Hinge date gone wrong

okay so rule number one if a guy cheats on you his whole family and his friend oh wait she knows I'm about to explode I'm not going to eat I know they're talking oh yeah I look neckless and okay, so this. guy I'm not we're not talking right so he literally just hit me like we literally matched and he was like oh I want to hit him and hug you after that he was like do you want to go get ice cream and I was like why Don't we go out for a drink? Because, you know, and then he said, yeah, I'm sure I'm okay with that, and then I said, well, first things first, I'm fat and I like it with everyone.

I do this with everyone um before I go out I literally tell them to listen that I'm fat because I don't take full body photos you know and when I do they're like they don't really show that I have a stomach anyway um so I it was like I was like I was fat like he was like why would you call yourself he was like okay he's like why do you mean for yourself inside the girl and I was like he was like what size are we talking about and I was like, well I'm five eight and then this many pounds and then he was like, well I never would have guessed and then he was like “Well we can be friends.

He says I'm not trying to be rude or anything, but I usually like thick girls and I was like, "Okay, okay, I'm willing to be friends with you, so now." I'd like to hook up and drink, um, I think it's okay, I'm not trying to be arrogant here, but when you like it, guys see me in real life like they're like oh, like you're actually not that bad. or like you know you're actually really pretty like it happened like twice but the teddy bear guy didn't work out and I left my glasses at this house and um okay so basically oh my god basically this me very angry I basically went and stayed in this house and then the next day I went to winter on Friday night and we spent the night together or whatever, like watching Battle Raven and then the next day he left me alone in his crib all day to go to a family function come home at two in the morning with no food for me or did he have food for me no no he came home with chips and soda and then I basically passed out and then the next day like he was Like getting ready or whatever and I was like, when can you bring me home? because I'm trying to go home and he was singing and this is the most insignificant reason for me to like him, not like someone, but his singing just pissed me off.

I wanted to tear my hair out, but yeah, so I'm going to get ready and I'm going to go out and do a vlog and we'll see if he really doesn't like me, let's see if he breaks up with me or not. because I'm a very pretty person, I'd like to think that, at least okay, literally the least flattering angle of my life, okay, look at the nice shirt, but wait, look at my nice shirt, super cute, I'm so pale that It's not even funny. Okay, I also go when I go to watch for the first time and oh my God, that hurts.

Oh, also for those of you who wonder how I keep my hair so pink and like how often I dye it. Anyway, I don't diet that often because I have this shampoo that's like a color depositing shampoo, the color is arctic fox, it's from the arctic fox and it's like I forgot what it's called, it's the penguin, although you'll know what it's called. . it is and then this cost me 40 bucks and it's a small bottle so let's do our makeup to make sure we look sweet. My goal is to achieve this. My goal is to look so good that this guy would want to do it. me because I feel offended because he doesn't want everyone to need a big girl in their life at some point you have to try it at least once if you don't like it then you don't like it but it's literally like like a big marshmallow or like a bunch of fluffy pillows like I think or that's what I heard from guys, I don't know, I exfoliated my video because I got shaved or whatever and I had to like it, but I mix coconut oil and sugar. and I really want to try it because it doesn't matter, it's a bad idea, okay, so we have to do all of our makeup trying to do it quickly, I think I have to do it, which is really bad because I already showered and I haven't washed my makeup brush yet. make-up.

Worry, I don't think it's going to be as bad as the last ones, but stay tuned and you'll see because you never know, I just had sex and it feels so good if this guy asked me to give him head if he says something like oh. Like just give me a blowjob I don't want because that's what some guys do when they don't like big girls they'll say oh just give me a blowjob like I don't want you like I don't like big girls uh um if he doesn't do it, I'm gonna do it and I'd just like to get a video for my only fans yeah I don't even care I mean it makes me mad because I mean I do the same thing I do to guys that I don't think are attractive like "I I would like to let them eat me" or "I would like to let them eat me", but I am not sucking their nickname and no. kiss them I mean a little hypocrite learn what I am a little hypocrite hypocrite I promise you I'm not strong I think I'm having a manic episode jokes hello definitely not, but I think I'm in a good mood because I like it I had a nice week of self-care like If I did my nails, I got a pedicure, like my toenails were nice and pretty and like my nails were nice and pretty, my butt was so soft like I didn't even know it.

I feel great, it feels great to take care of yourself and someone commented that even getting up and making your bed in the morning every day is like an accomplishment and I started making my bed in the morning so... The thing It's just that my sheets keep falling off and that's part of the reason I've never had sheets on my bed before is because they always fall off like they always do and it's annoying and I look totally neckless, okay? comes next, oh yeah, this guy is also in his 30s, I think he said he's a personal trainer too, I don't know, I don't even find him that attractive, if we're being honest, he matched me like he liked me.

Me and I were like, "Okay, he doesn't look that bad, so whatever, um, but I don't know, we'll see what happens, maybe he'll get a new friend, maybe he'll get a new friend, maybe he'll get a new friend". Chuck maybe he will steal me maybe he will kidnap me maybe he will be my future husband and they will become partners for life you never know the possibilities are endless what if he kidnapped me and demands a ransom? Wait, that's what's called ransom, yeah. because no one is going to pay money to get me back, that would be very rude, imagine you get kidnapped and someone offers a ransom for you and no one offers to pay anything to get you back.

