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Hey guys, I'm looking for v+ diapers and welcome to basically what is an

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video, it will be unedited, there really won't be much editing. I shouldn't say raw because there may be a bit of editing, but it's actually not bad. I don't feel like this isn't a video that I think needs to be perfect in any way. This is just an

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video/just a discussion video and I know what you're probably thinking, where am I? Because this is definitely in my normal environment, well I'm in my living room, usually most of my videos are recorded in my room, I hear that weird noise that's just my dog ​​drinking water because like I said , I'm in my living room, not in my room. where I would like to close my door and just keep everything out, like outside noises, but the type of apartment I live in is a little difficult to do because the walls are not applied, but it is one of those old ones. something like apartments in the city, apartments in the city where you can hear everyone else and stuff like that, that's just how it is, if you hear noises, I can't control it, you know that and then you'll probably hear noises from my dog. throughout the video as well, so first of all, I correct that I basically beat cancer, which is good at the beginning of last year, in November or December, I mentioned to you that I was diagnosed with stage 1 Hodgkin's lymphoma and I know, Even though it's a curable cancer it's still cancer and it sucks, you know, when I went through six months of chemo and then on June 26 of this year I had my last chemo appointment, which was nice because I tell you that going through the chemo is no fun, all the chemicals and toxins in your body and stuff and it's just that you know, you know, you lose your appetite, I know and all that, it's just that you feel nauseous all the time.
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I never threw up, which is good. I never vomited while receiving chemotherapy. I've come. close, but I didn't really, but you know, mainly what I went through was a lot of nausea, that's what I really felt, there was a lot of nausea and that's what sucks, of course, you know, I took medication for it, I was on steroids , which During the whole process, taking steroids caused me to have a huge spike in my blood sugar, which skyrocketed from that and I also think because of my eating habits as well, I don't want to say that was all that I have, doctors and stuff.
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I said it was mainly because of the steroids, but I want to say that my eating habits also have a part in this because I used to eat very badly. I still do it a little bit, but I've changed a little after that incident. You know he was in the hospital. From April to May, I don't know if I talked about this in a video or not, but I was there for about four days in the hospital they just wanted to make sure my blood sugar wasn't low enough that I could. basically I'm leaving and the hospitals suck.
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I'm scared to death of hospitals. I really don't like them. I don't like them at all. You know it's apart from that. I'm fine. I have to have a PET scan. Friday just to make sure everything is okay, although my oncologist said we should be okay, you know, knock on wood, but we should be ready, since I had additional chemo appointments. You may have to do radiation. I'm not entirely sure. Sure, but we'll have to wait and see because I'm having my PET scan this Friday and then I'll be talking to my oncologist next Friday about the results of everything, so yeah, you basically know why if you haven't seen any of the videos. on my channel in a few weeks it's because I wanted to take a break after chemo and I just want to spend some time to myself, you know?
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And while I was going through chemotherapy, my anxiety and depression reached an all-time high. I'm not even going to sit here and say oh yeah, I've been good all along. No, there are times where I have been really miserable and felt like even though I had friends and family supporting me, I felt like I was alone and you. I know that's depression and then anxiety, every time I have chemo, whenever something would happen, like I had trouble digesting food or I had a dull pain in my chest from eating. certain foods and trapped gases and all that other stuff.
I would scare myself thinking I was going to die or something and it wasn't fun because I'm a hypochondriac so there was that and then you know there's like I said there's that and it just wasn't a fun time for me and I've had a few mental breakdowns during the which I feel like I'm getting teary-eyed talking about this because part of me wants to just cry. right now, but I've cried so much that it's almost hard to do it any more because I've cried so much through all of this and, like I said, I've had some mental breakdowns, you know?
And before you say anything, don't you know that I'm not suicidal? I haven't had thoughts of killing myself or hurting others or anything like that, it's just that I think, like I said, anxiety in me, always feeling like if in the slightest, I was going to die or I would have to go back to the hospital or something like that. Even though my blood work and everything has been fine except my blood sugar levels which happened at the end of April, other than that I don't know why I'm telling you guys. things, but other than that, everything else has been flying with me, but I think the depression really comes from the fact that I was diagnosed with cancer and I had to go through chemotherapy and sometimes I felt weak like I could.
I don't do anything without mentioning that I'm going through this. I was going through this father like a pandemic and first I like January and February before the lockdown everything was great you know I was traveling but I'm a March. and places started, so you know, clothes and all that stuff, at first it didn't bother me, but then it was like no, yeah, this sucks and finally my job closed. They still paid me, although you know they still pay me. I'm not back at work right now, but I hope to get up soon. I just have to wait a little bit, but I think it's just because of the fact that I would be so miserable, you know, because other people have to go to the grocery store. people have to go out and people have to go to work and I was stuck in the house not being able to see my friends or my family for a while, I was just, I'm all I've been around or for most of it.
