I Didn't Know I Was Me - Bishop T.D. Jakes [September 29, 2019]

I'm going to go right to the word of God, we can pick up the dog of God and I'm just ready to download this. I'm ready. I'm carrying this city a little heavy. I want to take it out. Hey man, how many people came to receive a word from the Lord, your God? He's been talking to me about this message all week and I'm excited to share it with you. I believe that God has to do great things. Go to the chapter of Jeremiah. 1 verse from 4 to 5 yes, yes and then I will go to the judges from 6 to 11.

I will read the judges from 6 to 11, judges from 6 to 11 first from 6 to 11, from 11 to 16, 60 of the eleventh verse to the 16th and then I'll take the eighteenth. verse just for a little longer, it is our custom to represent the reading of the word, that is why people are standing around you and do not leave. I don't think, hey, someone when you get to judges 6 11 will read up to verse 16 and then we'll read verse 18 and we'll go further when you haven't said man, the angel of the Lord came and sat under the oak in the oak tree that belonged to Joyce, there are bars right where his son Gideon was threshing wheat in a large winepress to keep it away from the Midianites.

Notice that up close he was threshing wheat in a winepress to keep it from the Midianites. Now really expand on this when the angel of the Lord appeared to Gideon and said: Lord is with you mighty warrior forgive me my lord make me answer him but if the Lord is with us why did all this happen to us that all the time if the Lord He is with us why all this has happened to us where are all his wonders that Our ancestors told us when they said that the Lord did not bring us out of Egypt, but now the Lord has abandoned us and delivered us into the hands of Midian.

Look, this is going to be really good for all those people who are going through something right now. and you feel abandoned and you wonder if the Lord is with you the Lord turned to him and said go with the strength you have if I see correctly I have preached to you for so long I have produced a church full of preaching that I don't even have To get to the point , you choose my points for me, go with the strength you have and save Israel from the millions. Am I not sending you, forgive me, my lord, or say what dizzying answers, but how can I save Israel?

My clan is the weakest in Vanessa and I am the smallest in my family. The Lord answered and said, I will be with you, and you will defeat all the Midianites, leaving none alive. Oh my God, understand, so move, he said today, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, please do it. I'm not leaving until I come back and bring my offering and put it before you and the Lord said I'll wait until you come back that's good hit them that's good now stand I'm going to pray with you and then I'm going to preach . and this is the topic preach teach whatever we have a little drain so don't let it distract you this is my topic this morning I

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it was me I would have done it I did it differently but I didn't know I was leaving I would have paid more attention but I didn't know I was late I would have been more careful but I didn't know it was me I would have resisted the enemy better but I didn't know it was me Am I in the right house?

Let us pray as we stand Spirit of the Living God we are here right now needing you there is no other attraction there is no star there is no vanguard there is no here there is no attraction but you no one can come but you we need you you are the centerpiece of everything that is put in place the table and I want you to manifest yourself in this place that we receive more than we expected that we receive more I want us to receive so much that we eat from it all week yes, I want to receive so much in our spirit Lord that we leave here stronger than when we entered I want that you touch us in a supernatural way inform us inspire us educate us impart us invigorate us motivate us liberate us saturate us great God that you are I create you for things that I do not even have the intellect to articulate I am asking you for things that I cannot even express I am asking you to answer the question that comes up like a moan the pain that comes out like a sigh the question that falls like a tear I want you to read the sign language of my pain get into the DNA of my spirit and move in a supernatural way I thank you in advance for what you are going to do neither I don't even need to see you do it I praise you now you can do it later in the name of Jesus let's go to the father's house do whatever you do you can sit down let's go to work I'm going to spend the first five or ten minutes addressing some pretty heavy stuff that is the framework through which I will place the image of Gideon's experience.

If you miss the opulence of the frame, you will not be able to appreciate the details of the image because the frame dignifies the image with context and what good is a text under you in the house get up brother. I appreciate that you have been praying for yourself. Praise God for this brother. The devil thought he had it, but. he escaped they have brought him back to the service of God welcome what is the use of a tax without context what is the use of music without sheet music what is the use of dancing without feet what is the use of rhythm without music so putting the Mexican context requires that I begin this discussion from an unusual place I want to start with God with God God hips have that the notion of God not Church not religion God the one who rules and super rules and reigns has absolute control the auspicious there are militants one are not in the present all are enough one the rest have died the consolation of Israel the mighty God the Prince of Peace God not appointed not chosen God no one put it in no one can take it out God with all power the sovereign no one can challenge it God the one who sits in the circle of the earth that habit It's Easterlin the earth is his footstool God who gives you oxygen and movement and liberty and freedom and life and activity that kept your heart beating while you were sleeping, you know you didn't, but a beep sounded while you were, I was still hit because God regulated your temperature, your blood pressure, the rhythm of the way blood runs through your cells, God orchestrated long things under his power, I call. he is the puppet master because he manages all the artifacts on the stage of my life where does god live what is a dress where can i get to god where do i find him god lives in eternity eternity does not deal with geographical locations nor does it address god lives in the eternity and we live in time hey, I'm seeing all kinds of people who know, as I pray, we live in time, I don't know whether to preach, eat chicken wings, God lives in eternity, let's think about God lives in eternity, that transcends time time is a matrix within eternity, think of time as something that God created, not subject to what in the beginning God existed before the first day existed, so God existed before a calendar existed, before Before the clock existed, before there was a tick or speaking there was God before there was Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday there was God before them for the afternoon or the morning there was God before the roles of the Sun were established There was God before the moon shone against a dark sky There was God before the first earthquake cut it in the ocean There was God There was God before there was an angel There was God before the choir existed There was God before there was anyone there to recognize Him as God God is God only God is God and with him God lives in eternity, if you do not introduce that into your spirit, then your prayer life will be ruined because you will never understand being a creature of time with things like birthdays, you will not understand God, God did not have. enter be in a hurry because God did not grow old God does not age because he is not subject to time nothing subject to time ages everything that is born outside of time is ageless as part of being eternal so when you start talking about being eternal eternity replaces time time is the son of eternity and the offspring of eternity eternity created time the celestial created the terrestrial the divine created the human the supernatural created the natural in the beginning God created the heavens and the earth and the earth was without form and the Emptiness and darkness covered the face of the depths but God was there to create it before there was no one to create.

