Die Stimmen in meinem Kopf
May 05, 2020Hello everyone, a new night dawns, a new night in which little by little the medication that I told you so much about, I can no longer pronounce it, little by little that medication, I already forgot Aro prip something that I told you that is happening Here now It's not nice, I'm pretty sure the psychiatrist prescribed me a medication that you can't take at home, but you can take it in a mental hospital, I'm pretty sure this medication was somehow mixed with drugs. , something is wrong with me So I don't sleep for about three days I'm fit I could uproot trees I usually sleep 12 to 13 hours every day because I'm so exhausted I'm not manic I'm not manic I don't buy anything and I'm not very happy.
Something is happening to me here, not me with you. I made desperate videos for you. I'll be stuck in front of videos all night. I contacted my ex-boyfriend again. Today here on WhatsApp I am happy, I write to my friend, I asked my girlfriend for help and she received it on Monday, not long ago. I don't want to burden my mother, she is burdened with my hair and my things that I have there, that doesn't work for me either. I would like to summarize it briefly I see here I see I see things that are not there I hear things so I see today I come back to what you have no idea what's happening to me I hallucinate a single medication that I like.
The psychiatrist always says on the phone today that he knew it would happen like that but he didn't want to tell me that he just shouldn't go into it, people, I'll say it. As it is, I haven't slept for days. When I want to close my eyes, a man speaks to me. I'm hallucinating because of the medication. A man tells me that he should show him something. I must show him that I can wake up, that I can stay awake, and that I must show him that I am awake, that I can manage to stay awake, I am afraid that he will become aggressive, that voice, I am already afraid of the one on my left when I want to fall asleep, there is a woman sitting in front of me on the left and a woman on the right I want to sleep, she is a psychotherapist, my psyche does psychotherapy with me, I suffer from my neighbor who hit my walls, she is harmless, but I have been sleep deprived for at least two or three days, at night I'm in shape.
I sit here and sway with my upper body so I can withstand the sway of The upper part of my body again in Psychiatry I sway I roll over I almost fall out of bed I roll over at night I don't know what to do next No I have I don't even have a therapist It's slowly degenerating I need I just have in my I saw a little boy with a hat and his mother was next to him and then I wanted to hit this boy. She really wanted to hit him, he wasn't even there. There was a woman sitting back there. my right with his daughter with her daughter, the daughter was eating a pizza and was under the son, the daughter and the mother had closed the pizza package.
I've already had singing in my apartment several times today from people I don't know. which I don't have, I see here now you may think I'm so crazy, I'm not crazy because they gave me medicine, it's very likely that they gave me a medicine that has something that has some drug in it. It must be a drug. Ecstasy or something must have been mixed in because I've been awake for 200 days without a break and I'm relatively fit, I'm very fit, I'm not really fit. , I'm hyperactive, I'm completely sick I'm completely screwed I don't sleep anymore I always sleep I've been able to sleep well all my life no matter how many worries I've had I've always been I can't sleep I can't sleep anymore I have pajamas people I barely close my eyes I hear voices a man who He tells me try it try it yes try it try it for me a woman then yes talk to me this man is annoying my friend said what is what if you go to bed and just tell them both leave and cry let me in leave me alone or or I imagine that someone is creating with violence I don't want to solve it you might think that I'm crazy believe me people if you feel anything like what I'm feeling right now if you always have that terror your own psyche will believe you I too have been feeling crazy for days I've been hearing voices for the first time yesterday, very loud for the first time.
I'm hearing voices to the extreme. I'm seeing things that aren't there. I no longer dare to look anywhere. I'm looking a little now. I mean, I'm watching now, I still have some TV, so I still have some contacts tonight who I'll write to until the night starts. My friend offered to let me call him. I hope you had the season. to keep it to a minimum. At night it starts and the new medicine that I stopped taking, the effect has to decrease first, the dose I have to dissolve slowly. Tonight I'm going back on my old medication, the two milligrams and then three milligrams again in three days.
Tomorrow I will take my caregiver to the psychiatrist. I think it's pretty good, we're learning a new recipe and I might not be able to talk, yeah, I'm overwhelmed. I'm reaching the end, my condition is clear, wait, I have something on the tip of my tongue, well, I say goodbye, good night, I say goodbye, maybe I'll do another one. Video get excited and say goodbye
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