TRIGGERED: Taking Back Your Mind In The Age Of Anxiety Part II | Pastor Steven Furtick

Just to get to it real quick from 1 Peter 5:8 and nine, which serves as the topic, we're not going to preach it today, but stay alert and so Burma and

your

enemy, the devil prowls around like a roaring lion. Look, I always read it. wrong, I thought he was a lion, I thought he was bigger than me and stronger than me, but I found out he's loud like a lion and the place where he roars is in my

mind

, that's where he's loudest in the thoughts I had . and that is why he is looking for someone to devour.

Have you ever wondered why all those Twitter, Instagram and Facebook feeds? He may be looking for someone, the order is to resist him, but how many know it is difficult to resist what you do not recognize and if we are going to resist the enemy, because I don't know about you, but I don't plan to live the rest of my life as a Christian and be a slave to my own imagination. . Amen. I do not intend to live the rest of my life forgiven by Christ as a prisoner of my past and repeating memories of moments that have come and gone, but I cannot escape them in my

mind

and so I truly intend for it to take me away. the rest of my life and it could be because it seems like sometimes I take two steps forward and three steps

back

, but I'm trying to break free. trying to get my mind

back

so I can serve God with my mind and love the Lord my God with all my heart with all my soul with all my mind all my strength and I don't want to be exhausted so I go into each day without energy and with a focus broken.

I really want to be able to see clearly the path forward so I can follow Christ in my future and that is the intention of this series, but to resist the enemy we have to recognize him or ourselves. We will spend our entire lives resisting all the bad things resisting silence when sometimes that is where God speaks the loudest resisting or trying to avoid uncomfortable situations and God's middle name is uncomfortable, he will run out of food on purpose to see what you are going to do. . in an uncomfortable situation he will sit next to a woman of disrepute, that will be uncomfortable and the disciples will have to decide if they really believe that this message is for everyone, so let's take a look today at this idea of ​​recognizing. the enemy so we can see how he acts in our lives and this may be a strange title but I want to call this message the devil in 3D, what he looks like in real life, not our cartoon image of him, our book for coloring, the devil once.

We peel back the layer and try to understand how it really operates to try to dominate our minds and establish a seed of influence in our souls through the control of our emotions. We can start fighting and you know Paul once said we are. I'm not ignorant of Satan's devices, Satan's devices, and of course I don't believe this is the devil, but I wanted to give you three things to make them memorable, starting with the letter D and instead of continuing to talk about Peter this week. I want to go into the Old Testament for a few moments and tell you the story of a biblical character that I know you've heard of named Moses and I want to use this example from his life that is probably not the one he would choose. us to evaluate because he made a big mistake and it cost him dearly, but hopefully, as First Corinthians 10 says, we can use him as an example so that the same thing does not happen to us.

How many of you want

your

children to learn some things? Your experience is that they don't have to learn through their own pain, so let's look at this. I'll read it to you. I'll be honest with you. I never preached on this passage before because I felt intimidated and it's really a little confusing you'll see it seems a little harsh what happens in this passage and I honestly knew that if I ever preached it God would probably speak something to me that I didn't want to hear because I can relate a lot. little What happens in this biblical story, but I want to share it with you now as we lean into this message, the devil in 3D and of course Moses' devil was a little different than ours, Pharaoh who was the ruler would have said Of Egipt.

The one who had to demand emancipation for God's people never really asked for that assignment, he didn't seek that assignment, he wasn't looking for a purpose in life, God simply interrupted what he thought was his, his second half of life and It gave him something different to do and it was not very convenient but now we are looking at Moses at the end of his life and this is what the Bible says Numbers chapter 20 verse 1 in the first month the entire Israelite community arrived in the desert of Zin and they stayed in Kadesh there Miriam died and was buried there Miriam died and was buried now there was no water for the community and the people gathered in opposition to Moses and Aaron and they quarreled with Moses and said if only we had died when our brothers were They felt dead before the Lord, why did you bring the Lord's community to this desert so that we and our livestock would die here?