Are you following me? david says about God from eternity to eternity you are God you are God before you realized when or this or that you were God you were God before there was anyone there to tell you you were God you were God God only God only god of universe God of the world that's why I don't pray to the universe because he created the universe, why should I pray to what he created when I could pray to the one who created it? This is good from eternity to eternity. You are God. From as far as I can see, there was God and as far as I can see, there was God.

God is eternal so when you read the Bible the Bible says all kinds of things that don't make sense if you don't understand that for example it says that the lamb was slain. since the foundation of the world in other words talking about Jesus was crucified before Adam and Eve were born, that means God had the answer in eternity before time produced the question, so whatever you ask God to do in eternity it is already done, it is already resolved, let me try, said Job, my witnesses in heaven. my record is at the top and eternity is already done it is already finished and eternity I am already healed in eternity I am already blessed and eternity I am already loose and eternity I am already free in eternity there are no wheelchairs and eternity there is no broken limbs and eternity there is no sadness and eternity there is no capacity God lives in eternity he created time so I would have a direction so I would have a concept then I would have gratitude today show me the number of my days so I can know how fragile I am .

He created time so I wouldn't take life for granted. He created the time for me to appreciate my life and yours. He created the time for me to have the courage to tell you things I wouldn't do. I'm not saying because my time is running out, if I were an eternal being, I would think about it for longer, maybe I will never say it because I have eternity to even think about it, but since our time is running out, the older I get do. The older I get, the sharper I get and the quicker I'll tell you when I was thirty.

I may not have told you, but at sixty I'll let you have it, I'll let you have it and I won't look back to see how you felt about it. It's because I'm running out of time, I'm running out of time and I should get to the point that I'm running out of time, it makes you say what needs to be said God lives in eternity, we live in time, so God doesn't He comes or goes, he is always here. remember when Moses said who will I say who sent me and God said I am that I am not our wars nor will I be because he is always present he is the same yesterday today and forever more I am in today I cannot go back to yesterday I am waiting for tomorrow but God is in tomorrow while I am in today that is why God gives me a word today he can heal something that was broken yesterday because it is not subject to dates he can say something now that heals something that happened 20 years ago weeks go up now that changes the outcome of something that will happen thirty years from now because God lives in eternity I live in the city I want to have to go deeper sadly if I understand this I have to go deeper if you read the story of creation in the book of Genesis over and over again again you will see the word read restored replenished redeemed we must do it again okay did it again did it again has it been done before oh wow has it been done before someone said before, look, the problem is that I can't remember what it was before because I am here present now, but I cannot remember what it was like before when the Bible says that God redeemed us or restored us or redeemed us or redeemed us from the curse of the law by sin or death it suggests that there was something between him and me before what ahead of time okay, I'm a Jeremiah is going to help me I got in trouble but Jeremiah is going to get me out Jeremiah one four five one chapter one chapter verse four and five Jeremiah look this is still in the frame I haven't gotten to the picture the word of the Lord came to me saying before before before before before before before before before before before before before before before before before before before before before 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before before before before her ankles swelled before her belly got bigger. before her face came out of the ration before she threw up the first morning and told her husband baby, I'm saying before I formed you in the womb I knew you before I formed you before you had your first birthday before that you were a week before you were a day before your mother was pregnant I knew you before you were born before you were born before you were born I pushed you away I pushed you away I lived so that you would be different before you ever got here I live so that you're different and you spent the first 20 years of your life trying to fit in but the reason you never fit in and I said I set you apart before you got here you didn't even fit in you fit in with your neighbors you didn't fit in with your friends oh you don't even fit in in your family you are the only oneyour family who thinks the way you think because I told you apart before I formed you in the womb I have lived so that you would be different so don't be mad at the people who didn't like you who thought you were pretty who didn't like your hair I don't care how I changed your hair change the way you walk change the way you talk I wanted you to be an ostracized rejected outcast I lived for you to be different before I formed you in the womb I knew you I would date you I pushed you away oh my god this is good so he me met in eternity past, okay, this is eternity, eternity past is an oxymoron, eternity past is an oxymoron are two things that disagree with each other eternity can't have a pass but eternity is my only way to describe God and the past is my human attempt to express an anthropomorphic reality an anthropomorphic reality anthro is human is a human attempt to describe something that is divine, so eternity past, present and future, past, present and future are human terms , eternity is God's terms, eternity past before I was born, he knew me, he knew me, he formed me because he knew me.

