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URGENT??SHADOW WORK!

URGENT??SHADOW WORK!
hi besties welcome or welcome back to my channel i hope you all are having a wonderful morning evening or night whenever you are seeing this that is a little hint that this is a timeless tarot for you guys today i am talking a little bit quieter because my fiance and i are now in like a shared

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space situation and i'm just a little bit more cognizant of my audio levels so if i'm talking a bit quieter why am i talking british if i'm talking a bit quieter that is why um so before we even get into this video i gotta tell you guys you guys might already know from the title of this video that this is a video about

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i specifically am channeling the energy of like oops sorry

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s you may need to face or

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s that are wanting to arise so that we can heal and i literally was putting this video off so much because i didn't feel like i was good enough or well knowledged enough to even address this topic and then boom chica bow it hit me that's one of my

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s um so we are going through we are going for it all right with that being said i my knowledge of

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is pretty limited to myself and to those around me i've only been practicing

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for about uh six months six months now and those around me have just recently started as well so i do know a bit about my own personal experience but always you know do your research look up things and all that good jobs before embarking on

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don't just take my word for it i am...
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not an expert in teaching you guys about this and i just i know

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can be hard sometimes things can arise and i thankfully have my

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coach my

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coach my spirit coach to

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me through that but i just kind of wanted to say that before we even get started the second thing is that this idea this video idea was actually suggested by multiple of you guys on my instagram if you do not know i do have an instagram account called liveslight as well and i am trying to be more active on there i am incredibly active on my stories and i really like hearing what you guys have to say and i want to make sure that when i'm creating content that i enjoy oh my gosh well i keep bumping you i'm creating content that i enjoy but also content that intrigues you guys as well so i've been asking for you guys opinions and suggestions and so many of you guys asked me for this video so even though i am so insecure about it that is okay because that is me facing a

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and i want to give you guys at least what i can but again there are other people on youtube who have done

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videos as well one of them being queen chloe taylor she just posted one recently as well so if you are interested i will link hers in my description box if you want to check it out and get even more knowledge and all that good jazz and there are a couple people as well who have done these kind of videos but y'all were just like i'm not even joking i had so many because i do like the...
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question box on instagram i had so many suggestions about

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guidance everything like that that it was loud that the masses really needed to hear this so we're gonna do it so just be gentle with me be patient with me and always you know trust your intuition trust your intuition more than you ever trust anything i say your intuition is so powerful your intuition is your power i know it can be hard to trust that sometimes but your intuition is so freaking powerful so definitely trust that always right off the bat so let's go ahead and finally get into what we're doing today so as i already mentioned we are doing a

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video i am specifically channeling kind of i did it in three categories so category one in each file the first question is

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s that need to be addressed then i asked for

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guidance from our oracle cards and then i have a little surprise for you guys at the end that i'm nervous about but excited about so if you are new to tarot pick cards this is going did i already say this is a terrific card hello it is this is going to be a timeless tarot meaning whenever you are stumbling upon this whether it is the day i am posting it which is september 3rd i believe which is also my three year anniversary so three three it's a quite quite exciting time uh what was i saying why do i get so distracted as when i do these intros if you are new to this is going to be a timeless tarot whenever you are stumbling upon...
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this whether it is now or whether it is 20 29 and you're like boom what's that it is still meant for you i'm putting that intention into this video that this is meant for those who need to hear it whenever whenever you need to hear it also we have three piles for you here with tarot pick a card you're going to pick a pile you can either pick based off of the stones laid the top which i'm going to show you guys up close and personal you can pick based off of the numbers one two or three or you can drop down to my description box and see if your lucky number is there with a pile or your lucky emoji is there with the pile or you know what you can listen to the entire video and just take what res needs with you if you're called to more than one pile go for it if you're called to all three piles go for it if you're like i don't even know what piled the trust i'm just gonna listen to the whole thing and just pick a port and take what resonates for me push it together make one big thing go for it it is totally fine always always trust your intuition i talk about that so much on my channel because it is just seriously so important also i'm losing my voice but yeah so definitely just be gentle with yourself when you're picking the piles if you're struggling picking just listen to the whole thing if you want there's really no pressure there's no way of picking wrong if you are wanting to see the stones that are on top the...
first one is a gate botswana this is one of my absolute favorite at gate botswana's because it looks like the ocean to me it looks like this is water and sand and little gold flecks are inside of it and i am just utterly obsessed with this stone botswana is a very powerful stone i actually picked all three of these stones that i have laid upon you oh my gosh look at that are you kidding all three of the stones that i have laid out for you guys today are protective stones all of these are really good for protection and i feel like that was kind of appropriate for

