Let's catch up (honest life chat + answering your questions)

Hello everyone, what's up? Welcome back to my channel. I always do this. Welcome back to my channel. My name is lily. If you're new here, I haven't posted and I think months to be

honest

with you, which I'm not proud of. I'm not proud of it, but to give you a little

life

update, we were home for three weeks and then we came back in early January and I feel like we were thrown into work because we sent it in three. weeks we had a lot of shipping to do and then it was like the new year, we had our goals and everything, so I pressed, there's a really loud car out there, I left YouTube kind of on the back burner and I feel like I've gotten used to doing that during the last year and I'm not happy with it.

I really want to change it because I guess we're just diving into it as of now, but I feel like from the podcast that I can talk more about this later. I haven't talked to you at all, yeah we have updates I guess and Instagram stories. If you don't follow me, you should put my handle on the screen, but I like the post. My stories and what I'm doing, but I feel like we can't talk much from the podcast. I loved having that platform, as well as updating them on what was going on in the business or mine.

life

and I felt like it was a great way to connect with all of you, so I hope YouTube can regret it.

I really talk with my hands. I hope that's not annoying. I hope YouTube can be like this. place where we can meet like every week or whenever I can post and just

catch

up and have real moments together like this it's not without makeup I'm in a robe literally just showered I have acne scars from a breakout I had in December and I just want to be better to be myself and talk to you about the struggles I'm having, whether it's with the business or whatever, because it's not all sunshine and rainbows anyway, hello, this is the first time you've seen me.

It's probably like this girl is all over the place but I feel like I just need a good life video

chat

with you guys so originally maybe I was going to bake and try to answer

questions

while I was baking but I know myself and I'll ruin the cooking. If I do that because I need to focus and then I was like, "Okay, I could

chat

, get ready with me and do my makeup, but

honest

ly, in my heart, I just wanted to film right now and I was like, hey, this is fine." we don't need crazy fancy production or anything crazy, I just wanted cozy vibes, it's literally nighttime, what time is it?

It feels so late, I'm exhausted, but it's 7:50. It's basically 8 p.m. m. on a Wednesday and I just wanted to film I made my green tea, the big tea girl, if you're new around here, I literally drink tea every night, I have to, it's my favorite thing. I love decaf green tea so basically my thoughts for this video were like I just wanted to do a live chat to

catch

up and then also answer some of

your

questions

so I took some of the Instagram stories and wrote them because I wanted it to be an organized promise, these are questions that you asked.

I don't like picking them myself so I don't know where I should start turning the brightness down and it's so shiny. I guess I'll ask this one because it's just a good opening question: How's life at

your

ATM going right now? Life is good, right? Now, okay, I guess I'm happy that it's a new year 2021, despite what it might have seemed like on social media, it was definitely a year of some struggles for me. Obviously I had an incredible year, very grateful for the growth we had in this. last year, but I think for me I had different things, like health things, I had to deal with a lot of anxiety last year, like I was questioning my purpose, like all these big life things that I was struggling with behind scene and I think that made me like to become more reserved maybe not share as much and I started to question myself like my artwork and if I was good at what I was doing and would I compare myself to other people online or other companies and see what they're doing and I don't know, sometimes I felt less and I just had some moments last year where I felt a little blessed and if you felt that way too, you're not alone.

I'm very optimistic for this year and I feel like myself again, what does it take for that? Speaks like I'm finally feeling like myself again and those are my thoughts and where I've been recently and I hope you guys are doing really well. Well, I missed chatting with you, but let's answer it as a different kind of question anyway. This is good. How does it feel to be young and married and working with your center? Do you ever need space from each other? Okay so working with your husband or spouse in general is weird like I have to come here and say it's weird I love it it's the greatest blessing we can have spending so much time together we always talk about whether one of us or We both work nine to five, we literally like that most people don't see each other all day, maybe we see each other a little bit in the morning, but anyway you're half asleep and then you come home and you're exhausted from your day. and then you have those few hours before you go to bed, so I know when I'm a little old lady I'll be so grateful to have all these hours with the developer all day long like it's a huge blessing, but it definitely is.