I had a relationship with him before. I had a relationship with him before I met my mother so when he called me I recognized his voice he said my sheep know my voice Oh stranger they won't follow me that's why you go to church and receive blessings and the person you went with did I don't understand anything maybe they didn't recognize the voice I knew the voice before reading the Bible you know the word but I know the voice you don't listen to what I'm saying many people don't read the scriptures but they don't I don't know the boy, he said, my sheep know my voice , a stranger they will not follow and somehow his voice resonated with me because I knew him before he said before he formed you in the womb when you were just a spirit and I was just a spirit we surrounded each other on a spiritual level we connected we connect we get together I agreed to send you back in time but here's the deal if you go back in time you'll forget what we had in eternity that's what we are lost it's almost big the reason I'm lost I can't be first of all I can't I'm lost if I don't belong on said ladder and I can't be lost if there's no place for me so it's not just about sinful activity it's about not remembering so he chose me in him before the foundation of the world that's what What does the Bible say he chose me in him he chose me and then sent me in the moment now Thomas I am sitting in the moment I send you in the moment you will walk in time and in the moment you leave your mother's house You won't remember that she literally before, but I pulled you away I won't lose track of you, I pull you away and when I'm ready for you I'll call you and when I call you you'll recognize my voice, even if you don't remember what we had before. try this, I can prove this to you, okay, go to Romans 8:29 in 30, look this way right, it's just a frame, it's not the image for those whom God foreknew, he also predestined them to be oh, this It is so good for those that God we have gone back for new for those God before again those are people that God before again that is what for new takes before again he also this is predestined future okay because I predestined you before to be conformed to the image of his beloved son.

Did God then imagine that he could be the firstborn among many brothers? Let's go and those whom he predestined he also called when they return to 29 again those whom God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his son so that he would be the firstborn. among many brother he did all that without my knowing I don't remember it we go and he predestined them also he also this was when I found out he also he also he also he also he also he also he also he also he also he also he also he also he also he also he also he also he also he also he also he also he also he also he When she called me, that's when I realized it wasn't what they called me, it wasn't what he called me, it wasn't what she called me, it was what are you listening to?

I mean when he called me, he was probably having one, that's great, but when he called me, that's what I realized, that's him, that's him and because he told me that's when I became aware of who he was before and it doesn't matter What I. I was in when he called me he called me I might have been in a strip club but he called me I might have been in a gay bar he called me I did a little howling and creaking but he called me and suddenly what used to make me happy that It made me happy now and what you should give me joy that gives me joy any guy because God has a way of disturbing your life because he called you when he called you did I like the faces that didn't?

I give you the description Jermeir but I like the writing aphasia for denying having made known to us the mystery of his will that is what he calls is to make you know the mystery of his will you are more than what you are doing he made you known to me, the mystery of his will. I wanted you to be raised the way you were raised. I wanted you to go through the pain you went through. I wanted you to be rejected. I know it's a mystery, but all things are going to work together. for your sake I will let you know that there is a purpose to your pain you are not just having pain for the sake of having pain I am giving birth to something in you I am giving birth to something outside of you this is not just arbitrary pain so I am playing a reason why I'm getting something out of you.

I'm going to show you who you really are because who you really are is a mystery who you really are is a mystery you work with people who don't really know you you live around people who don't really understand you you may have married someone who didn't understand you, oh we're going there because you're sitting next to him you won't say anything so keep looking at him he looks confused I have a lot of energy doing something I really wasn't predestined to do maybe I did it because you wanted it from me maybe I did it because my parents wanted it from me maybe I did it because my wife wanted it from me maybe I did it because it was easy For me, maybe I did it because I had some talent, but it doesn't satisfy me because it's not like that.

You took me now to Mattacks, when we got into this case, we got into total chaos. I want to paint it for you. the Amalekites were more massive than the Israelites they were more dominant they were brutal warriors their malachies were brutal and the way they killed they preyed on women and children they killed those who were weaker physically first they would do anything to take advantage of a nation they were cruel and worse still, they had linked up with the Midianites, people who don't even like each other, they will get together, they hate you in another class, I call them comrades, comrades, they are people who the only thing they have in common is what they are against the voters of people who the only thing they have in common is where they are going and trust, the only thing they have in common is you, so you have confidants who are in your favor, you have voters who are in favor of where you are going, the only thing about the voters, if they see that someone get there faster, they will jump from your car to their car because they never liked you, they liked the place you were going and comrades, the only reason you are together, the only thing you have in common is your hate. from you or something, then the Amalekites and the Mennonites were comrades against Israel and it was working, it was destroyed.