Partly, I've just been with my mom and my girlfriend, her family, but I haven't really been to any stores since I haven't been to the stores since March since March because last time. I think I went to a store later that day and ended up getting a fever and that was a disaster and I don't have Covin. I know what you're thinking. No, I just had a virus that Everything back in March and I was worried that I had a cover because they gave me a Cova test because it's not a greedy but like a virtual exam because I had a fever in a car, you know, it didn't tell me that I had to take. a test and my oncologist didn't think I needed a test either so she just gave me some medicine and I also took some other medicines like my clone and then my fever went down after a few days, my fever went down and stuff.
So there are times when I feel like I don't know, there are times when I feel alone and I know that no one is going to understand because no one, there are people who have been invited to follow in my footsteps, except my family and my friends. They may know it to some extent, but it's like they themselves can't experience what I'm going through because they themselves have never been diagnosed with cancer. They've never been through chemo, but I'm sure there are some friends. Is there anyone who can relate to someone to a certain extent when I'm going through what I'm going through and it's just terrible.
There are times when I have to force myself to do things because I will be so depressed that I don't want to do anything. I know I just want to sit on the couch watching TV or not even play video games and I love playing video games and it's just not a good time right now. I'm thinking about talking to a therapist, you know? I feel like this. It would be the best for me, you know, because I haven't achieved this. I haven't been like that since the summer of 2015 and that was when I graduated high school and during that summer I achieved success. you know, all-time low for a little minute, but I recovered then, you know, 2016 was also a very depressing year, but I always managed to recover and then recently I feel like it's not that easy to recover and it almost feels like that.
It almost feels like because of what I went through with cancer and everything I lost, a part of me like a part of me has been taken away like a part of me has been used. I feel like I lost who I was, if that makes any sense, I'm sorry. I'm trying not to cry but you know sometimes it's okay to show your emotions and feel a certain way instead of leaving things bottled up because it's not good to leave things bottled up it only makes things worse so I encourage anyone who's out . I know some people don't want a handout and you know they don't want to be told what to do because I'm kind of like that, but if you are struggling with anxiety and depression and even suicidal thoughts, talk to someone if you know someone who is going through a difficult time right now, reach out to him because you never know if it will be the last time you talk to him or not, and I know it may seem like I'm being dramatic and stuff, but um, this.
That's how I feel and after chemo I was fine You didn't know I was fine I wasn't anxious I wasn't depressed For once I felt happy like really happy and just seeing all the support on Facebook and Instagram of me doing this, finishing this difficult trip, even from people I went to school with who didn't really necessarily reach out to me, you know, and it felt great for once that people cared, you know, or maybe some people you know. part of me is like, oh, maybe some people don't really care, they were just fine with whatever this was about.
I didn't know I loved the comments or I love the post or everyone likes whatever, but I don't think they like it. that any little bit of support, any little bit of love, means a lot to me and if you yourself, like I said, are going through a difficult time, please or you know someone, talk, reach out to that person because just by talking about it you'll be I'm surprised how much it helps to talk about it with someone, regardless of whether they are a professional or not. You can communicate with a loved one, a friend in any hell, even talk to your dog, maybe they could even help you, but don't go on. your emotions repressed because I tell you I used to.
Still to this day I sometimes do that and that doesn't make things better it just makes everything a hundred times worse so I hate changing topics like this but other than that and everything I'll be fine I'll be fine and then the videos like I said se They will resume shortly. I just need a little break and I know I've been taking breaks here and there on the channel, not alone and it's early. It will be a year since I started this channel in like two months will be here which is crazy to think that I started this channel completely new and almost like I want a fresh start and it's nice the fact that I don't.
I don't care if I don't have that many subscribers. I just appreciate any little support you guys show me. I don't care if people don't know. Subscribe to my patreon or whatever. world to me and I just want you to know that I care and thank you seriously, this channel is almost like an escape and it feels great to have that, but once the videos resume you will see new things, like I have some parodies. and shops. I hope to have my anime review for my first time. My first girlfriend as a girl should also be out soon, I don't know how soon, but she should be out soon.
I also have other videos and if there is anything you would like. To see what I do on the channel, feel free to contact me whether it's on Twitter in the comments section or even on Facebook, but I think I'll end the video here, thanks everyone for watching. I'm looking for the geek, also known as Edward. and thanks

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