Why did you take us out of Egypt to this terrible place? It has no grains or figs, vines or pomegranates. -Fi or Starbucks are trying to get you into text. I don't want you to get bored trying to listen to this Bible story and there is no water to drink. Moses and Aaron went from the Assembly to the entrance of the tent of meeting and fell. face down and the glory of the Lord appeared to them that's when the glory of God appears when you run out of answers that's when the glory of God appears when you admit God I can't do this on my own I need you God I've tried everything and These people are still driving me crazy, but I'm here at the entrance to the store and I need you to speak for everyone who came to church today with an arrogant attitude talking about I wonder what this sermon is.

It's going to be ready and you better hurry up and get to work because I really don't even want to be up here in that Karate Kid t-shirt that looks like a Halloween costume, say something, right? I don't. you're going to understand, but those of you who came here humbled under the mighty hand of God, he could just speak because you're listening now so the Lord said to Moses verse 7 take the staff that same staff that you lifted up over the Red Sea and separated the same staff that you initially threw on the ground and I showed you who I was because I turned the staff into a snake and you picked it up and it became a staff again, that same staff that turned the Nile River into blood until your enemy had no more.

There is no other option but to free yourself from slavery. That same staff that when you lifted it, the Amalekites were no match for the Israelites. That same cane, take it now. I want you to find Aaron and gather everyone and speak to the rock before his eyes. He will pour out his water. You will draw water from the rock for the community to drink with their livestock. Then Moses took the staff from the presence of the Lord as he had ordered and Aaron gathered the assembly in front of the rock and Moses told them, listen, rebels.

I'm going to start saying that in my house more to the children. Should we get water from this rock for them? It's no big deal. I do enough for you. I've been guiding them through this desert for 38 years and it's never enough, it never stops, it never stops, someone shot, it never stops, I scream that vacation day at the top of my lungs. I've been such a good father all day. I took my kids swimming, I went riding my bike. The kids and I went to eight Japanese meals and sat with people we didn't know and I pretended to think it was funny when he threw the bowl into his hat like he'd never seen it before.

I was a good father that day. a great father that day I read to him at bedtime and still at the end of the day they were fighting and suddenly I heard myself yelling at my children. Have you ever had an out-of-body experience yelling at your kids and you were surprised by what you said next and were thinking maybe you should beep. Edit me. I don't know what will come out next. The Holy Spirit just left and something else took over and now I'm watching myself and I'm afraid. of myself and I screamed at the top of my lungs never stop now we can laugh about it it wasn't funny at the time listen.

You rebels, we must get water from this rock, we already did it once 38 years ago. has happened before God prevented his shoes from wearing out so Moses raised his arm and struck the rock which God did not command him to do twice with his staff and the water gushed out and the community and their livestock drank thus on the surface what Moses did It worked but just because it worked on the surface doesn't mean it was wise and doesn't mean it will have a sustainable effect and that's why when you control people with your anger or your pout or your manipulative man, I mean, I can't see.

Even if you say the word manipulation is a foreign concept to me, you end up very alone because the cost of controlling people is ending up alone and I know I have you pinned against your chair right now talking about this sermon, so he looks confused and tells you. you will get nervous. through this, but some of the things that work on the surface cost us in the end and that is why it is so important that we understand this because look, everyone got water but it costs Moses what God had promised and if the passage ended in verse 11, I would say well that this scripture is difficult, unfortunately verse 12 tells us that even though the water came out of the rock, what came out of Moses, his heart at that moment prevented him from going further in the promise of God and even though all the people were happy and the people were impressed and the people may not even have known something was wrong because they were too busy drinking, the people were hydrated, the people got what they wanted, but Moses lost what that God had promised verse 12, the Lord told Moses and Aaron.