Furthermore, all of Israel has renounced everything and now they are hiding in case the people that God delivered in last Sunday's message, the people that God liberated last Sunday and we were screaming everywhere people dancing on the bones Pharaoh's dead these are his children's children's children and they are in trouble again and now they are in trouble again and the Lord is using their enemies to teach that they should have rung and they didn't rung your bell is broken God uses to your enemies to teach he does not use your enemies because they are stronger than you he uses your enemies to teach so God is using the Amalekites of the Midianites to teach Israel you have gotten out of control you have left the teachings of your fathers You have started worshiping idol gods and I am going to allow you to be defeated until I get your attention because you are so impressed with yourself.

I am going to break your heart until I bring you to your knees so that you will discover me. You were too successful. You were too powerful. You were winning on all fronts. And I had to show you something to humble you and make you surrender for God to be. using the Amalekites and the Midianites, he is not using the Israelites even though the Israelites are his people, God uses your enemies if you don't listen to his word, that means you are carnal, so he had to speak to your circumstances, then use your circumstances because you ignored. his word and God uses your enemies to put you in line.

The bad famine of Israel is in the land every time they grow the Amalekites of the Midianites come out and kill it and destroy it and now we come to a text for Gideon is hiding his harvest I'm going to come back to you have you ever hidden your harvest? Has God ever blessed you but you didn't want to show it? They are fake, I'm going to talk to you. Has God ever done anything for you? a blessing, I was afraid to use it, I was afraid to drive it because you know how they are and they can't stand what he did when, when you get into the text, Gideon hides his harvest in the wild press, he is the Bible, he says.

He is threshing wheat in the winepress for fear of the Midianites because if they find out that they got any kind of harvest they will take it too. It is difficult to live surrounded by enemies. Is it an uncomfortable reality when you have to simplify how? Brilliant you are like that because you are around someone so insecure that they cannot handle the brilliance of your intellectual capacity and that is why they intend to talk you to the limit because if you seem too bright, often the person who hired How could you choose me and then want it to be stupid, but the person who chose you after the boss or the people around you were after his crop and that's why he is trying to grow his crop and now he is in the winepress threshing grass and now?

I could stay there all day. I can't tell you how many times I had to put my wheat in the winepress. I've been aware that I'd better not drive there. I better not tell Beverly to see where we're going to eat even if we don't meet. in the house we don't find it, dad, victim of the dose, because if I press my wheat in the open air where my blessed people shout at your volatile son, you have a new house, but you can't tell your cousin Joe, so you act like Yeah Listen, I'm talking about dressing your grass in a dress and there he is threshing his suite in the land president because Gideon sees himself as a farmer, he's very sweet, he has a harvest, he thinks that's who he is and he's down in the winepress harvesting. but now you worry, look at this, here is her strength and she is a woman, but her people are losing and the inequality in your associate in your sociological environment creates a painful experience because the people who love you love what you have and the people They love what you have, no.

I don't love you Oh, and now you have some wheat, but you have to go into the winepress and he is stretching in Sweden in the winepress, it is understood that he is a farmer and he is angry, he is angry because he never met the god. of the Red Sea that I preached about last week, but he heard about it from his grandmother in Madeira and then they told him about the God who delivered the children of Israel through the Red Sea and brought them through dry land and the delivered safely to the Red Sea. on the other side, but he doesn't see millennials, he doesn't see any relationship with traditional religion and where he is in his life and he's angry about it since he's a God of our fathers and through what things don't work if they worked like grandma Underhill. he said it worked, how come they are malachite?

Look, the Midianites are killing our people, so I've come to the conclusion that it's nothing compared to this, if God was so good, why don't you help me? Every 100 comments I get on social media is some version. This is nice what you say strange but if God were all that why am I holy let me tell you let me stop and answer the question so you don't have to write this this week I made December God will not override your choices, it's easier for you being angry at God than taking responsibility for the mistakes you made that led you to the situation you were in and by the way you never asked him before making the decisions you made but now he is getting punished for the choice that you took and you will never come out until you take responsibility or I will receive an email about it.

May God heal you just in time. I believe in a lawyer and he doesn't know it while he complains. nor give where God is and is looking for God that God is looking for you and the Bible says that the angel of the Lord sat by the winepress now we have the angel of the Lord sitting by the winepress we have Gideon who thinks he is a farmer in the winepress threshing week I need to emphasize that the place of wine is the winepress is the place of transition I need to emphasize that the Lord has you here this morning because you are in the middle of a transition and at any time you are in transition every emotion in the world comes out of you anger and sadness and frustration and fear and doubt and struggle and in everything it comes out of you because you are in an unstable environment have you heard me talk about being with a weight trainer being on a ball I hate balls I hate them bouncing domani they are from the devil they are from the abysses of hell give mea give me a put me in something solid and I can stand to wait but they put the ball on you in an unstable environment because unstable environments make you activate the core force now that you are in the era, it is an unstable environment and he has to activate the force central and everything comes out of that and he is angry with God because he is above established with the religion that he has been taught and he said who will come and free us from this we are swearing that he will get me out of there this is your fault God is always when everything else fails blame God only blame God the woman who gave me now remember that with Adam I am in this rescue he gave it to me that was a subtle way of saying it's your fault I didn't eat the fruit I didn't go without it I didn't cheat on her no I wouldn't have worked for two years no the woman gave it to him it's your father who you ever talk about don't do it don't don't do it, I'm doing it, the conviction is good for the soul, everything will be fine, breathe and exhale, exhale, that You'll make it and all of us, and he's trying to figure out why God doesn't work the way I do.