If we have any problems it's in that area, our relationship is incredible and don't get me wrong, our working relationship is too, but if we have any kind of problem, it somehow has to do with work and we like working together, whether it's that you know one. Neither of us feels like we're doing more than the other person or, who knows, that there are a lot of similar issues that Deb and I can have sometimes, so I love it and we both love it, but there have definitely been days where that everything is fine. We have to go have our own time, as I call it girls night, which is kind of funny because I'm alone with no other girls and I'll be like dev.

I need a girls' night out and I never mean it. in a rude way and he never means it in a weird way when he says it, but sometimes we just need space from each other, like every relationship needs space, like it's healthy to do your own thing and that's one thing with being married young or married at any age, but like before we got married, like I'm still on my youtube, like I want to sit in bed and watch youtube before I go to bed and watch Netflix, watch Gilmore Girls and I still need those moments, like I still I need those like that space sometimes.

So we definitely have our own space a lot of times at night he'll go do his own thing and I'll like to relax here and do my own thing but working together is awesome but we definitely need to have some kind of division for sure everyone you guys are the time to have a baby in a long time guys some people might want us to have a baby and don't get me wrong we both love babies and I wouldn't be mad if we had a baby but we are definitely not like trying to have a baby anytime soon because we are so young, there are so many things we both want to do together before we go down that path because I feel like once you have a baby it's like a baby.

The world and everything is just baby, baby, baby, which is great and it should be, but I don't know if we're ready for that stage of life yet, I still want to grow as much in the business and as I have. I have a lot of goals for business and then honestly, I have a lot of goals for myself, like I need to manage my stress and enjoy different things on my own before having a baby so I can be like the best mom I have. It can be so strange to say that one day I'm going to have a baby.

I'm surprised, but yeah, we're definitely not in the baby world, but probably in a few years, real quick, I'll pause the video to talk about today's sponsor. what is Skillshare The love for Skillshare runs deep and you know it if you watch my videos, but if you are new here and haven't heard of Skillshare, let me tell you about them for a second, so basically Skillshare is a learning community on online that has thousands and I mean thousands of classes to choose from, maybe you want to learn a new hobby for 2022, so they have classes on sewing, drawing, cooking, productivity, how to start a marketing business, like seriously, any Whatever you can think of sharing skills, I've taken it. a lot of classes from them, but one that I've been taking right now that I wanted to share with you is let me open my laptop, it's called find your style, five exercises to unlock your creative identity and it was made by andy j pizza, he's the teacher, he's a designer illustrator and podcast host so I don't know, it's really cool to hear him talk about the ways that he likes to find his style, like I know.

I was feeling a little burned out on some of my lyrics, so I just wanted to take a little course to help me re-inspired. What I love about Skillshare is that it's actually ad-free, so you don't have to worry about an ad popping up right when you're like in the middle of creative thinking, you're always launching new classes, you don't have to worry about getting to the point where you've literally taken every class, so if you want to learn like it's a new hobby or just find a new business in 2022. I'm telling you, you're going to love Skillshare and I'm so excited because actually the first 1000 of my subscribers who click the link in the description will get a one-month free trial of Skillshare.

This is the perfect opportunity to try it and try it out and I promise you will love it. Let me know what classes you take, so I'm really curious. I'm always looking to add something to my list, but anyway. Back to the video, this is one I want to address because I can't literally ask it every time I go live or every time I feel like you guys ask me this, so what happened to call me an honest podcast? I miss him, sad face, honestly. I missed it too, it was really fun having to film on two people's schedules, I think it got a little difficult, I don't know, there was nothing crazy about it, Haley and we're still really good friends, there wasn't any drama. or fight, I wanted to go ahead and address that because there was nothing super crazy, but I didn't want to say I'm sorry because I don't like the way it necessarily ended on our end.

We didn't really talk about it, yeah, I wanted to say that, but I love Haley, nothing happened between us, it's like a drama or tea, like there's nothing there, it's just that we were both busy and yeah, but it's definitely something I would do in the future. like starting my own podcast or again like I said I would love to talk to you guys more here because I don't know I feel like I need a platform to talk to you guys more and just share things that I'm learning and just life because I don't know I enjoy talking yeah You can't say I'm a great conversationalist.