Because you did not trust me enough to fully honor me in the eyes of the Israelites, you will not bring this community to the land I give them. These were the waters of Meribah where the Israelites fought with the Lord and where he turned out to be holy. among them makes me wish I had paid more attention in my Hebrew class because if I knew that murabba means fight I would understand that God works great miracles in places of great conflict you know, it's funny all the little things we miss if we read the Bible in English because in interpretation sometimes writers put in little humorous things that I wouldn't know to look for, but this

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icular pun if you go back to verse 2 and I told you I'll give you three DS and I'm the first in deficit because he's describing a deficit in which the people of God are, he says in verse two that there was no water for the community and the people gathered together now, the Hebrew word for gathered here that he uses is a word that means to come together for the purpose of a conflict and Look, I didn't even know Facebook was in the Bible, talk to me, they call it a community, but the community came together to fight, that's a nice word for fighting, not for not fighting. not to argue but to fight and then they are fighting among themselves and they have no patience but they have no patience because they have no water and before we are too hard on them, these complaining Israelites you must consider that this was a matter of life and death this it's not the barista he ruined your order and forgot that you prefer almond milk this is something different this is that we can't live more than a few days without water and that's why we are desperate and I have noticed that when people get desperate they start doing things that normally they wouldn't do.

Have you noticed that when you get desperate you get nervous, you become touchy and sometimes you attack people and it's not about the people like I had to explain to the kids about my road rage it's not really about driving no It has nothing to do with driving it's just that dad finds this a convenient place to be protected and anonymous where I can leave some bullshit that's been building up I don't want a real preacher JJ, you're preaching next week, fake it, it's all because They came together to fight and what they didn't know that they couldn't know was that they were on the edge of Canaan, the land that God had promised them, was only a few months away, but at a time when they should have been preparing to conquer the enemy, had them in a state of conflict, don't you understand that the reason you have been fighting? like you've been fighting and even the reason that sometimes the devil focuses you on fighting people is because God is trying to bring you to what he spoke about your life and the promise of his inheritance in the saints and now closer.

When you reach that promise, the greater the conflict will be. I believe one of the reasons our church is so divided is because the enemy knows that if we ever stopped fighting and focused on the mission given to us by our captain and the savior of our souls we would be dangerous to the kingdom of God. darkness but we can't unite because we fight too much, it never stops, we never stop finding new things to fight for, it's not just Christians who fight against other religions that we can subdivide. in a multiplicity of different levels of Christianity and we can form small groups so that we no longer come together to lift up the name of the Lord and carry this message to the ends of the earth, but now we are fighting for a Bible translation over and over again what you use to worship about fighting about what specific nuance you believe about the Holy Spirit but I didn't come to fight so I don't need to fight with you I came to conquer and I need You in my corner and I don't have theenergy to spend fighting some people that God called me to fight so if you're black fight me if you're asthmatic fight me if you're a woman fight me if you're young fight me let's get all the young heads together let's fight this fight together and there's no water in the desert and when there is no water when there is a deficit you start to react instead of respond.

I'm a preacher of this message, Holley, I feel like it's happening right now because what I want to say is forget about the budget. deficit we have much more than a budget deficit in our nation today and it is a different deficit than the one they faced it is not a lack of water. I feel that in our world today we seriously lack our ability to empathize with others because we have an excess of opinions and a deficit of empathy. Let me try another one. They didn't like it much. We have an excess of information and a deficit of wisdom because if we do not have knowledge of information, we will remain trapped. in highlights and headlines and highlights and headlines and highlights and headlines and highlights and headlines clicking on crazy things and not even bothering to read anything more than the first sentence and then someone wants to ask me if you really have a water slide on your stage in the church because you don't want to come I almost lost my faith in the human race because of that water slide it's a deficit and I've been realizing myself maybe that's why I wanted to preach the series I'm having a hard time concentrating because you know the devices Hell, I guess I guess I'm not a neurologist, but I guess when I'm having a hard time reading three sentences in a book and now I'm trying to flip the paper when I raised my hand to flip through a book the other day I thought I'd have to get my mind next week if the Lord allows me and helps me, I will try to preach on that same topic of focus because I am talking to more and more people who feel that their mind is You are fragmented and you cannot retain a thought and it is not just because you are getting older and fish oil doesn't help you.