I told him to do and that's not what most of us are trying to figure out why God doesn't work the way he told him to, the way he expected, the way he wanted him to do, why God didn't do what he wanted me to do when I told him, forgive me God, the job for you God is not on your payroll God does not have to listen to you before him God is God, an angel is just checking the Angelus alone sitting next to the whale watching to this fool, I don't think he should have said that, I don't know if you can say that on Sunday morning, well, he's out there, now he's watching this young man, he's watching him go through what the wheat is going through. the wheat. is being reduced to food all the chaff is being removed so that the wheat falls to the ground and every time God puts you in an uncomfortable situation He is sifting through you what matters what doesn't matter what is real what is not real what count but no I don't count who I can't have, who I can't live without, where my real people scream at you, boy, you go through these periods where you get stuck in this winepress and he starts shaking things that you thought in your head and them. he said comfortable and it's painful and it's brutal and his bar bag and he's hitting me like a bartender in a burgundy dress away from the crowd trying to bring me back to my core values ​​trying to fixate on my roots trying to come together where it matters it's not my image he is not showing my photo for Instagram improving my accessories accentuating my positive aspects he is hitting my heart because he is hitting the wheat with the wine-colored dress.

I have spoken to you today because the Lord has shown me that He would do it. today I can talk to people whose wheat is being beaten and if you are here today I want you to know that you are not there I just want you to know that God has sent an angel to the winepress to help you make sense of this moment in your life because sometimes life It doesn't make sense, how could you bless the Amalekites and the Midianites and not me? Where is the God I hear about on Sunday morning or where is He on Monday?

Where is he in this unemployment line? Where is God in this divorce? Where is God and I am HIV positive? Where is God and they are hitting me anywhere I can't talk about? Winepress I'm depressed I'm depressed about something being B and waking up in the morning and talking about welcome to JC Penney Good morning. Can I help you this way? Anything you need. Oh, I'm so glad I could help you. and all the time I'm smiling for people. I'm hitting the winepress. Now, tell me. Did I hear from God this morning? Not pressing is the place where the grapes discover that they are destined to be wine. the wheat is being beaten so that it becomes bread and what is happening in the winepress with the wheat is happening in the life of Gideon who understands himself as a farmer and the angel is sitting on the side watching him do to the wheat what God is doing just him instead of Gideon beating the wheat God is using his heights of Moloch and the Midianites to beat his sweet just his sweet is us trying to get bread out of the wheat trying to get wine out of the grapes trying to get He enters to find out who he is, then the angel tells him I will finish next Sunday, God bless you, he said you have jokes, the angel in his greeting and his greeting creates disturbances, he says come in, hey, powerful man of Valor, you are a warrior , what surprises me is that my gob is trying to make a living here and it's okay, trying to deal with some things, trying to get paid, I didn't find it so I can get some money and come back to feed my hungry children and Make some time for things.

I'm not one of those people. It could be possible? One of us has to be wrong because I think I'm a gardener and you think I'm a warrior. Why did you call? He tells me I'm a little attracted to him, but I mean it would be nice, but I'm from the smaller tribe and I'm the youngest on the track. This is when we accumulate evidence to dissuade ourselves from dreams. build evidence to dissuade us from moving forward he has rationalized this is not an immediate thought this is not something you cough with your head he has come this far I belong to the smallest tribe I am the youngest person no don't expect much from me don't experiment for I am a woman, don't expect too much from me, I am a minority, don't expect too much from me, I didn't finish school, don't expect too much from me, my mother didn't raise me, don't expect too much from me, I didn't have a father, we built this story to support who we think we are and then the reasons that make us capable of facing the limitations it gives us. someone to hate that's what I like that's why I like it if I hate someone if he raised me if he stayed home or if you loved me like you were supposed to love me I wouldn't be like that it gives me license to hate you and blame you for why I didn't convert oh it's good I told you that they were going like this now when we were talking about this in the house and here comes a call a high call a divine call a supernatural call that has classified information about me that then I don't have about me and the angel is speaking from his knowledge of how I was designed and I am living according to my knowledge of where I grew up and I have to Decide in this fight which of these entities is going to win this fight when I grew up or what I was created for because one of them will determine what the trajectory of my future will be.

