole 1995 interview that no There was love lost between Courtney Love and Kristen Phaf. in fact, Courtney seems to enjoy throwing her

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into Eric's space.

We can read between the lines and assume that Kristen was taking Eric's devotion and dedication away from Courtney and her ambitions and what she wants him to do, she didn't like. Courtney wanted to. to control eric and he lets her, now we can go a step further and say it's weird that she calls

kristen

's girlfriend eric after all they had broken up several months before her death he's dating Drew Barrymore , who helps Courtney break into Hollywood and get her first big role with Woody Harrelson, however, for Eric Erlinson, even Draw Barrymore couldn't compare to Kristen, he never gets over her and Courtney knew that he never got over her and she told him. rub it in his face, use band practice to beg him. to get back with him, she already has this struggle of trying to get along with Courtney and understand Courtney and then she has this guy begging her like an obsessed butler stalking her.

What can I do for you? What can I do for you? How I can? getting you back to me he goes beyond just loving her and becomes some kind of obsession

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can't deal with courtney especially can't deal with eric she goes back to her friends and janitor joe the only time she meets eric erlinson again after it becomes very obvious to him that she is completely leaving and going back to janitor joe for good, she ends up dead and believe it or not, the obsession doesn't end with her death, he shows up to her funeral Kristen uninvited. not welcomed by the fat family, you know, it didn't take a close observer to notice that when kristin is with her friends and janitor joe, when she's home, she's fine and healthy and clean and then, as soon as As she returns to Courtney and Eric, she is drugged and she is very thin, frail and frail looking.

Kristen's childhood friends and her entire family had noticed this. When you are a former drug addict, the environment you are surrounded by really affects your decisions. They didn't want Kristen around Eric. and Courtney, but that didn't stop Eric from showing up at the funeral anyway, Geffen's manager Ed Rosenblatt issues a public statement wrongly placing Kristin as a still-intact member of Whole and Courtney goes ahead and continues acting like Kristen was a member until the day she died who never gave up on the ban at this point in history we don't have twitter we don't have youtube so when things come out in the major corporate magazines most people never hear otherwise Courtney is aware of this, so she pretends that Kristen never gave up the ban, even though she had quit months before her death and returned to her old band with Courtney and her gang.

It would make them look weak if everyone knew that Kristen joined them and then it was like they didn't want to be a part of it, no, at the time of Kristen's death they already had their eye on offmeyer's melissa, but in the mind of Courtney was better off making people think Kristen loved the band she loved being in the band we were so amazing but she died it's just a tragic story no one leaves Courtney Love unless it's on her terms and this nature controlling this ego manic personality this fear of rejection I think comes from some childhood trauma of Courtney Loves that we will delve into during the entire

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now as for Ed Rosenblatt, he later apologized for it.

Geffen also basically extended an invitation for the members of Whole to attend the funeral which Janet Faff directly objected to and told Geffen we don't want any members of that band at my daughter's funeral can you imagine someone you love , a family member dear to you dies of an overdose? You know this person is the one who gave her the drugs and has the nerve to show up at your family's funeral, he doesn't just show up uninvited and unwelcome, he also causes a scene, covers himself over Kristen's coffin, the safety of the funeral home has to take him out and escort him outside screaming I love you, Kristen, I love you and then an hour later he shows up at Janet Faff's house, they say he was.

She seemed very tense and they refused to let him in the door. Courtney was right that her arrogance rubbed off on Eric because no normal, humble person with compassion and empathy would do what he did to Kristen's family after giving them the drugs that killed her dog. At least we all agree that it is very obvious that Eric Erlinson is the one who gave the heroin that killed Kristen Faff. I mean, let's be real, it's pretty obvious that it was Eric who gave her the drugs that she traveled across the country with with her friend. paul they didn't have drugs paul said he was with her the whole time there was only one person a person that came into her apartment the whole time they were in seattle and then she dies of a drug overdose well if it wasn't paul and no Someone else showed up to talk to Kristin Paul says that Eric was the only person who showed up the entire time they were on Seattle Capitol Hill in her apartment, so who do you think gave her the drugs that killed her?

I don't know how Kristen's family. she has kept it together all these years. I've heard from people who have talked to them that they just don't want to be in public. Her brother Jason was very specific with me and he said that he did not want to get involved with my channel due to possible financial repercussions for talking about a murder conspiracy. I've heard you're afraid of Courtney and all of her lawyers, but I can tell you that if I were Kristen Fast, her brother, she would have beaten Eric's holy life out of her. erlinson he would not have been escorted off the property and his brothers and family had every right to be so angry with him later eric would write that many people died because of his mistakes i understand this eric does not publish the words people died because of mistakes stupid things they did and I helped them.

