Heroin Addict On How The Drug Ruins Lives | Minutes With | LADbible

I woke up once and my world was never the same and that's when I realized I was physically and mentally

addict

ed to it. Let's go back to the first time you took Carol. Yes, it was 1997 and yes, I ran into someone I knew. I'm not going to say a friend that you know as an associate, he put a substance on the tinfoil that I immediately assume was

heroin

and he was showing me how to smoke it, which numbed me to the point that I was totally happy, I think. which is It's like being back in the mother's womb.

I should think where nothing bothers you, nothing changes you, nothing worries you, everything is easy, blissful, you are almost invincible, you start chasing that buzz again, you want that feeling and I would say I did it. I didn't run out of

heroin

for the first four months and then after about four, yes, four to five months, I woke up once and my world was never the same and that's when I realized I was

addict

ed. physically and mentally to her. From the moment you wake up to the moment you go to sleep you're thinking about getting that next fix of heroin and then you're also thinking about where the money comes from after that.

I have stolen washing machines that were outside when I saw people taking them off the trucks in the little carts. I left with one of those before I went in and just grabbed a bunch of designer clothes, designer bags, anything, basically, you know, because I knew different people, fences, they're called. um, that could, they would buy anything that got anything. I served nine prison sentences, whether for disqualified driving or shoplifting. I went through some unpleasant noises in there when you were detoxing because they didn't do it back then. They didn't give you anything to help you recover, the most they gave you was an aspirin and that's not going to do any good if you can imagine your intestines and bones feeling like they're on fire for a minute and then freezing the next. you sweat horribly, you're sick, you get diarrhea, you can't sit still, you're having spasms, your mind is trying to shut down, you can't sleep, it's just the worst feeling, the worst experience I've ever had.

What I went through was when you start to think I'm not in control of this and then because I wasn't properly clean when I got out in an hour, I was taking heroin again. Now I weigh between 14 and 14 and a half kilos back then. my lowest was just under 8 kilos because you don't eat food and stay hydrated. I don't really know how the body works. It just runs with it around 2006. I decided that being addicted to heroin would always be my goal. in life just go with the flow instead of beating yourself up because you want to be clean and you can't, throw your hands up oh well this is my life you know I'll do this and I'll continue in 2008.

I was involved in a robbery, I was robbed and I thought They had punched me three times in the back and stabbed me. I remember lying on the ground and could taste the ash and dirt on my tongue and off everything. the years that had passed before when I didn't care because I mean I overdosed many times at that time something was in me that this life was so precious and there was more to life so I was hospitalized for It was a difficult time, but since That time I have never touched any illicit

drug

. Since then all I can compare is if you get a computer and you reset it to factory settings to erase everything that's on there and I have a blank space to work with that's how it was for me you know I didn't know what flavors I like I didn't know what smells I liked I didn't know what I liked I didn't know what genre of music I didn't know anything you're literally reset to factory settings and that was also an incredibly difficult time and even now almost 12 years later you know I could smell something or listen to a piece of music and and it's like it rekindles a memory that had almost been erased when we have no security in our life and we are missing something anyone can become addicted in September of this year I will be 12 years heroin free which is huge because my The addiction lasted 11 years, so I would have been clean for longer than I was.

Addiction, an addiction is negative, if you say addiction, it is always seen as something negative, while on the other hand, you can have a passion, which is the same impulse, but if you say passion, it becomes positive since I changed my life. I have become a multi-published author. I am a qualified nutritionist. I am a passionate advocate for animal rights and veganism and also join an animal sanctuary. I have been one of the lucky ones. I've been through all that. I abused my body to such an extent. I'm still here and I don't regret what I did.

Who I am and what I do now. To repent we cannot change it so you have to accept the good and bad in your life and just appreciate this life.