Who am I preaching to you? Remember When Jules and I started that wonder in the interior and the company, you remember that I was fired from Union Carbide, that he started the wind in the interior and the company and he did me a favor by hiring me to go in there. We were going to do like dad and we wanted to be a family business and we opened the windows inside and the company and we kept getting in trouble and we ran out of money and I ended up losing my car and I didn't have a car because I was following his vision for my life when I put my car to get the business I did it because I loved my brother and I did it because I wanted us to win I did it because I wanted us to be successful but I also did it because I didn't know it was me and I knew it was Legion.

It would have gone over the windows inside and the company is in the winepress because it is possible not to know who you are, who you really are and your core and your essence for what you were created. your potentials are what you can achieve what you can become what you can endure what you can endure how hard you really are how strong you really are how tenacious you really are is it possible no Lord because your feelings do not always validate your reality Can you feel want to break down and keep fighting. You can feel like the victim and be the victor.

You may feel limited and still not have exhausted everything, since within you you cannot define yourself by how you feel. Your feelings cannot be trusted. you were lied to your feelings will deceive you your feelings will help you in the winepress your feelings will have you down in the winepress eat love wheat oh my god you can't trust how you feel because your feelings are a conglomerate of your experiences that your story is built around , not your destiny, they are your response to what happened, not what is about to happen, your praise refers to what is about to happen, your praise is the expectation that this is over, but your praise refers to a happy ending on the other side of this test, your prize.

I'm not praising God. Konami boasts enough. I don't praise God because our religions have my praise as a job because I'm black. I'm praising God because I have crazy expectations, yeah, click on that, feel the power of this room. Sunny South yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes. I'm going to knock down some steak and bacon. I am going to get rid of some limitations that have been placed on you that prevent you from achieving what you will put into this earth. what to do I rebuke every lying spirit that ever spoke in your head that is contrasting your past all those who are following me all those who are following this word this truck touches your neighbor said I think there is something else inside me I think I think there is something else inside me I think there's something else inside me I think I think there's something else inside me I think I think I have something I don't know what to call it I still thought I still understand but I think I have something I think there's something else inside me and even though I had to fool myself, but I think there's something inside me that hasn't been on drugs, but I think there's something else inside me.

I have been living with this man. I think of something else inside me. from the mountains sound of drugs yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm talking to someone I don't know who it is but I'm talking to someone I can preach this I must preach this I want to preach this is money I would appreciate it if you make a breakthrough I'm going to preach until you have an awakening I want Bridgett until you come to yourself How about a Preacher, will you wake up from your dream?

Pay attention to the neighbor's hand because something else inside me would have died, but I think something else inside me would have lost my man, but I think there is something else inside me. I would have thrown in the towel I'm thinking I think I think I think I think I've been given your sentence I don't think I'm going to die today because I think there might be something else inside me I don't think I'm going to give up right now because I think there's something else inside me . I don't think I'm going to give up yet because I think there's a message in it.

He may be going through a bad season. I may have to cry myself to sleep. and they have to rock the pill until I go to bed at night. I might have to go to work in a ratty car, but I think there's something else inside me. I may be broke, but I'll sit with me. I'm going a little different I feel like I'm about to break this way I feel like something's about to break open this way I'm not going to stop until I get it I'm not going to stop I'm not going to stop until I understand it I'm not going to stop tomorrow the angel telling Gideon that he is a warrior puts him in conflict how can this be my tribe is Vanessa it is the smallest tribe I am the youngest person how can this be? in war with the Amalekites of the Midianites and their women acted how can I be a powerful warrior?

I'm at the lowest point and I'm the youngest person in the smallest tribe in the worst situation and God comes here, some absolute light for you. You're Mrs. Anna batma that's what it feels like to come to this church sometime because everything all week says give up and get off and then you come here on Sunday morning and I tell you you're the head and not the tail, you're Barbra No, you are more than a conqueror, you can do everything through Christ who strengthens you. God did not bring you here to leave you. God did not take you to everything you have been through so that you can get here and die at the Winepress.

I came to tell you something, so I was there. in Kenya two weeks ago and I was doing an interview with the lady and she said she was talking about my different business projects and we got into real estate and made some movies and that's it. all those things and she said and what do you think of all that? Since you're a preacher, I said, wait a minute, so let's correct something. In June 1957, when my mother kicked me out, she didn't kick out a preacher just because you met me when I started preaching that defines me by how she left me I was a person before I was a preacher I didn't start living when I started preaching I had gifts , talents, passions, dreams and vision from the beginning, so Don't put me in your little cubicle of your understanding of me and exile me to spend the rest of my life living up to what makes you comfortable.

I'll make you feel uncomfortable because I'm going to do what I am. I'm going to make it until the end of the game. I'm going to do me. There has never been another meeting. There will never be another meeting. My son got my name from hearing me do what I do. Did you hear what I do? I said you are frigid, oh oh, one of the times no one has your fingerprint, no one has your friend, no one has so much style, your lapel, no grace, no creativity, sublime zippers are bad, which is good for the white ones, but my white numbers are bad and they're gone. here except sometimes it's bad it's an African-American colloquialism but it's good it's nom nom looking for someone looking at something I'm looking for I'm looking for someone I'm thinking like a drone sent on a mission it's disturbing annoying feeling it'sunsettling Uneasy feeling, it's a feeling that you can't get drunk with the smoke, with the tray, it interrupts all those human inclinations with the disturbing suspicion that I might be attracted and I thought I'm getting better.

