Kristen Stewart Breaks Down Her Career, from Panic Room to Twilight | Vanity Fair

Art is comfort because it comes through you like something happens and suddenly you have an idea and when those moments happen it's like a religious thing like it feels like oh my God, oh my God, I was so lucky, it's really lucky. something really weird, so the thirteenth year was a movie where my mom was a script supervisor. Initially, I was a little kid going on set and hanging out with the crew and seeing other kids on set and thinking, well, what's up. What are they doing? I want to be with you all the time. Why do I have to go back to school?

Why do I have to go? I wanted to be around that energy before I knew why that energy attracted me. I'm standing in line at a water fountain, so yeah, I think I like Lean, that's one of my most challenging jobs. In fact, I really loved it there. I loved not having to go home and being part of the circus was a lot of fun, but then when the movie came out and a couple of kids at school noticed I was in it for a second, it was like I wasn't welcome. I said: no, I don't know my mom, I don't know anything, but it was amazing.

I didn't like the conversations that happen later at school about why Filipa, who are you, what do you like an actor, now you know what happens if they come in here, no, they can't, they can't come in here, that's not a possibility.

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Jodie Foster threw me a birthday party when I turned 11 with a mariachi band. She never wanted to leave every time I had to go home because it had been 9 hours. I thought why am I okay, I can kick it, I can. He hangs up, I'm not tired, I never said no, it's actually him for your well-being and I said, I'm fine, thank you.

Can I stay in terms of preparation? You know, you take in as much information as you can and somehow I hope it becomes something physical, but I can never put anything into place until it's said, until I feel like there's an honor in the moment and there's a reason why you're doing it. something as absurd as pretending to be someone else. I had to learn how to have a seizure. I remember it scared the hell out of everyone else just thinking, "Oh, this is too intense for some of you and watching the videos could be traumatizing for someone that age and I like the broken blood vessels and my eyes and I eat alone and I remember." be like what's cool now things affect me I'm like sensitive and but when I was little I was like I don't know it's not a big deal whatever yeah it was a good first test it was like not an easy job I'm serious , we really had to like delve into some heavy stuff and I turned 11 in that movie so it was a formative moment, my roof definitely got that kid, it was a movie about a little boy who robs a bank to save his Dad and I was heartbreakingly obsessed with this, okay, who has the coats?

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to room It was my first leading role, but even with a small role in a movie that everyone has in the. hand this really precarious bowl of water in the hope that not a drop would slip and I felt like I would have done anything for the movie that Sean Penn drew me into nature, in fact, I initially read the table and I really didn't have it. very afraid of that. I remember thinking like I told him you know I'll do anything in the movie like it's not like that.

I don't even need to play one of the roles. It's amazing to have met you. It's amazing that it was part of the movie. complete reading because that in itself felt like it was its own animal, like it really stood up and it was an experience that I remember, so he said, well, which one would you like to play and I said, probably, the girl who plays the guitar and I played? for him, I liked auditioning after reading it and I couldn't even face it. He was like in front of a wall, interpreting Blackbird very badly.

He couldn't sing it, just talking about filming that movie, it was the first time he worked with someone who felt. so unstructured and so instinctive in terms of capturing footage that we had as a breakaway team almost everywhere we went, he slung a camera over his shoulder. Erik Gautier, who is like one of my favorite CDs of all time, was also running around shooting Lake like we did. I don't know what we're going to do until we find him. I hear a lot about people talking about it all the time, but that doesn't mean they really have the balls to commit to not knowing before they meet Sean.

He's like a master at it those few days over a meal and he and Eric made me want to direct movies watching the way he led this wild charge. I thought yes, absolutely, that's what I would love to do. When we did Twilight, I knew the fan base was big for the book, there was no way to prepare myself for the response it got. We went to Comic Con and there were so many people there who knew more about the series than I did. It was kind of the first indication that it was going to be what it was and the idea of ​​making a sequel at that time to me was absurd, it was strange to me to suddenly be asked the question like "Okay, well, now that we're ".

Here, how do we do this right? How do we capitalize on this? Basically, all of a sudden, opportunity is like relaxing and going well. The best experiences I've had on any project, if there was any, were when you feel naturally and instinctively attracted to a person and there's something you're both thinking about, you're meditating on, and it becomes obsessive and compulsive. You make a movie because that's all I know and at the time I was allowed to choose weird things that no one believed in because it made a big impact. movie once, so yeah, it definitely blew my mind.

I caught them in Adventureland she was just the coolest person and I felt so intimidated by her, I mean her name is and it's not even Emily, okay you don't even walk by there. your full name, even if I can't fully identify with the person I'm playing, we can all understand each other, maybe I wouldn't say our act a certain way or whatever, but I can always find it somewhere embedded. I have never touched something where I didn't understand the person. I grew up in Los Angeles, so I think we're huge like radio culture. I listened to a lot of Joan Jett when she was younger, she was so essential when I met her. making the movie was really crazy because she's like an animal, she's got Barb and stuff because she's protecting something really precious like she's, you know, dressed in leather, really driven like chaotically obsessed with music and can't stop scrolling even Your body, your body is a muscle. like it reflects so much of who she is as a person, she's a real wire live at our first band rehearsal, we were playing Cherry Bomb and I just wasn't engaging at all because we weren't filming, why would I completely? lean completely into this when we're not really here to capture it, you know what I mean, it felt almost like I was walking around on something or making a bad impression just for the sake of it.

