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THE TRUTH..

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hi guys welcome back to my channel I know I have enough filmed specifically on this channel in a very long time and I'm not consistent at all with this channel oh and my if my voice sounds I sound like a memory I sound so manly and so rusty but it's kind of sick but this is a video that I've been holding off for a while now and I still feel so nervous to film this finger for so many reasons but I guess it's time to finally film this video it's probably why I'm making in slow motion I haven't even started I definitely wasn't ready to film this video just yet but let me just try to get it over with a lot of you guys have been wondering and a lot of you guys have been messaging me the question is if I am pregnant and surprised guys I am pregnant but a lot of you guys already knew that but I have not confirmed anything I have not denied anything why am i crying this is supposed to be a happy video I'm saluting and I know I don't sound as happy as I should be but I have but I have so many emotions so much situation I guess I just wanted to make this quick video I don't want to make it too long so if I'm not talking to talking talking but the whole purpose of this video was to confirm that yes I am pregnant also to say why I have not confirmed anything why I haven't really been speaking upon it and I have been seeing a lot of comments I'm saying we're like why I have ghosts on social media and a lot of common thing that...
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I've been acting a lot different that I've been acting SoDo once so that's boring and I feel like I've been holding in so much and I've just been like there's just so much going on behind the scenes that I love you guys don't know and it's the main reason why I have been hiding my pregnancy and no it's not because I'm trying to pull a Kylie Jenner a lot of you guys really saying that I'm I'm ashamed that I'm pregnant but no there has been a lot of reasons why I have been hiding my pregnancy and and to start off with my whole I want to say three four months of my pregnancy it's been completely hell just because there has been so much going on you guys like so much going on in my personal life and it's the reason why I haven't been so active on my social media and obviously I wasn't in the right state of mind to for me to come out and saying oh I'm pregnant because I've always always wanted to do this very very special I always wanted to do this very very positive and very happy and very like excited and exciting but I'm not seeing I got pregnant at the wrong time a lot of things just happened as soon as like I found out I was reading it in my personal life and on social media that obviously you guys know a couple months back and it's been extremely tough trying to stay positive especially because I'm very very emotional I've been extremely emotional but I think because of my hormones...
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I'm top of my personal life just being crazy and insane and and also on top of you guys seeing stuff on social media happy to be like two months ago there has been so much negativity on social media because I've been hiding my pregnancy or because I've been ashamed with my pregnancy that and I promise you guys I'm usually the type to always encourage other people to get on social media like to have a tough shell when it comes to the negativity and to use that negativity to motivate you and to make you keep working harder and harder and just being yourself on social media but but I think since it's a more sensitive subject to where I'm bringing a baby like my baby and it's something that it's very very special something that's the reason why I hide in it because it kind of feels like I've been trying to protect it from everything and everyone exciting knowing that I'm bringing for a really long time you guys would be surprised and if for some reason I do feel like I owe a lot of people in explanation and I'm not talking about people who have been coming at me a foul on my DMS who I've been sending me hate messages because there has been a lot there has been a lot of people and I'm surprised because it's been a lot more hate than what I usually get I really don't get get hate but for some reason with my pregnancy I have been needing a lot more than I expected just because a lot of people think that I'm ashamed...
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and I've been getting a lot of messages and I have been really really disturbing the point where it actually has been getting to me but it just feels like social media has been weighing me down with all the negativity and me being so angry with myself and the only reason why I say that I mean even my service because I know I'm a lot of stronger than this and I think we're six me the most about like me not being able to handle everything on her once is that I I've been stressing out my baby which irritates me because it gets me so mad cuz I have been so stressed out I've been so appreciated and my baby doesn't deserve to feel everything that I'm feeling it just doesn't deserve to already feel so like so many bad emotions that obviously life happens shits gonna happen I cannot control that I also don't want to be too hard on myself just because I have been able to pick myself up with the help of the baby's father with me mom my mom has been so helpful she has been extremely helpful I randomly car crying and she knows exactly what to say can you see that so I'm extremely grateful for that my sister's to just everyone around me like Alondra at this point I am praying and praying and praying and praying and asking God please please give me the strength to be strong for my baby at least for my baby because I I'm just tired and I'm frustrated and I feel more sane more at ease and more good with myself and more relaxed and I...