I'm holding any and I'm focusing on someone who got into the back of your mind. I'm not talking about arrogance. I'm not talking about superfluity. I'm not talking about opulence and excessive ignorance. I'm talking about this annoying angelic voice that keeps calling you something you don't see and it's in the back of your head. I think it could be more and then you try to talk yourself out of it, you say I'm too old to be anything else if it was going to be more it should have been more when I was younger but if Harland Sanders had done that we wouldn't have KFC starting a business at the 65 years with Social Security we tell ourselves these stories too long our dreams sleep at this sigh the pain of becoming because we don't want to fight with who I could be and Angel has called me something that does not reflect in my situation does not reflect in my feelings then it does not reflect my circumstances.

I don't know I know just like the father's house look at this I didn't know it was me I let him hit me because I didn't know it was me I turned because I didn't know I was a man I left school because I didn't know I was when I went to the gym because I didn't know I didn't know I let you beat me because I didn't know it was me I thought I needed you because you didn't officiate me I thought you had more power than what you asked me to do, that's why I thought your opinion wouldn't turn me into a Britney because it wouldn't I knew it, I didn't know it was me, I usually didn't know it, I didn't know what.

I was me, but it haunted me, it worried me, it frustrated me, it made me dissatisfied in all my jobs and wherever I went, wherever I tried to rest the sole of my foot, I found the rest because in the back of my mind that was its obsession. . persistent feeling that I was born to do something else, why was it like that? Why wouldn't I be happy to be on the ground when I think I can fly? What's going on? You mean? I see colors where everyone else sees black and white. I see possibilities. where other people say it's impossible and I don't know what you see is inside me what am I supposed to do with it?

I'm from the smallest tribe I'm the youngest person I'm broke How am I supposed to do it? do this I'm talking to someone I'm the drone it's approaching your head sister feel like I'm going to hit you right in the head in a minute I didn't know I didn't know it was me and then I became yours because I didn't know it was me and I'll let you use me because I didn't know you. I was created and I let you do things to me there. Now I'm ashamed of myself because I didn't do it. I know I didn't know it was me Don't hold back my step Give me I didn't know it was I I didn't know I didn't know If I had known it was me I never met you I met you in my absence I met you to fill the void of not knowing They abandoned me I didn't know No I knew it was me so when you left me I almost lost my mind because I didn't know It was me when they fired me.

I felt like knocking my brains out because I thought it was my job and then I woke up and realized I'm bigger than my job and I'm bigger than my church and I'm digging into my city. and I'm bigger than my second chance and you know what I'm bigger than you I'm bigger than you because I know who I am and I know where I am and I know what I'm going through and I know what I could do and I know what I see, these bedrooms someone has been hit on the head, how bad someone said, look at this Gideon, he dropped his wings, Gideon brought this week because someone called him a warrior and let him know that it was more than what he was doing. and after wrestling with God by wrestling with God and putting wool before God, he began to weigh, he began to live in the middle of his life because life does not begin when your mother throws you away, the light begins when you discover who you are, the Life begins when it hits you in the back of the head I'm better than this I'm bigger than my circumstances I have a destiny and a purpose in my life God created me for a reason He called me for a purpose I'm in this world to do something my preacher is doing here and catch him he doesn't even know that he will be in the book of Judges, he doesn't know that he will lead the army that drives out the Midianites and leaves the Malachite defenseless that he is going to take fewer men and kill more people with fewer men than we have ever had. seen in the story of Scripture if you can get out of this well and someone in this room is a well away from a supernatural purpose and the Lord told me that.

If I preached this message this morning, I would wake someone up to come out of that and come to another understanding of who they were, that God would do something amazing and there God told me that if I preached this message in this Florida, someone drop their wheat and take his sword and stand up again. I am understanding who I am preaching to. You have something to do at this stage of your life that is bigger than anything you have done in your entire life. In fact, everything in your past was preparing you for what you are about to do in your life.

If I'm preaching to you, make some noise about this. Yes, God chooses the smallest tribe and the youngest boy with the washed attitude to lead a mass. of people and Gideon starts with nine thousand and then God says take him to the brook and just choose two men who like water like a dog and when they got to the brook hall of the man who drank in a fancy way, we You're not chosen because you can't have two pretty people, not with you in a fight, you can't have someone who has to wear stilettos, not with you in a fight, you can't have someone who has church prints on their damn nails. . not with you in a fight they said take out 300 men who will lack water like a dog that will kneel and start licking 300 men and they have nothing to lose they don't care what they look like this is a season you have to surround yourself with people who know how to get down this is to feed them that God is going to take you who am I preaching to so this is where we are right now the anointing of God is in this place the Spirit of God is here the glory of the Lord is in this place the Lord has you here for a reason there is something that God is preparing to do in your life there is something that God has for you that is important and I tell you not knowing is the problem not knowing who you are is a real problem living your life according to what other people said about you it's a real problem to live life based on your net worth it's a real problem the message is called I didn't know I was my lord have mercy.