Now I don't want to go, he's not going to. kidnapping you sadie will probably just do it he'll probably be a really nice guy right okay yeah you couldn't be nice you said you don't care you're amazing sanji you're amazing amazing and you're trying too hard. cover yourself well, what comes next? Oh yeah, where's my dust? I hate putting on makeup but I want to look cute and take snapchats btw I got really bored the other day and I emailed my ex asking if he could give me a dick I think he said something like hey um okay I put the topic like listen to me and then I said something like um, I miss you, I miss your dick, can you please give me some toxic dick?

I know you hate me, you can pretend I'm a hit. doll or something, I do weird things when I'm bored, although he didn't answer, obviously because he hates me and said that I ruined his life and that I'm the reason he'll never trust anyone again, but actually he's the reason why I'm a savage I'm going to save this I should straighten it in my hair this looks weird it looks so fried it's not even shiny so I'll show you how to put the powder all over your face Just do it because this guy told me I had to have a soda .

I just asked him what that means and he said, "Take a shower," who says, "Have a soda." He is Jamaican. I swear it's a Jamaican thing. I don't like, you know what I am, I'm done, okay, why do I have to think about sex 24/7? What's happening to me? Can't they just

date

a man and enjoy each other's company? without thinking about the penis and like what's

wrong

with you, you grow up, no, it's all about sex, you're right, sanji isn't, but you know what to do content, I know I need content, but what I'm confused about now is that it's like your family home.

No, it's my neighbor's house where you're going to pick me up. Why do you want to meet my family or something? Hey guys, this guy doesn't like big girls. He is my new friend and he is a personal trainer. He's fine, no offense, but me. I don't think he's cute enough to have these kinds of preferences. I just realized that you're basically going to like me. You're going to like all this fat. Look at it, see me and just think it doesn't matter. I'm going to do it. Go home, goodbye, because that's what such an embarrassing story is, but it's happened to me before.

Yeah, I literally got in this guy's car who drove from Toronto. He looked at me and said: Do you want to do this another time? and then he never texted me again and it wasn't even that bad so I was literally like sick and he wasn't even cute enough to say that like men need to know their place like you're not cute enough to even act that way, well you guys always say oh I need a bad guy with a fat ass and a flat stomach that isn't on the third, first of all half the time your stomachs aren't even flat, they're broken, they're Useless dads like your standards to be so high, but you're literally like a bum.

Make it make sense. This angle makes me look huge. Not that I'm not, but I'm not that huge. Am I making my way downhill? Walking in, yes, that. You're going to do me in the ass, look, oh, my dad's home, dummy, I'm hyper, yeah, okay, we're done with the eyeliner, now we're going to apply some setting spray and we're going to set that shadow, look my back curse. I can't stand and if you have a nine to five job where you have to stand all day, please pat yourself on the back right now because I could never why do I have a sweater.

I lie on my back, okay? I'll be back I'm going to do whatever my face oh okay then oh my god my hands are like they're not doing this I'm ready I'm ready I'm ready I'm ready I'm ready he's on his way he's I'll be here in about 30 minutes my hair isn't cooperating okay so tonight's challenge is to get this man to love me, if he doesn't end up with me or he ends up making a move or something then I'll just end it all. career like I don't have a career um you better end up loving me my nails are so cute look at my new look at my nail look at my nails look at my nails look at my nail beach I'm a little nervous but if he's holy, you're huge, actually Who is the fallen one?

Oh, okay, so I'm ready, ready, I'm ready, ready, ready, ready, ready, ready, ready, ready, ready, I tried to take some nice pictures, but it's very difficult to do so. with a broken nose so I need a nose job and then I can take pictures and I will never have a nose oh it's like everything at night but Fashion Nova wants me to start taking pictures for Instagram and I don't take pictures. everyone knows that because I'm not photogenic and I'm ugly, but yeah, we'll see, I'm wearing my girl shirt, oh my god, you just saw my belly, oh my god, wearing my girl shirt, okay, right here , Oh my God.

It looks like a tire or something, dude, we don't even get to my path and he looks, I mean, he walks away, I don't want to relax, he says this is too much for me, dude, the man is ugly, first of all, it's like If it was like I'm sorry, he says have a good night, you're ugly, what do you mean I can't do this, bro, what was that, what's in my cheese, I have to walk back home, he says, Can I drop you back at your house? Like no one can walk I got out of the car I'm like you're weird I shouldn't knock him out what a cool loser I'm just going to go home and sleep I hate man I put on my makeup and went to bed but I just wanna know how come a man is so shallow who doesn't even want to be friends with a fat girl like that.

This man literally said, "This is too much for me. It's too much for you to be friends with someone who is overweight." Holy, I don't know who raised some of these men, like well, whatever, you're probably broke anyway, bye, but yeah, no, I'm not crying, I'm laying down and I yawned, I was crying, I'd be running, I'd never cry for a man, bye, unless you're back, maybe I should email my ex again. That's actually very rude now. I can't believe an Amanda like that told her completely like she was literally so specific about how. I was big and he sees me and says no this is too much I'm cute like you're too big you're too ugly like your mom ass and he's 33 how are you 33 and still acting like a shallow teenager like me?

He really wanted to get me drunk on whatever men got money for.