HERES MY TRUTH...

argue, people fight, people complain, all that and then at the same time, it was also a motivation, like she motivated me a lot to continue with my routine. Sometimes I encouraged her to like it, but I feel like she was doing too many things to be beautiful and I wasn't really looking at her emotions as much as I should have and I feel like that could have been a great thing for her. I feel like she thinks that she was doing a lot of things just for Bella and that I didn't really care how she felt, but I really cared about what she felt.

I really cared a lot. Even so, I still care how she feels, that's always the way it is, I just want her to be the best she can be and in fact, at first I got angry because she said she didn't want to be my friend at all. I was, I was going through my sadness and everything and, oh, what are you going through, girl, I was going through all my feelings and everything, my emotions, every time she said that for the first time, yeah, monkey, monkey, here, pleasure, monkey girl, so, I was like I was sad.

I was going through all the emotions and stuff at first, but then I realized it was like destiny. She's actually grown up a lot now, I respect the decision she made and everything because she's learning her self esteem and everything, and even though I could still be there. to cheer her up and all that with amazing words and stuff like that, I just have to let the action show and everything and I just have to see everything in a better way, like if I don't know myself personally, I have to work on myself. much more like walking in faith and everything like keeping God always with me and everything I do the best I can also if you don't know that she actually had a drug addiction, she would admit that like me, she almost smokes. like about 20 bucks a day at the same time, still working all of that, so I was literally doing everything I could to literally like working with everything and sometimes it was hard, like I was trying to deal with a lot of things, but your guy she stayed. sober for at least a month, so I'll keep doing everything I can.

I haven't been drunk or smoked for at least a month or a couple of weeks, so I've been doing the best I can and it all sticks. sober, stay hydrated, drink my water, all that stuff and also I'm living my life as a young father again, you feel me, I'm going through all the steps again, like I'm back with my family and my friends. and all that and I just keep you guys in tune with me and all that and I've actually been through a lot of things like this in these last few months like I've actually seen a lot and I've been through a lot of things that I don't really I don't want to talk too much, here you go, I don't really want to talk too much because, uh, I try my best and everything to keep everything going, so I try my best to literally like, girl, what you do, what you do. doing the same thing here, yeah, that's a lot of hair, I'm just trying my best to like it, keep my head up with everything, so, uh, I would just like all my friends to tell them all that, literally, in this last month, I literally went through a It's like literally a lot of things came up and talking about the situation when she said we started a relationship and broke up the next day it's because I feel like I wasn't ready for the relationship because that's a relationship with commitment I feel like sometimes I just wasn't the one who was ready, she's definitely ready for a relationship, like destiny had everything prepared, like she's doing amazing and all, like her best friends are doing something incredible.

Your mom is doing a good job, I feel pretty um, she's doing the best she can everything and I feel like I'm trying to do the best I can and she's going to show up in some time and everything like she's still there. going everything still learning because I'm still a father like co-parenting is still difficult I will say that in the beginning everything was not so difficult because fate and I always come to good terms at the end of everything, but I feel like This moment is actually like a moment of presentation and as if she was manifesting a lot.

I'm trying to get face to face on stage too. I also keep my family and friends close because support is something very important to me. grow up what you're doing girl what you're doing monkey do you like monkeys yes yes quite yes I think support is a great thing and everything and I always love the support of my family and friends first of all also all of you support it means a lot to me pretty much everything I say is um I just do the best I can with everything that's the end goal and everything I literally like I do the best I can to just sit here and get on with it for you guys like you're times where, like Lily, I had to restart everything, just start over like it was so many hard times where I literally kept trying to go for my friends and everything, like go for my family and for all of you, like I was literally trying hard to the max to keep going and My mind is like a totally different place now and I'm just thinking about a lot of other things, so I literally tried, girl, what are you doing, you have all these toys, so I literally try to keep going the best way I can.

I can, really, that's right. literally everything I will do and I will do everything I can to be the best father I can to her at the same time, but it's hard to be in a completely different state and all of that is literally true of where we live. Now I live in a completely different state so I try to keep going back and forth from here to Florida and everything because you know being a YouTuber in my job I like to do things whether YouTube is my job and everything and I do the best I can.

So, I don't know much else to tell you guys, this is like I have my emotions always repressed, but I keep my emotions in the dark. I don't want to show you the wrong emotional camera and everything. because I think about everything positive, what I try to do is turn negativity into positivity. I always try to do the same. I always try to make my daughter happy and everything. I always try to encourage people. Sometimes I feel like when I'm at my lowest point, the only person I can really turn to is God. I turn to my family and friends at the same time, but I've gotten to a certain point where I feel like a lot of my friends think that me.

I'm this social media person and I'm not really like I just like this is my job. I feel like a lot of people don't see YouTube as a career perspective because this is like everything I had first. I had a pizza job. and everything, but I changed my pizza job to be a full-time YouTuber and everything, so this is my job, this is what keeps my family saying this is what keeps everyone like everyone okay, on my side, That's what keeps my daughter raised and everything. It has a crib like everything has helped me a lot because uh you have helped me and all that like I don't know uh and destiny saying that I used it for content all of that I don't feel like it was used anymore I feel like we're working together.

I see things like working together, things like that because she has content and everything she has on her page when he was working together, things like that and it works like it's literally like a work game like at the same time, she has to think in a more adult point of view, like Lily's, if we were 30 and everything we could have done at a young age, like we would have been good, I'm not even going to say, uh. We are family but we could have been like this like this unbreakable bond and everything with friendship and everything that goes on trips and all that but you feel me uh time will show time will tell everything what's up shoes girl you can't take their shoes off Well, can you let me see, there you go, that's one, let me see, that's two, here you go girl, so, uh, that's just my true story, um, I'll always be there for everyone, uh, that's always, everyone, every first of all, everyone.

I already know that I'm going to do everything I can to be there for everyone, like all my friends and family, like whoever is watching this. You all know that I am always there for all of you. That's what I was at times in my life. Honestly, I'm so blessed to be here and everything, a lot of people don't see it and I do everything I can to literally show my friends and my family that I'm I'll always be there for them, like I treat everyone like they're my friends. First of all, I treat everyone like they're my friends every time we come into contact and everything, and I also try my best, huh, what do your socks keep with your socks? girl, keep your socks on the almost finished video girl, what, what, don't you know, the light's not working, girl mm-hmm, I don't know why, but yeah, sort of, um, yeah, that's all my real story, I hope everything is understood. better with me and fate and everything uh I pray everyone is okay I always do that every night every morning I try my best and yeah that will be the end of the video man I hope you enjoyed this video , make sure they like it. comment, subscribe, you are helping your son a lot, watch all the ads in this video too, soon a broadcast will start every time I go back to my old crib, try to take the computer there and everything, and yes, it will be a Let's get on board a lot of fun stuff man, but I love all of you, I'll see you in the next topic, let's do it, oh yeah, also another thing is, man, this is not a competition, this is not a competition between me. and fate and everything, I have a lot of love for her and everything, so don't go into her past, hating anything, throwing it up for you and all that, but pretty much yeah, so just put out the video you wanted everything to come out , but if. just uh, I don't know just don't give fate any blows, everything just make sure everything's okay, okay.