He literally says that people died as a result of my mistakes, not because of his mistakes. Janet Faff. He didn't want a circus and that's exactly what he created when he threw himself on his coffin. We can say what we want about Eric's behavior, yes, it was unnecessary, but at least what we can say about Eric is that he seems to harbor some kind of guilt, he seems to be ashamed of himself, he seems to have some remorse, but as far as to Courtney, well. Kristen's adoptive father, Norm, flew to Seattle immediately after learning of Kristen's death and was reunited with Courtney and Eric.

This is what he later recalled about that meeting. In Seattle times there was no sign or any type of remorse that one would look for in a person who lost someone they cared about. It could have been that Kristin died or that someone missed the bus. Courtney didn't even have enough decency in her to pretend to care that Kristen died in front of her father in her face, but what does that make her? public, she uses it to her advantage and tries to gain sympathy in the past, all the celebrities had, you remember, online they sent the album for free to everyone, free Internet for everyone and all those early Hollywood stars, musicians, they were starting Her own little website, even Halle Berry had a website called Hollywood, many stars promoted themselves.

This was social media before social media was really driven by people just trying to promote their own celebrity. This is what Courtney posted on her Aol account after giving the norm. faff the coldness I beg you to pray for

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and kristen they hear it I know that my friend has been robbed of her stellar life my baby does not have a father please pray for Kristen's mother to Norma's face to Janet's face to jason face courtney could care less but to the public on her aol account she is asking everyone to pray for them and kristen was her friend also interesting choice of words she says kristen was robbed she was robbed it would imply that something was forcibly taken from him, there was nothing about addiction, it's bad.

What addiction leads to, she says my friend's life was stolen from her. Now maybe I'm trying a little, but those wouldn't have been the words she would have chosen plus the fact that Courtney could have used them as a platform. To speak out against drug addiction, naturally, after Kristen's death, her mother, Janet, wants to know more about Kristen's time in Seattle and these people who led her to get into this drug scene, The more people Janet talked to, the more she kept hearing how jealous Courtney was. kristen and

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's relationship kristin was a trained musician she was an artist she loved reading books she loved talking about the history of rock and roll kristin also understood genres and how they had evolved to the grunge movement all the things that kurt loved According to Dave Grohl, Kurt and Kristen spent hours on the phone just chatting about music and art, while Courtney loved talking about how famous she had become as an artist.

Kurt and Kristen were busy talking about making art. Kids, believe it or not, it's something that Your Moms and Dads used to do, we used to spend hours on the phone talking to each other instead of texting. Kurt and Kristen were known to have had four five-hour phone conversations, but what could Courtney really say about it? She had many male friends. The guys involved in her and Kurt's lives were ex-lovers of hers, so it's not like she could say you can't be friends with my bandmate Kristen, although she did try to break up Kurt and Kristen's friendship upon reaching the Kristen's younger brother, Jason Let.

I tell you how Kristin ended up in Seattle and how Jason soon followed her and found himself caught in the middle of a love triangle. Tristan Faff's talent was limitless. She is one of those people who could have been anything. She could have played the cello. could have been a volleyball player, could have been a cheerleader, could have been an academic, could have been an intellectual, an author, but she chose music, she chose bass, her formative years were spent in the Buffalo Catholic school system, she attended Sacred Heart and, while there, she became proficient at cello, piano, and whatever else, she stood up to the cheer team, the yearbook committee, you name it, she did it, everyone loved her, there was no one, no matter what eras group, noThere was only one person she wasn't friends with. with and the boys chased her during her school years here we have a couple of photos of her before and after school dances kristen graduates in 1985 and briefly attends boston university before receiving a scholarship to study abroad in holland fast forward to 88 89 and kristen enrolls at the university of minnesota this is where she will enter the underground punk rock scene and what we would call grunge rock while at the university of minnesota she works as a crisis counselor for rape victims, she specializes in women's studies and earn 150 credits, that's almost double the number of credits a person would need to earn an associate's degree.

Kristin decides to finish her formal education because she wants to pursue a career in music. Several professional musicians have told me that if a person can master the piano, they can play anything and I believe this because the piano was the first thing Kristin mastered and when she picked up the bass a few months later she had mastered it completely self-taught. The first band that Kristen Faff formed in Minneapolis was called Drool It. It featured some of the members of the famous Minneapolis underground bands, the cows and god bullies, it is the second band that kristin forms with joachim beer and matt enzminger that begins to receive national and even international attention. k records even in washington will pay attention to the melody maker All the way across the Atlantic Ocean I'll be paying attention to janitor Joe.