have been a lot more happier and I'm just extremely grateful and burst at the baby's healthy there's absolutely nothing wrong with it the doctor's appointments have been absolutely amazing so I'm just extremely grateful and I'm blessed to say that I have a healthy baby on the way and I couldn't be more happy about that but like I said I do feel like I kind of owe an explanation I mean my people I mean the people that have been extremely nice to me that I haven't already congratulating me thank you guys and who have been supporting me and who understand that it's a baby that's on the line that people are being so negative about that it's a whole human and I own it like I'm a mommy I heart as you guys can see like I love being on my nephews and my niece peanut butter jelly peanut butter jelly peanut butter jelly peanut butter jelly peanut butter jelly peanut butter peanut butter jelly I love you like a minion oh the fact that I'm having my own little one it makes me kind of sad in a way but just because like I don't wanna I feel like I haven't finished enjoying my baby switches like Jordan and Annie in Branson obviously like there's time for everything but also baby having because um I promise you guys these are tears of joy because because I know how much I'm going to love my baby I just wish it was here already I really know what it's like to truly fall in love with the baby I actually would take care...
of breath when he was a newborn with my sister because my brother-in-law he would regulate at night so I'm basically breath instead good part-time dad because I literally raised Branson with my sister I was there judging his diapers giving him his bottles so I know what to expect when it comes to newborn I also do know what that feeling is like truly falling in love with a baby a like till this day I still cry that the kids are growing up because I get so mad I'm just it's not fair like I want them to be babies and I know I smell so selfish in the ignorant because obviously they're gonna drill bit I'm just excited that I'm treating one for myself because if I couldn't fall in love with my my sister's kids like I could just imagine how I am gonna be with my kids so I'm just really excited and anxious and I am kinda nervous but not really because I'm just more anxious and excited and I don't want her to grow where's the baby so that's gonna be hard for me having to realize maybe this Corey I'm gonna end up wanting to make more and more more anyway no God knows what he's doing with me I know God knows what he's doing with my the family that I'm creating and with this baby that I'm bringing into this world and I wanted to share this with you guys especially with people who want I wanna get on social media from who I feel afraid to put something personal out there on social media because because let me tell...
you it is hard and I give props to every single influencer who can put their personal life on social media and still have a tough shell because it is extremely hard have finally been strong enough and we could be like no like I'm Adam let any of this negative crap gets them anymore like this is my life this is my happiness this is my baby a baby that's God sending me you guys should probably pray to have a better heart because I'm so so confused on how there's so many cruel people out there and by you guys I only mean the people who have been sitting me hey messages for example this one but to be honest um I do just want to tell you guys that you guys definitely can do it you guys can get through all the all the hate that people leave on social media because at the end of the day we cannot please every single body and there's so many people on social media it's bound to happen for you to get hating so I just really really hope that a lot of people who are scared to be to get on social media do not get discouraged and to put whatever you guys want to put out there on social media without caring what people think and even if that means you have you have to take a break off social media then do it I promise you guys it works but yeah the whole purpose of this entire video was just kind of thank you guys for sending me I'm so so so much love and to confirm that I'm pregnant you guys we're having a baby I know there's good-hearted people out...
there and that makes me extremely happy and that's who I want to share my experience with that's how I want to keep updating about my pregnancy look it's you guys that said I want to keep giving back to it I know a lot of you guys have a lot of questions and a lot of assumption that cuz I did see a lot of assumptions on social media as well I do want to make that a whole separate video for you guys but I cannot wait to share this experience with you guys for you guys to be in this journey with me and I cannot thank you guys enough it has been such a roller coaster but all I can say that I has been getting better what's obviously thought it has been getting a lot better yeah I'm gonna just end this video right here you guys and before closing off this video I do want to say that I am going to be posting I want to say once week on this channel it is going to be about my pregnancy or even if it has to do with a flash or any business related video of you guys feel free to comment down below whatever it's want me to film because I do want to make this more of a person channel and I also want to make it where I can help other girls with anything that when it comes to advice tips with business related questions business related videos with anything and of course I am going to be happy i rekt difficult 100 dollar giveaway for this video are you guys just have to do was just comment down below and maybe you guys should comment down below with your cash apps it...
could be a lot easier once again thank you guys so so much before I actually close out this video I do want to say that M Wing boss babe lashes from the lash part Italy I don't even get to see that but the only lashes that I do where is the lash part a lady lashes I am gonna put a link for the website down below and last but not least I am wearing our new ulti fresh hoodies we just received it in all of the mood I'm gonna put the link for that down below and me and this baby you you said what I did there I have no longer alone we'll see you guys in our next video