Hidden Disabilities

It's a bit like being a speaker of a foreign language being thrust into a completely different country. The connection between what I see and what's in my head. There's a gap that many people don't understand. When you say you're in pain all the time, you're not. exaggerating too much I missed you so much and Brad had killed to be able to eat garlic bread again make people understand me there's still something I'm not used to but I feel like little by little the world is finally starting to understand why it's like I had postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome, which means that sometimes when I get up my heart can't compensate for that and I collapse and I also have colitis, which really affects what I can eat.

I can't eat gluten-containing dairy products anymore. of one serving of fruit a day I am not allowed oil or any type of sugar and I am not allowed caffeine due to colitis, but I have to drink more caffeine because in the pots every time they explained fibromyalgia to me It is as if I had pain all the time time, but there is much more. Fatigue is just something that consumes me all the time, it's like constantly having the flu. ASD is amazing, it affects your brain in the sense of how you react to sounds. to lights to any type of external stimulus certain foods I can't eat because the texture is just black or I don't like loud noise because it feels a little like someone is hitting my skull with a sledgehammer.

Dyslexia comes from different things, for example, it affects me. my short-term memory, so I forget my type of phonemes, so I always confuse e and a. It's frustrating when you know what you want to say, but as soon as it comes to speaking, yes or throughout college, I've been missing it. So many lectures, if I have a flare-up or something, the water hits me painfully, I can't decide at the last minute to do more work because I need to have food on me and I have to be very careful where I study because if it's a place where there aren't many people I'm worried about fainting no one will find me the effort of maintaining a facade is exhausting so in that sense being a student is quite complicated it's like everyone is in on the inside joke that you're not a part of I think what bothers me the most is when people decide that depends on them you can and you can't use it to say betray that I need it a lot because I mean, if I collapse I need the red cord but in some places I feel like someone is going to yell at me using Twitter.

I might as well take a chance on one without a cord. I remember one time I got on the bus and it was packed and I kind of sat down. because I was in absolute agony like I couldn't believe it and this man said oh I think you should get up from that seat and I burst into tears that I haven't experienced in a forum where people couldn't reconcile things. The fact that I had these are learning difficulties. I also got decent grades. They said, "Oh, she's cheating." The reason we have these external arrangements is because our brains take longer to process things.

It's about making sure we can perform with the same ability as anyone else. Sometimes a lot of people will say, oh, you're stupid because you can't spell, you're an English major, you can't spell, and there's that line between what's just a joke, harmless jokes about what's actually boiling hot. you know, boolean, I've had close friends tell me that it doesn't really seem like a real thing, it sounds amazing if someone is in pain 24/7, so it doesn't diminish the fact that people go through it. in terms of stereotypes also like not all of us are math geniuses not all of us have explicitly specific skills in some areas or we don't always speak in a flat tone do you have a special interest do you like routine people like do you fit in? in a new category, it makes you easier to understand.

I can't help but have dyslexia and all the mental health issues but there are things out there that can support you and help you during your journey in college as I will say since I have been diagnosed with physical

disabilities

. I am much more aware of how things would affect others by getting involved in student media in the creative industries. I think I have found my place in having that support network of friends who understand you and that in turn has given me the confidence to speak up if I need help, just listen to them and listen to them complain because that's all you need to do sometimes. , if they have to do something to make their lives a little easier, don't judge them for that, I think so.

It would be really helpful if people would stop deciding that it's up to them whether they think someone has a disability or not, which just because someone isn't in a wheelchair doesn't mean they're not allowed to use that facility. All I want is to be treated like a human being, but also have an understanding like that's all or anyone who has ever diagnosed journalists with all the needs if I keep them at a distance at certain times it's not because of you, it's because I need that time alone to refresh, re-energize and get back to things, but you have to give credit to my friends because they have always made allowances for me and always understood and I can't thank them enough for that.