I feel like I'm supposed to preach this today. I feel like I'm talking to someone today. I feel like the Holy Spirit is pressing someone. Gideon would be surprised to find out that he did the Gideon babbling. he was shocked to find out he could fight Gideon he was shocked to find out look this that he was the guy he had been praying for asking God to sin that he didn't have he didn't know he was the people he had been waiting for oh let me take him down I didn't know he was trying to get other people to love him because he didn't love himself let me boil it down to achievable goals I didn't know he was trying to find in other people what God had put is outside of him I didn't know he was asking God to sin what he already was but that day in the winepress with grass everywhere in straw on the ground the angel called him something he couldn't Look, but he became what he was called before God formed you in your mother's womb.

He knew you from the millions of sperm your father injected into your mother before you read a Bible. A traitor swam them. All the odds were against you before you. You got here and when you want a cellular level, nothing more than the rest, that's how you got here, that's how you start sometimes when you come from eternity in time, you don't remember who you were before, but it's services like this where God calls. and it makes you know things about yourself that you didn't know this message is a confirmation jail I was the last person to know it was TD

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I didn't know the books were being translated into different languages ​​I don't I don't know, I saw it, but I didn't see that the stadiums were full of people fighting outside trying to get in.

I didn't know I wasn't. I don't like to say it because it makes you look stupid. It was on the New York Times bestseller list I still didn't realize it was me I think sometimes Grace puts blinders on her eyes I could see them all I couldn't see myself but there was a nagging voice in my head that was correcting me damaged thinking honestly and I learned something as I grew up. I didn't know it was me because it was a friend winning has so much responsibility losing is easy all you had to do to lose is just let go no one expects anything from no one demands anything from you sometimes you're afraid of what god has next for me and I'm getting transferred because I'm looking for something and I don't even know who most of the people who wrote about me have never done it.

They met me and they wrote about a person I didn't even understand They wrote about how they would feel if they were me I didn't feel that way because I didn't know it was me I tell you I was playing piano for people who load their cars with bags and drive them no I knew it was me, that doesn't mean it should have happened sooner because I think it's the minor things that develop, I think so. blind spots give you focus I'm not trying to speed up the process. I'm just trying to describe a place you could be right now.

Everything I knew. I said it every time I went through something that had my destiny in it. I was attracted to him. I was attracted to myself and I would do anything to be in the room with that and I admired it, but I didn't think it would ever be because I didn't know it was. I went off track many times. times looking for things that were less than what was already mine I suck very low when I cut I shoot ha and when I shoot I don't enjoy it because I didn't know what I was like now there is no kneading coming to church if it doesn't help you this is not a place to go you have to come and you have so many places you have to come you don't have to and coming here if you don't have to if you don't get anything out of it I'm trying to prepare you for a paradigm shift.

Join someone for a moment and pretend that he has done some stupid things. Suppose he has some secrets. Suppose you are afraid sometimes, suppose you come to church because something keeps attracting you, suppose you are in a situation right now that you are the weakest of the tribes and the youngest of the group in a hole, maybe in some area of ​​your life. something that is not going very well you can appear in one area and deep down in another area, everyone needs ministry. Let's assume that God loves you but you don't always feel the love from him unless we assume that God sees it but they don't.

They don't always see that God sees them and let's assume that God is going to help them but they don't always feel God's help and then they squeeze their hand and let them know that they are not alone, let's assume that God called them to church. this morning and brought them here because God wanted to put their heads in order. Suppose today is your last day at the winepress. Suppose your destiny is calling me and God is about to do something wonderful in your life and it may be something you don't even have. experience in that goes against the grain and leaves you speechless, but God is going to do it, squeeze that hand and you have to be willing to be scared and nervous and feel enough and feel it. quite inadequate, but God is Holy Spirit sweeps this place, if one person in this room has an awakening, it was worth reading the entire message, if someone logged in online right now, this has an awakening and their eyes are open and They see that you could be handling wheat. but you are really a warrior Lord I don't want to do it at this stage of my life I don't want to preach things for people's entertainment I don't want to do things that don't matter I feel like having something to impart to someone let someone receive this word halle-loo in deep down let just really really really embrace what you are being taught right now redefine refocus rekindle refuel I thank you for what you are about to do I pray that what you are doing in your life right now last longer than the service.

I pray that I get in the car with them and enter the house with them, but participate in their decisions and participate in their choices. and get into your situation I pray that every Gideon here find his 300 grip that if God is about to put you in a new circle of people you are about to find your 300 chosen men you are about to find the people who are He will crouch and lack water like a dog and he will fight until he wins a change is coming to their lives this Sunday morning this Sunday morning where they go to fight they receive it a change a change a change that they will never believe they will work before the change I want you to pray for the person you are touching everything that the Holy Spirit gives you the pray over their life I want you to pray for them right now I you are not helpless I am hello I am not I the anointing of God is in In this place, the Spirit of God is sweeping this room right now.

Souls are being released everywhere. Do not lose this opportunity.