I saw her face as if she were you. You know we would spend all this time together and all of a sudden I felt like I dropped the ball or something and you know, she doesn't make movies, I don't make music, we do different things, I had to literally beg, like run. and like approaching her and saying, trust me, I just don't work like that, I just can't do it right now and she said she was fine and then we filmed it a couple days later and she was fine. happy with what I did, whatever it was and it was really disturbing and twisted watching her watch, you know, really formative parts of her life come to life, but yeah, very intimidated, she was like crying.

I swear, I can do this. I think she's happy with She still talks to me so he's here just to watch the project I'm not interested it's okay he's a great director just listen to him you don't have to it's probably the best feedback I've ever had I have always felt super allowed. environments with the French is funny, even even doing press, I have meetings with French filmmakers and work with Olivier a couple of times now, subverting the material is your gain, I mean, like making something feel alive in the moment and unplanned , existential and strange, but I wasn't holier than Alec, there was just one thing where I felt like I could bang my head against a wall trying to figure something out and that would be the moment instead of saying, Why haven't you completed a perfect sentence?

I was like, no, of course, this is beautiful, you let her do what she's going to do. It's like, that's what we're all trying to do. I'm a big fan of Olivier. I mean, I'd be honest and say I don't think he would have said that. No, it really meant a lot to me to win that award for Olivier because he's just one of the most brilliant artists working and I love him. You have your interpretation to interpret. I think mine is confusing you. What are you waiting for? we did this, whoever died first was in the other a sign from the beyond you could call it that you could call a million things the personal shopper I play someone who has lost their other half basically it's a girl who has a twin who loses her brother and it gets lost so completely that you know black and white, hot and cold, and the words you use to communicate with others just take on shape and color and literally nothing makes sense to you going into the movie. obsessed with that part, I only realized in retrospect after having seen the movie what it was and my goal as an actor is to be as prepared or knowledgeable as possible to be so subject to something that you feel like the lack of control It's really stimulating.

I've had some experiences that have shaken me to the point where I felt like I didn't know my name to be able to mention it, but at the same time I don't really know what's going on all the time, like every time I watch a movie I've acted in. As much as I try to control things or ask a million questions or live in the director's front pocket if I've done my job correctly I shouldn't even know what the movies about you are about I don't need to feel guilty Laura deserves to be happy and so do you .

I knew I wanted to direct films before I had anything to deny, it was really frustrating for a long time because I was aware of the desire but had nowhere to put it. I was just obsessed with this image of a chair at the bottom of the ocean, like a classroom chair, and it was like that chair doesn't belong there and it was really scary that that chair was there. I started thinking about capturing that image and why I was so obsessed with it. God likes to write and direct anything. It's like you. I think I grew up to realize that you don't need to be smarter than other people, you don't need to know things that people don't know, you know you're not like to provide a curriculum to life, it's actually more of an experience. staff to try to save this. gap between us where are you going God, I've had this idea and I want to say it very loudly to see how many people feel this way so we can be less alone, that's why you make movies, you know and the directors I've worked with that I don't even I could play like people who are scholars, people who have spent their entire lives obsessed with movies and watching every single one of them and went to school and did you know something like that?

I never could, I mean. Look, I'm not there, but when they have a regular, ordinary moment with you, what they do best is make someone feel comfortable enough to like being themselves, that's not something you learn, that's not something you can teach other people and there are a million mistakes you can make, but it's not about making something perfect if you get to the end of an experience and feel like everyone is better for it. I guarantee that any footage you capture will be interesting to watch, so yes, I want to do that as much as I can.

You sound like a woman to me, but you insist you're a man. You know it's not really my responsibility to help you overcome your own discomfort. about how I make you feel like I can never be a woman, what I really love about the movie is that JT really is kind of an idea and whether or not you were personally angry about the lie, it just makes you angry. to go well what is the truth and what is a lie because everyone has their own version of that and if you say that you are someone that you are not and then who are you to say Who I am you know what I mean so it's me I think the good thing about the movie is that something that's becoming a lot easier for people who are younger than me is that it's not actually confusing because it's not something you can understand.

I think confusion and something like that. The discomfort that people feel about gender politics makes a lot of sense because nobody wants to feel stupid and nobody wants to feel bad or like and sometimes if you don't know something right away you feel stupid and you feel bad, you feel like it's okay, but like if you have a little patience, it's not easy, the conversation is longer, if you really care about someone and you care about getting to know them, then if you know, take some time and I think those knee-jerk reactions , hopefully, they are becoming something. from the past it's like you don't have to know right away, but just relax and know,I think there's that kind of rash at jtu, but I'd love to think we're getting a little more comfortable.

Without knowing things, the new Charlie's Angels movie makes me smile. I believe women can do anything. Just because they can, doesn't mean they should be that talented. oh, just a decoy stat. I hate seeing movies that are like badass action movies directed by women where you can tell they took the plot of a movie directed by men and just changed her name to Bobbie, like you know, to sue me. I love the idea of ​​that, but the cool thing is that when you see that women really like to use their innate strengths, it's about three girls who are actually friends and it's about the fact that power in numbers is undeniably something. terrifying for people who have been in power for too long.

I'm also really proud of the other girls because I'm old and they're not, and they really impressed me a lot. I am very, very, very proud of them. I don't think he is. Someday I will stop making movies. I don't know what I would do without it. Hopefully I feel as challenged and as active as I feel now. I think a lot of people want to be artists. I think it's a really attractive thing, but I think. Like being one isn't even something you know you can keep forever it's not something you know where it comes from necessarily it's not an end goal it's something that impacts I hope that keeps happening for me I think every moment I even like The Bad Splashes They were necessary and they brought me here.