Collin Gosselin Addresses Being Institutionalized Twice (Exclusive)

I was in two, in two different institutions, a terrifying place. I was actually 12 when I got admitted there and then it was like I spent my 13th and 14th birthdays there, why were you there? Because your father said you shouldn't have been there, you know? I came to the conclusion that everyone has their own agenda. You know, my mom had her own agenda. I don't know exactly what it was, but my agenda was to get over that sticky point the moment Kate said Collins' institutionalization was due to a special needs appointment, you can't do anything without realizing she misses Colin wasn't there. .

Each unique child receives exactly what he needs. Your mom said Colin has special needs. There is a fairly fluid diagnosis of what those needs are. This has been a struggle we have had for a long time and it is one that I have faced on my own. I felt very alone in this in the same way, it's not something that's just impacted me or him, our entire family has been impacted when you listen. what do you think um it's unfortunate that that's how my mom expressed me as a person you know I don't see those things and I don't think anyone else sees those things but that's how she sees me so you know it's her point of view and I hope that If we met again one day she would understand that you know that's not the case but you shouldn't have been there, that's what you're telling me, no, um, what did that do to your relationship? with her um after

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there, I didn't have a relationship with her even before, I don't think we had much of a relationship and um, I think that continued to tear her down even more.

Colin told me that he could finally leave. the institution after writing this heartbreaking letter to John asking for help quote you are my dad My savior Please help me I am counting on you to get me out of here Dad I love you you wrote a note to your dad as a matter of fact you could have even written with crayons and he You asked for help to get you out of that place, right? um, what was going on? um I was in a dark place mentally um I think

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in a place like that hurts you more than it helps you um so I was desperate um and you know I figured out how to write to my dad and it was something that helped me mentally figure out that there was a way out of there and you know second chance, you know Redemption, if you could, so it gave me hope in my future.

Colin sure moved in with his dad and twin sister Hannah in 2018. John says he was granted temporary full custody. Your mother didn't show up for custody here. Did she bother you? She didn't show up. She really didn't bother me. I mean, they just gave it to my dad and you know she wasn't there to give her word. So that's what happened. How has life been for you? Hannah together um oh Hannah I would do anything for my sister and I love her to death Hannah uh she was a big part of um you know my emotional support she helped me a lot and she still does to this day you know long ago.

For me, how is your relationship with your father today? um he's good, I'd say he's like any other son and father, I mean we clash a lot, um he's pretty normal, unfortunately Colin's relationship with Kate and his six other siblings is still estranged, but he's hoping that it can eventually be rebuilt it's a mommy and a bear oh well, where is everyone else? If there was a message you could send to your mom, what would you tell her? um, it's unfortunate that we didn't have a relationship, I think all children. he wants to have a relationship with her mom um but I'm doing great um and yeah, I think I'm fine, but would you love to have a relationship with her if you could, yeah, that would be ideal. talk to your other brothers and sisters no, I haven't talked to my brothers and probably five or six years ago um and it's hard, you know, I would love to have a relationship with them, I would love, you know, for us to get together one day.

You know, having dinner together, talking, you know, just having the relationship and catching up on the things we lost, the time we lost, do you want to send them a message because I'm sure they'll see this? Like I love my brothers, I mean, you know I love them to death, you know they're the only ones hmm, I'm sorry, no, I get it, there's nothing like the bomb between brothers and sisters, there's what you want to do, can someone get the tissue real quick? a tissue I don't want to get makeup on there's no shame in loving your siblings at all, although can you ask questions again?

Yes, yes, what would you like to say to your brothers? I love them so much and you know. The way I see it is without the parents involved, it's just me and them and I really hope that one day when I have kids, you know my kids are going to meet their aunts and uncles, what's the biggest mistake about you, the biggest mistake about yourself. . I, um, it's just that I'm incapable or you know, you know, I'm still a little obsessed with the things that I've been through because I'm not, um, you know, I work like everyone else I go to. school, you know, I go out with my friends, you know, my life is great, but Collins' busy schedule led to a terrifying scare earlier this month when he fell asleep at the wheel and rolled his car.

He looks at this photo, it's scary, it's scary, what happened. I was on my way to work it was like two in the afternoon and I'm working full time at high school so I'm tired I fell asleep at the wheel and the next thing I know the car flipped over and I'm like sliding . face down through traffic and, you know, I just wanted to get the message out to other people to wear your seat belt so you don't fall asleep at the wheel, but drive carefully, let's talk right now about what's in your future, of what you're doing now, eh, well.

I'm still in high school, so I finished high school and graduated. I'm studying the Marine Corps. You know, I always wanted to be a Marine, so I think that's the next step. But I definitely have a lot of dreams. many goals, I mean countless, do you have a girlfriend? uh no, no, I don't just do it, you know, would you ever do reality TV again? um, you know, I think you know, I've kind of become a natural at So I think it would be cool to do it now, I'll probably remember the memories of him and also see it a little differently than not remembering him when I was younger.

Thank you. a lot that you remember about doing the show um well I don't remember the depth or the little details um something that you never forget is like the presence of the cameras like there are always cameras there, they're always with you Colin is stubborn but kind. Fans have been watching Colin since he was three years old and he grew up on television. John and Kate Plus Eight was one of TLC's highest-rated shows. Can you stop breathing so hard? Honey, it's like he's such a phenomenon that in 2009 10.6 million. Viewers tuned in to watch John and Kate's separation television announcement.

Uh, Kane and I have decided to separate. Personally, I don't really like the idea. Do you wish your parents had stayed together to work things out? You know it would be good. Nobody wants. his family would be torn apart, but he wishes they could have fixed something. They don't talk now. Do you wish they could? They would at least talk to each other if they had the ability to co-parent. That would be good. I know you don't need to be best friends, but it would have been nice if you could be adults and get along and do it for the sake of your kids, if you guys hadn't done that reality show, do you think your family? would be intact um I think so you know I think the pressure of being in front of everyone and you know everything you make every mistake you make is out there um I think it was a big influence that they weren't together and I definitely I think they would still be together, so John and Kate Plus Eight basically ruined your family.

I think so, in my opinion.