There are some principles in God's Word about distraction that we should consider. It's a deficit. A deficit in which we have more ways of communicating and we connect less than ever. I think that's what skyrocketing porn rates are all about. I think that's what skyrocketing sleep deprivation rates are all about. We are desperate to connect and we call ourselves connected and nothing could be further from that. the truth and it's too much Kosta called it too much to live with too little to live because it is a deficit a deficit of meaning a deficit of perception and when a deficit is not addressed, you know what happens next, disappointment comes and that is the second D is disappointment because I'm seeing how the Israelites are speaking well to Moses and I get it, I get it because when you don't have what you need to live you start doing things you normally wouldn't do and it's not even you. and you almost want to explain to people sometimes I don't even know who he was.

Very sorry. Can we rewind the last five minutes? And sometimes you can't, sometimes you can't undo, and what the Israelites said. Moses here apparently press that button now everyone has a button all of you who are calm we just haven't found yours yet really everyone has a boiling point everyone has something that if you press it you will see a different version of them and completely change their Enneagram number if you press the right button they go from a seven to a peacemaker to a marksman and it can happen so fast that Moses the man of God violently hits a rock when God is trying to show us people grace. but the reason why he did it and that's why sometimes I can't understand where it's coming from because I find things coming out of me and I'm confused about where it came from because I know I'm not angry so I'm angry because it's not a problem big enough to make me as angry as I am about what I'm angry about please help me preach to them about this together and they just told him they wanted to die. and it's their fault because every time you're faced with a deficit in your own life you start looking for someone to blame, every time you're faced with your own Bernice or your brokenness you want to find someone else or something else whose fault it might be. and the first thing we do when we run out of resources is look for someone else to take responsibility if only we had died when our brothers fell dead before the Lord why did you bring the community of the Lord why didn't my mother do it why My dad wasn't around These are all reasonable things to say but they don't really help the situation, they only make it worse.

Why did you bring us here to this desert to die here? In reality, they were not about to die. God was not going to allow it. he dies they were on the brink of destiny about to take the land that God had promised for generations and they want to die on the brink of destiny why did you take us out of Egypt to this terrible place there we had figs there we? We had vines there, we had pomegranates, we had grain there. I forget to mention the whips, they forget to mention the mud and straw and they start embellishing a past that didn't really even exist in, well, the old days.

I get it, man, that's how it is. It's tempting to go back there in your mind as long as you know that your version of the past is just as imaginary as your version of the future, that good angel, the place you were praying God to take you from, oh, I never forget. This time a lady came to me and told me that you needed to change some things in the church very early in the church and I was oh, she was arrogant. I was 28 years old, so what I said next will hold me accountable. There is a statute of limitations that she listed. everything she wants me to change in the church changes this and changes that and changes this and changes that and or the Lord of the devil prompted me to say what's next I said so you want me to recreate the church that you left to come to this one It wasn't my intention how it came out I meant to say I will pray for it I am, but a servant in a vessel just bubbled up frustration came out so you understand that frustration operates when your experience is different from your expectations so when you are frustrated it is not your life you are with frustrated is your life compared to your life expectations that's what frustrates you is that it normally takes me 13 minutes to get there and today it took me 30 and I did it I didn't plan that and since I already had a time and sleep deficit and I didn't put margin on this trip, now I feel frustrated.

I'm not really frustrated by the time it's

taking

. I'm frustrated by how long it's taken compared to how long I thought it was going to take and one of the best things we can do for our peace of mind is to crucify our expectations of others, I mean just put it there on the cross and get to the bottom of it. place where we no longer have expectations that people will meet our needs because we understand that our water flows from a different rock that our joy flows from a different place come on, family, shout into the phone, then no, no.