I have something to admit to you right now. I didn't know who Janet or Joe were in high school, in high school in the '90s, I found them when I started. researching everything and

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and this channel came up and I'm telling you, janitor joe, if you've never listened to janet or joe, try it right now, if you like grunge, you're going to like it, it's great for kristen. She was an incredibly motivated person, anything she could think of, she could achieve. Matthew Brewer in 1992, Janitor Joe, is the talk of the underground music scene in Minneapolis and in 1993, Amphetamine Reptil Records releases his first album, Big Metal Birds.

Big Metal Birds is released to great success. acclaim both nationally and internationally and not only is Kristen's musicianship beginning to be noticed around the world as a bassist, but she is becoming known as one of the best friends, family and acquaintances all say this notoriety that was getting didn't change it. In some ways, according to Pat Dwyer, she was the most peaceful kind person you'll ever meet before and after fame. It is also because of that great acclaim that Big Metal Bird received in '93 that Kristen Faff became caught in the eye of Courtney Love, who preferred to have other women in her band, Janitor Joe was scheduled to play at a small club in Los Angels in '93.

Courtney and Eric proposed to appear, then he came backstage and approached her. Courtney brags about being married to Kurt Cobain, they invite her. on the spot to join the band Kristen wonders what happened to your old base and here's the answer Courtney gave to Kristen and here's the answer you'll get if you go to Wikipedia right now Leslie Hardy was the base from '92 to '93 during everything just before kristen faff joined the band according to Courtney and Eric and the narrative that Courtney passes that Leslie Hardy's playing was not good enough, she did not meet the required standards and therefore they decided to let her go, but according to Leslie Hardy she resigned for the same. reasons why joe emery, the previous bases, quit and caroline rue, the previous drummer before patty schimmel quit,

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was such a big band and she wanted that too.

Courtney's thing is I want to be pop, I want to change, I don't mind changing, I love it. but I don't want to go from A to Z, it feels fake and I think it's both, I can't do it. She signed everything thinking they were going to play things like Pretty in the Inside Hole. The first album, Pretty on the Inside, is very much underground music, raw, aggressive and obscene, not melodic, that you can't touch with your foot. Pretty on the inside, so Leslie Hardy joins the band thinking that's the kind of music they play, but when they leave to start rehearsing for the next album, well, Courtney Love met Kurt Cobain and all this melody got into the songs and Leslie said she felt like she was an impostor, she felt like we were lying, she felt like we were fake and she couldn't.

Do it, I couldn't get past this raunchy, aggressive music to MTV, another reason why band members in general are quitting left and right and it's like God, what's going on, you know, it's not a fun drug a time you have a habit and you don't do it you get sick so to avoid getting sick you take more drugs I remember knocking on my door you tell her I wanted to score and she says: open the door give me money contrary to popular belief there were many Seattle musicians who were not involved in heroin rings and didn't get involved in the darker side of the music business now, of course, Courtney isn't going to tell Kristin that instead she spends the narrative well, they weren't good enough , we tried them. and they just didn't work, but you're good enough.

Courtney won't tell her about the dark side of everything, at least not until she has it under her control with her signature on a contract. Courtney uses her and her manipulative personality. woos kristen to come and join the band, but not before offering her a very big bonus before kristen agrees to join the band, there were two exceptions, one, you're going to give me a big bonus, two, my place It's temporary, originally, Kristen Faff only signed Hull to record the lib through this album and do the whole summer tour in '94. That was all after she got back with the janitor Joe Kristen was very worried about leaving her friends joaquin and matt, i didn't want to just leave them high and dry and plus they were getting a lot of attention and again i'm telling you check out their big metal album Birds, it will kick your dick into the ground after meeting Courtney and Eric.

Janet Faff's mother Kristen begged her not to go to Seattle. And to stay in Minneapolis with the janitor Joe, it was her adoptive father, Norma, who encouraged her and told her: Look, they're already successful. They're on a big record label. You always wanted to be a professional musician and get paid for your musical ability. Go ahead she listened to her father now we can't blame him of course in hindsight I'm 20 20 but the older I get the more I believe in a mother's intuition and we can say you know it's a shame she didn't listen to her. mother but she passes the pass and we have to deal with it the band hole gets a big bonus from geffen records they give kristen she moves to capitol hill in seattle, which at the time had more heroin addicts per meter square than any other district in America The band uses Kristin's Capitol Hill apartment as a rehearsal space before flying to Atlanta to record live and this is where Courtney's true personality begins to come to light and Kristen has a little sample of what he will have to face under the control of Courtney Love.