Do you think you'll ever have a team more than just you and dev? I honestly hope so, but who knows if I can. I can't predict the future, but ideally yes, I would love to have my go-to person to help me. Let's do everything because I need help. I need help with an organization that is huge. I need someone to tell me what to do. I know it's funny because I guess I'm like the owner since I started this, but I want someone to tell me what to do with my time, help me with the tick tock trends.

I'm not as good at ticking as I would be. I would love someone to help me with that. I would love someone to help me come up with things for product creation. Or you know, if there's a product that I want to create, they can search for the best crewneck that I should wear and I like the perfect color. help me find quotes I should do for products or just anything I want a person for so I hope one day I'll be really curious to have someone help us whether it's full time or part time but definitely in the future.

Five years from now I would love to have multiple people working with us helping us ship in our warehouse and just helping us do all the creative stuff, like I never want a crazy big team, but I would love a small group of people who are really organized. and super creative and positive. I would love to have a team like that for Deb and I to work with, so hopefully one day we'll see what you were doing before you met your husband. How did you know he was the one? So if you're new around here, Deb and I literally met when I was 15 years old.

So what I was doing before was I was in high school like I wasn't doing anything crazy, um, yeah, I was just going to high school, okay? like something on Twitter a long time ago called honest DMs and you like to favorite a tweet for an honest DM and that person tells you what they think of you so Devin favorited mine so I had to send him a honest direct message and That's basically how we started talking and then we hung out andThen we got married, so yeah, we met when I was 15. Did you know he was the one?

No, not at first because he was very young, but I think I quickly realized it. Okay, this guy is either going to break my heart or become my husband, like he knew I loved him very much and I think he obviously felt the same way, but we were pretty inseparable, like anyone in our family or anyone who knew us. High school would say we were inseparable like we were best friends. He loved him so much that he really didn't know that he could feel like that in high school or ever, and just knowing that we are like I don't know.

We did it like he was 15 and I was like she really wasn't, I guess not, I can't say I liked him, I had a moment where I thought he was the one, but I liked the way he cared about me and I don't think I ever knew I had the ability to be myself with someone else and he's home like he's gone, that's how we work together, but he's getting a haircut and gone for an hour when he gets back. I'm really really excited to see him and we're together all day anyway, like you think we'd want more space and I just think that feeling that way about a person is so special, so I didn't have a moment where I knew it, but yeah , in my heart I thought he was definitely the one, so that's like my little Devon mushy talk, I love him so much.

Do you find it difficult to make friends? Form quality friendships at this age. Oh my god, we have to talk about this. So I'm 22 years old. If you didn't know, I will be turning 23 on March 1st soon and it is very difficult. You meet people when you don't go to school and you don't have a normal job, like I don't go to school where I can meet other people my age and I don't go to a job where I can meet other people my age. meeting other people is very difficult, I think the only thing I have is social media, that's how I met all my friends now through social media and obviously we moved here and then we met some of our friends, Now we all have I make friends, but I don't have a fancy way to meet people other than social media.

One thing I'm trying to do is reach more people on Instagram, so if I'm watching from Austin, I'm like, Hey, right? I want to have coffee or like people from home, maybe I'm like new to high school or whatever, I'm trying to reach more people, if you have advice let me know because it's very difficult and if I live in Austin, you should message me because I just want more girls to like drinking coffee and be positive and creative and all that, but yeah, I don't really have any big tricks with that because I struggle myself, okay, I love this question.

This is a really good one, how to stop focusing on Instagram followers. I feel like it's very difficult to have fun here nowadays. I agree 100, I'm with you. I'm having a really hard time with tick tock and Instagram right now. This is part. where last year, you know, I said my mental health was kind of bad, and a lot of that was related to social media because, first of all, I was on Instagram years and years and years ago, where I was literally posting my art every day and I liked to dance on Instagram stories and I didn't care at all what people thought of me.