Relying on people to provide me with what God has promised is already mine and that's why they got so angry, man, and then Moses got angry and he went to God and he wanted God to be angry like he was angry and Moses got angry because God was not there. I'm not mad, that's what happened here, I was disappointed, it never stops after everything I've done for you. I've been here before. I've been here before, even in high school, when I was Coach Meyer's football team's athletic trainer. He recruited me to be the athletic trainer, he said I could get a scholarship and one day he was mixing that sweet Gatorade and I thought, I don't think they give scholarships for this, I think he tricked me into doing this, you know, I kind of don't.

I did it. I don't like it anyway not that I really care that much about American football. Okay, I'll turn it on. I'm not like some of you, fantasy lineups and stuff. I have a real life. I was joking. I'm kidding. I'm kidding with hers five, five, okay, son, she's getting those kids okay, okay, but man, it was a relatively simple job. I did it for over a year and the main

part

of the work, you know, they let me record from time to time. a wrist or an ankle. I don't think it was even people who were hurt.

I think they just sent cast members because if someone was really hurt, the doctor would come in, so I don't even think he was recording anyone. I don't even believe it, but I had a job and every time they had a water break, it was my job to turn on the water, that's right. Bobby Boucher didn't get me anything. I did it like clockwork. They blew the whistle. it was placed close enough to the pickaxe that was connected to the hose that went to the PVC pipe at Moncks Corner. It was elegant with a PVC pipe with holes in a kind of channel with which the water would come out of the pipe, but I was the man who turned it on and I turned it on like three or four times in each practice and one day I went there to turn it on and nothing came out I don't know who forgot to pay the bill but nothing came out and those football players went to drink and lined up on the PVC pipe and nothing happened and they started yelling at me like these rebellious Israelites started yelling at him to Moisés, they started yelling at me calling me Steve, my name isn't even Steve, there's an entry in my name. he pronounced the consonant the same ferris wheel oh he was angry yelling at me for once the water didn't come out hundreds of times the water came out once it didn't come out and guess what I'm not controlling the water it's just me turning it on so they were telling me shouting, so I wasn't saved yet, let me in, so I turned around and said God bless you all, only instead of God bless you, I said something. different vocabulary from BC that is not appropriate for this church environment and holy people like you and at that time I forgot that they were bigger than me because I have a level of insanity, so if it kicks in, I will stop caring how much bigger you are. and I would rather die than have you curse me.

I got in my Toyota Tercel and left, so it all came back to me. I'm sorry because all these times I understand Moses' disappointment. I'm really sorry all these times. this time everything I've done for you all the meals I've cooked all the prayers I prayed all the compliments I gave all the Christmas presents I bought all the sacrifices I made and you want to say this this time and now you want to yell at me, disrespect me and ignore me. I imagine Moses is tired of being taken for granted, tired of people just assuming that you're always going to do it and that it's easy for you until I realized that Moses wasn't really disappointed. with the people Moses was still dealing with a fear that he had carried with him from the moment God found him in the burning bush and possibly before that, forty years earlier, when he killed an Egyptian to try to rescue one of his companions.