Two life-changing events happen to Kristen when she moves to Seattle. One hangs out with Eric Erlinson. Her childhood friend called the relationship, quote-unquote, a nightmare and said that Kristen had revealed to her that she felt very alone, very vulnerable and basically stayed with Eric because he was the first man she met in Seattle, think about it, the young, moved across the country, big new company, probably a little intimidated, probably scared, there's a guy around all the time, she's getting romantically involved with Eric now more out of desperation than real love. for eric that would be a different story, it would be to the point of obsession, the second major thing that happens to kristen within a few weeks of moving to seattle, she is addicted to heroin, apparently eric didn't make kristin feel very safe , because not after a long time.

Additionally, she invites her younger brother Jason to come live with her at her apartment in Seattle. Jason is around 17-18 at the moment and when he first arrives, Kristen shows him a purse that Courtney Love had given her. It was full of clean needles and heroin. Courtney was supplying Kristin with heroin for free. Let me speak very quickly. Let me talk to any of you younger people, who haven't used drugs yet, if someone in your life ever offers you an addictive drug. free, know that they have something in mind for you, nothing is free and you may not realize it but they have something in mind and if you continue to get that free medicine from them you will pay for it one way or another, never think about it That someone is your friend because they supply you with drugs, in any case they see you as a sheep that will easily follow you now.

Kristen's family was a very close family and Kristen tells her parents that she has become addicted to heroin. Kristen was worried. her own well-being isn't like it's like woo hoo party time you know the world she tells her parents everything and her mom tries to convince her to drop everything come home go detox Kristen's worry is that I'm in a contract I've signed a contract, not only have I signed a contract to record an album and go on a summer tour in 1994. I've already spent the bonus money to move to Seattle. I can't return that money.

I'm stuck here the only thing Courtney Love hates is rejection. There is a long line of people who left Courtney because of her irrational behavior. Courtney knows that she signed a contract for him. I got her hooked on drugs. She's not going anywhere. She is under my control. I have this amazing, beautiful base that people will buy tickets to come see and I control her and she's not going anywhere. Kristin most likely couldn't even get heroin from wherever she went, after all, Courtney was the one who supplied her with the drug. Probably Kristen I don't even know where to get heroin in Seattle, so when you have to go to someone else to get a drug, you have to do it constantly every day or you'll go into withdrawal and throw up and shake and of course you'll do it.

Whatever that person tells you to do, they will continue to give you the drug and you will not get sick. Kristen was not only stuck financially but also mentally and physically because she is addicted to a drug that will make you sick if you stop using it. Jason Faff, I was there and witnessed a lot of the crazy stuff that happened as Courtney and the rest of the band pushed Kristen into drugs more than she could handle. Now most people have a childhood friend or a long-time friend that they tell everything to. to that person that you know you can really trust for kristin that this girl's name was kathy hewitt and kathy hewitt tells us that kristen actually got along with Courtney at first until they flew to Atlanta to record this live during the recording sessions Kristen starts suggesting song arrangements, after all Kristin is a professional musician, she was Janitor Joe's frontwoman, she pushed Janitor Joe to international underground fame.

Courtney didn't like that. Courtney is currently still learning to play. She guitar, she's never been in a band with melody, she learned all the melody from Billy Corgan and Kurt Cobain. Billy Corgan and Kurt Cobain rub off on Courtney and even show her snippets and make up snippets for her to write lyrics to Kristen, naturally, she says. well, this would sound better this way or this should come before this, whatever it is, this is where Courtney Love's infamous quote from the Atlanta recording sessions comes from, you, my guitarist, my husband, are now Trying to tell me how to sing.