I mean, that's a lie. I cared a little, but I just did my thing. There was no secret to growing up. There was no need to do it. publish 85,000 reels and oh now you have to publish on a new platform called tick tock, oh yeah, and then you have to pin all your wallpapers and you have to pin pictures of your crewnecks and oh you have to do this and give me like. I feel like nowadays there are so many things we have to do to get our content seen and it's so annoying because the business owner no one sees my content anymore and this isn't me trying to complain like the real guys if you want. to see my stuff like and like to comment or something because I feel like a lot of you are going to message me and say I haven't seen your post in my feed in weeks.

I'm wondering what the hell because I'm Posting like I'm posting but no one sees it. It's so annoying. I haven't really grown up on Instagram and then I start looking at myself and thinking, was that me? Don't people like me anymore? Am I not cool anymore? I've definitely struggled with all of these things, but basically I'm just trying to realize that growth doesn't matter. I could literally stay where I am now and think life would be good. I want to focus more on connecting with the people I have, so you guys are now looking at everyone who watches my Instagram stories every day instead of looking for more people to watch my stuff.

It's like they don't really communicate and foster the community that they have right now if the people they do see. I like your stuff and interacting with you, that's the most important thing and I think it's very toxic right now because when I'm on tic tac everyone is trying to grow on Instagram and be an influencer and I think that's totally fine if you want. to pursue that, I'm not the one to badmouth that so please don't misinterpret my words, but I think everything is so focused on growing as you move and it's like you need to do this to grow right now and oh Oh my gosh, I just grew my Instagram 5000 in a month and that's how you can and it's like I don't know, I just don't like how there's a set recipe that people are doing to grow and I'm wondering why we can't. just connect with people and if you grow you grow I think it's more authentic that way anyway I just think we all need to slow down and take care of the community of people we have you don't need to feel pressure to post 80,000 pieces of content a day, the people who are supposed to find you will find you and I'm just reminding myself because I felt overwhelmed last year because I'm not young and fun, I feel like that.

I'm really boring, I enjoy my nights at home and creating art, how I like to do my own things and I don't know, I feel like I'm not cool anymore, that's why I felt really sad on Instagram and tick tock last year. I'm not going to lie so I felt like I couldn't keep up with the trends and also for my mental health being on my phone is the worst thing I can do for myself I have to be like a lily like my eyes and My head will start to feel something I can't even describe and that's when I know I need to leave this like I'm done with my phone, so play sudoku, read a book or just get up. and tidy up the house like I know that doesn't sound like fun but for some reason it's very therapeutic for me or maybe plan my day or watch youtube like I know it's still technology but like I have to get off social media and not always It's healthy For me, I just realized that I had done this TV as if I hadn't had anything to drink, so it's okay, but anyway I feel like I should end there because I've talked for so long that I'll probably have to cut a lot. of this and again I know I think I like the word vomit, a lot of it probably didn't make any sense, but I felt it was appropriate that my first video was just a sit-down because I don't even know if I've always really been myself here, like I have been, but I haven't been and I just want to talk to you more about the things that happen and be honest, so I thank all of you for watching, it blows my mind. that anyone cares about what I'm doing or the art that I create imposter syndrome about it like I know I don't deserve it, but I'm so grateful that you guys are here and that you care and please know that like you do.

Kids are literally the nicest people ever. I feel very lucky that I don't get hate comments and all this like this community is so positive and I just want to hug everyone. Sending you lots of love, just thank you and Please know that this year I'm really going to try to be more open here. I would like to publish more. You can be with me. You can message me on Instagram. I give them my full like. and say like hey lily, where's your vlog? or hello lily, where is the video? or hey lily, we haven't talked to you in a while, like you could be with me because I feel like I need you to get to this point, thank you so much.

You are so amazing, comment below one of your goals for this year because I am very curious what you are working on. I feel like I talked about things like mine and in a roundabout way, be sure to follow me on Instagram. You can do it. follow me on tick tock if you want to buy any of my happy gifts and support my business you can link my store below and thank you so much again Skillshare for sponsoring this video you guys are amazing thanks for watching everyone. and I will talk to you very soon in my next video bye