Hebrews and he never really fit in because he was raised as an Egyptian but he was a Hebrew by birth and when he tried to defend the people that he was part of the people that he had to live with, Moses ended up having to run away, that's why he ended up. To begin with, I was in the desert with the Shepherd's staff and that is why when God found him in the bush, Moses said you were wrong, choose someone stronger, choose someone more capable, choose someone with more experience, pick someone who doesn't struggle with what I struggle with because I will let you down God and I will let them down and not only is Moses dealing with this moment but he is dealing with forty years of frustration, forty years of frustration that you could argue were the result of their lack. of faith when he didn't go in and fight and take the land that God had promised in a sense what they're saying about Moses is true and he knows it, that's not him, he's criticizing, it's not them that he's so disappointed in Me I realized in my adult life that my biggest fear and a lot of the reasons I withdraw and a lot of the reasons I lash out actually occurred to me once early in my marriage to Holly and it was a low point. -key argument but suddenly it broke out and I yelled at her I'm not stupid I'm not stupid it never stops I'm not stupid she said I didn't say you were stupid but I was Not responding to what she said, I was responding to what I felt somewhere inside about me, it was something that told me that I didn't know enough, probably going back to my dad, in some way he loved me, it wasn't that he didn't love me, but somehow I felt like it was him against the world and that he didn't have a complete deck to play with because of the way he was raised and at some point I probably started to think that I was operating in life from an intelligence deficit and so my first instinct when someone makes me feel stupid that phrase when I they make you feel stupid how much power you're giving other people when someone can make you feel stupid that's a weak mind but that's where I find myself sometimes that mental desert that mental desert that you know I'm talking about in them I'm afraid, sometimes I have afraid up here, not that I will misunderstand the Bible or that I will dishonor God, but unfortunately that I will disappoint Him. you and every time we start a new series I'm sorry, alreadyyou know, because I try to create expectation, this will be the best series ever and then I hope that baby Jesus, mother Mary and the Holy Spirit help us in some way because I don't.

I want to disappoint you and I'm sharing this biographically but I wonder if many of us function in this place and I don't want to disappoint you and that's why I hide and now I find myself. I don't even want to pick up the phone when people call because now, If I can text them back, I can carefully craft my response, even in the smallest ways. I see this fear. I see myself retiring. I see myself wanting to isolate myself and it's a trend that I don't fully understand because I love people. I really love people.

I have always loved people. I had to do that. I hugged everyone in their high school graduation class, all 230 of them hugged them all, but I Sometimes I find myself wanting to leave, I find myself wanting to leave, I find myself wanting to leave and I wonder why What do you know how I am? I'm losing my love for people, all this affects me like lights and cameras and all that, but me. I Realized One day I realized in the strangest way what it was like when a lady said to me, I've been going to church for seven years and I've never met you and I said, I'm so sorry.

I took it as an accusation, you know, she said no, no, it's a big church, we love the ministers, he'll stay fine. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, no, that's bad, yes, I met your

pastor

in seven years. Sorry, okay, okay, stop. Apologizing now is awkward because I'm making it awkward and then she made it awkward. She said you're much taller on screen. Well, that helped you see that I'm an insecure woman, but I don't want to disappoint you. You know? So when? Moses has this moment and I call it a moment, but it's not really a moment because every time something comes to the surface, like Moses hitting that rock twice when God spoke to him specifically to speak to the rock, not to hit it, and I know. why did he hit the rock because this is the third problem, it is the problem of dependency, you know, this cane was what he carried with him like Tom Hanks had a volleyball, Moses had a stick and now, in this moment when the community needs water and this will be their last test but they don't know it.

This will be their last test to see if they really trust God and Moses does not pass the test. What I couldn't understand is why God told him to take the stick if he didn't. I don't want him to use it, why did God tell Moses to take the staff and then not use it? I just held it and talked to the rock until I remembered what Moses said to God when God called Moses for the first time. I'm not good at speaking mv4 God could allow Moses to lead his people to the promise he had to know do you trust me enough when God said Moses you can't lead the people it wasn't for punishment it was for protection if Moses had led them in the condition their heart was in with years and years and years and years of resentment building up, they would all have been killed the first time God spoke and they didn't do what he said because God needs someone who isn't dependent on his staff.

I know that you struck the Nile River and the Red Sea and I know that this staff has been used to perform great miracles and I want you to have it in your hand but have faith not to use it. I want you to talk to the rock and he hit it in its place and God said you don't trust me enough, you have allowed this resentment to build up to a point that it has killed your potential when we allow resentment to build and build and build. and build when in reality we never We believe we are what God said we are when we constantly take people's evaluation of us as the ultimate reality.