Not with me or you'll regret it forever again Jason Faff Courtney yelled at Kristen all the time I think she wanted Kristin to know who the boss was I think Kristen was afraid of Courtney Kathy Hewitt tells us that Kristen referred to Courtney as the most selfish Manic, insecure, power-hungry person she once knew, Kristen tells Kathy in a conversation that I'm interested in making music, but Courtney only seems interested in being famous for all the crazy things she does now for Courtney Love. Kurt Cobain is her triumph. card Courtney Love goes out of her way to alienate anyone who tries to get close to Kirk, even Buzz Osborne of the Melvins, tells us these people like Courtney Love got hooked and then we were out of the picture she didn't like him. from the beginning so I wasn't surprised that I was pushed into the background to make things worse between Kristen and Courtney Kurt develops a bond with Kristin Kurt likes Kristen He goes out of his way to talk to Kristen Jason Pfaff is one of the people who witnessed it, after all, would be sitting on the couch watching TV while his sister Kristen talks on the phone with Kurt Cobain for hours straight within the book Love and Death, The Murder of Kurt Cobain by Max Wallace and Ian Halperin. there is a chapter on kristen in fact there is a youtube channel that reads the entire chapter of chap sw studios book if you are interested jason faff tells max wallace and ian halperin that they spent hours talking together while jason remembers kurt was extremely The affection he had for Kristin made himCourtney would get very jealous.

Courtney watched them closely. I don't think they were involved. In fact, I'm pretty sure not, but Courtney was jealous because Kristen was so beautiful and smart and she had a lot. In common with Kurt they used to talk about books, art and music, I don't think that made Courtney very happy, in fact Courtney went to Jason, Kristen's younger brother, and complained to him that Kurt and Kristen were hooking up. too much two weeks later when Kurt Giffs a copy of his favorite book patrick suskin perfume for kristen with a signed note on the inside cover Courtney was furious why all this trouble over a simple gif like a book because Courtney knew that a Kurt didn't like many people like him.

The character within the book, Kurt did everything he could to stay away from people. The books were a prized element of Kurt Cobain's records. They were a prized element of Kurt Cobain. There were things he really loved, so Kurt gave Kristen a copy of this book. symbolic wasn't just hey, you're my friend, I'm giving you a gift, it was hey, I think you're on the same level as me, I connect with you, let me share with you something I appreciate, Courtney knew how. relevant this gesture was very quick i'm going to express my own opinion i don't think kurt

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and kristen ever had sex however i think it was quickly heading in that direction i think in the end kristen was leaving holes she was leaving seattle kurt was leaving Nirvana temporarily possibly he was definitely leaving Courtney definitely leaving Seattle he told his friends he was going east where was Kristen going she was going east they were connecting and sharing a lot of thoughts and feelings with each other and kurt they were breaking up with Courtney Courtney saw this she knew this she feared this if Kurt and Kristen had been given more time, I think they would have eventually gotten together as a couple, it's just that my opinion was that Kurt Cobain and Kristen Faff were physically intimate, not , they were intellectually. intimate, did they unite on an emotional level?

Hell yes, they were when Kristen broke up with Eric around Christmas 1993 and spent a lot of time on the phone with Kurt, Courtney's husband, it became very clear that Courtney Love was not succeeding and she is going to abuse Kristin emotionally. physically in any way she can to control kristen to get kristen to do what she wanted her to do and to keep kristen away from kurt kathy hewitt kristen's old childhood friend tells us that i think kristen's relationship with eric Erlinson was more of a relationship of convenience rather than love. When Kristen first arrived in Seattle, Eric was there to welcome her with open arms.

I think their relationship eventually dissolved because Kristen wanted a change from the sordid life Eric was leading shortly after the breakup. Eric seems to recover and begins. dating actress draw barrymore the album is complete kristin returns to minneapolis everything seems fine kristin remains in contact with kurt cobain through phone conversations and letters so it's february 1993 kristin is back in minneapolis with her friend joaquin brewer and matt enzminger and the hammerhead guys and god bullies and all those cool underground bands he knew during his college days in minnesota eric moved on to full album kristin is just waiting for Hole's summer tour that's his last obligation he has to get over the summer tour with Hole and then she is free from her contract to do whatever she wants, she can continue fully or she can just go back to janet or joe during this time when kristen finds out about kurt's death, janet faff, She was devastated, it was a great loss for her. she lost someone she really respected they had a lot in common with each other it was a big wake up call for her kristen stopped using drugs the day kurt died immediately kristen faff entered a detox center for the first time immediately after kurt's death kurt cobain she said she was done with drugs and I went straight to a detox center in May 94.

She tells the local alternative newspaper The Minnesota every night how happy she is to be home. How good it feels for her to be sober. I'm having a great time doing the things I'm doing now, getting back with my friends and playing music together, which I really missed. I couldn't continue in Seattle because the local scene was so stagnant. It's a nice way of saying I'm done with that nonsense when asked. Regarding her friendship with Kurt Cobain and her thoughts on his death, she simply said that "the guy broke my heart" and did not elaborate.