It limits our participation in God's promise. It doesn't stop God from loving you, but it stops God from being able to guide you. in the great and precious promises that have your name on them God said I just need you to trust me I know you stutter I know you stutter I know you're afraid of disappointing me but it's never about you Moses, it's never about your mouth it's never about my hand powerful and my arm outstretched it was never about your walk it was about the rock so what are you trusting in today my friend the rod or the rock because 1 Corinthians 10 clearly tells us that this happened as an example for us that the Israelites who They wandered in the desert as an example for us for you and me in our daily lives in our efforts to trust God in the face of our own fragility said the apostle Paul verse 4 they drank the same spiritual drink they drink from the spiritual rock that accompanied them here is the revelation and that rock was Christ it was not about Moses it is not about me it is not about you yes I will disappoint you yes I will disappoint you but I am not the rock that you are I know how good it makes me feel to know that I am not the rock.

I don't have to force it. I don't have to fight. I don't have to explode with anger when it doesn't go my way. I am not him, he is my stable place, he is my solid ground in Christ, the solid rock, I am standing, all other grounds are sinking, sand, please stand, I am closing, please stand, I am closing, beasts verse 13 where the waters of Meribah where the Israelites fight. with the Lord they fight with the Lord and verse 2 says they fight with Moses but in reality they were fighting with the Lord it's not even about Moses it's not even about you it's not even about me we have been

taking

things personally you we know and we let it build and then it explodes not in church oh you look so elegant here your little blush shows up at God's house carrying a big, old, thick Bible it explodes when you get home it explodes when you're all alone and you find yourself desperately crying out for a connection and disappointed with your life, so you start hitting rocks and you start trying to know that the water came out of the rock and ran on the surface, but Moses couldn't get into the promise of God.

Did God still love Moses absolutely? You see the god of second chances. I hope so. I know it is. I know he's not going to punish me for a mistake. May I try it on. I can prove it to you. Give him that verse I sent you. you before Psalm 148 when the psalmist reflected on this event he said you got it 114 eight the one I sent you today you know it's Psalm 1 14 verse 8 what if I started yelling at people on the screens to show Moses as frustration , but he said that God turned the rock into a pond, the Hard Rock into Springs of water and God spoke to me through that verse and said that if you leave me the place of your greatest mistake it will become the place of my mercy and your greatest miracle but for this to happen we cannot keep everything inside and continue to explode in situations and exploding is not anger for everyone sometimes it is much more subtle than that it is a small waste that you withdraw from those you love because I don't want to be disappointed again No I want to be a disappointment so I'm living my whole life trying to avoid disappointment.

I'm lowering my expectations down, down, down, down, because now no one can disappoint me and I'm bringing myself back back back because I don't want to disappoint you it's not about you this is the test this is this is the test with your rod in your hand to remember everything that God has done for you and the rock in front of you, you, the presence of God, speak to him, do not hit him, speak to him, confess it before God, speak with your weakness, recognize your insufficiency, God said no I am, I am not, I am not looking for you to be what I need from you. being I am looking for you to trust what I already am and that is why when Moses said I am not God he said I am when Moses said I am not God he said I am when Moses said I am not God he said I am when Moses said I am not God he said I am?

Do you trust him enough to let him deal with those who have hurt you? Do you trust him enough to let him use everything that has happened for your good and his glory? Raise your hands if you do. the rock is in this place when my heart is overwhelmed guide me to the rock that is higher than me we meet at this moment God pour out your spirit in a fresh way for your people now I ask you to speak to that weak place broken in its place discouraged place make the heart beat again for real water from a rock beauty of brokenness call to call to talk to the rock question enter my decision making process god I need you hey thanks for watching the church youtube channel of elevation if you enjoyed this message take a minute click the subscribe button on your screen that way you won't miss a single video and if this ministry has impacted you and you would like to partner with us to continue reaching others you can Click the link in the description. below to give now thanks again for watching and don't forget to subscribe