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and then the second stone that okay the second stone i have for you guys is torment elated quartz this is an empath's best friend if you are an empath and you are drawn to the stone listen to it and maybe go get yourself some this is one of the most important stones for me in my life being an empath and an intuitive person and a very intuitive friend and also a highly sensitive person tormulated quartz has the power the prob the thing with the quartz and the torment is that it has the power to draw out negativity and kind of turn it into love and light and dispute like what is it called not dispute uh dispel that so it is incredibly powerful i'm wearing a tormented coarse bracelet as well this is something i almost always wear going to out into the world or into my day job because it's just so important you know and the last stone i have for you guys is another sardonyx i just used sardonyx...
in my last video but it is one of my all-time favorite stones as well this one's a little bit more muted a little bit more gray tones and it is just such a beautiful stone this is a great stone that i used to kind of sleep with under my pillow if i am feeling some kind of way if i'm feeling energy in my room that i'm just not personally wanting to welcome in there i will sleep with a sardonyx or black tourmaline under my pillow so those are your three piles i'm gonna give you guys some time with some music to vibe chill out just feel like whatever resonates with you and then i will see you guys for your pile pics all right pile number one you guys chose the beautiful a gate botswana stone i have always been so drawn to a gay botswana and i never really knew why but it is such a gorgeous stone i really hope you guys i don't know how close i'm holding this to the camera but i really hope you guys can see the gold flecks that are in there oh mylanta it is so so stunning i just i'm obsessed a gay botswana is one of my favorite stones a gay botswana is also an incredibly powerful protective and healing stone again botswana is specifically it has like a very interesting property to help overcome either smoking or a smoking habit or if you

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with fire a lot like if you

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as a firefighter or something like that it is incredibly powerful to help heal and recover any sort of smoke trauma i guess you could say so i think that that's a really...
interesting fact about a gay botswana so i pulled some tarot cards for you guys and also some oracle which we'll get into afterwards and then of course i told you guys i have a surprise for you and i do so that will come at the end of our video today so without further ado let's just jump on into it again we are channeling the energy of in this pile specifically

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s that need to be addressed so starting right off the bat you guys got five of wands nine of swords temperance balance bestie ace of pentacles the fool and death all right there's a lot happening here so starting right off the bat if you are not i feel like i say that a lot starting right off the bat i don't know why i say that so much starting yep i was about to say it again starting off we have quite a few majors here if you are not familiar with tarot there are two different i guess categories ontario we have the major arcana and then we have the minor arcana it basically is exactly like it sounds there are major arcana these three here which we'll get into which are kind of more kind of things that are more i guess you could say definitive in my personal opinion when i read i like to see majors as source has like a super heavy hand in this situation it's more of like a loose and bestie this is what's going on whereas the miners which we'll get into are more of like you know it's like things that can be easily altered by our mood the things that we say the things that we do...
just our kind of energy but again i do believe in the power of free will so take it however you will i just believe that majors in my opinion are like things that have heavy are heavy-handed by source and then we have three suits here today we have the suit of wands which represents the element of fire your creativity your passions we have the suit of swords represents the suit of air your thoughts and then we have the suit of pentacles represents the suit of earth finances money cars homes all that good jazz so starting right off the bat again we are we are addressing things like

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s that need to be kind of dealt with

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s that we are addressing again i said this in the intro i what i know from

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is my own personal experience and what i've helped those closest to me go through and so if you are not familiar with

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i've seen so many amazing videos here on youtube by awesome content creators who kind of go and do like a quick course on it i'm going to link all of that down below so you guys can just kind of if you want a quick refresher on

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if you're not familiar with it you guys can go check out some of their videos as well and always do your own research before trying something as well because

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can be hard

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addresses things in us that are really hard to deal with honestly and you always come out better you always come out on top but sometimes when you're in it you're like this is the worst...
right and so we are addressing in this energy of this reading you know what

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s are lying beneath the surface what

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s need to be addressed and you guys have a pretty strong energy here and it's funny that you guys got the balance be card because i'm a very big visual person i see a lot of symbolism when i see these cards and it's interesting because you got three cards that are pretty dark in color scheme and then you got three cards that are pretty bright and light and colorful in color scheme and i feel like the energy i'm getting just right off the bat is balanced and i just think that is so funny that you guys got temperance as well so right off the bat one of the energies i'm getting straight away from this from this reading is that maybe one of your

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s maybe one of the things that you might struggle with is the fear of change or resistance to change both the fool and the death card and really the ace of pentacles are all about change change is coming new things are happening and it's kind of like you know when you are very very comfortable in your current position even if it's not serving you i'm getting this energy that someone might just be afraid of shifting you might be afraid of changing you might be afraid of growing and there could be a lot that goes into that it could be a fear of growing because you understand that when you grow sometimes you have to let go of the things that are holding you down and that can be...
really emotional for some of us we don't always want to let go of what's holding us back we just want to grow without having to let go but that doesn't always

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that way which we're going to tap into but i just feel like right away the energy i'm getting is just kind of like this resistance to change but starting right off the bat with the five of wands here the five of wands wants are again about creativity and passions and things that drive you and i feel like one of your

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s is so it's really really interesting because this is an image of a bunch of kind of friends fighting and you having to stand your ground but a very specific message i am getting and when i say specific i've talked about this before in readings i am not saying that it is like only for one person but what i am saying is that i am specifically getting a message of one particular energy now that energy could be from multiple people but it's just the energy i am receiving and that these wands this conflict this needing to stand your ground is actually internal and i believe it could be external as well because it is like the need to kind of like fight and stand your ground but i'm just feeling you have like this infl internal battle within yourself this inner conflict that is just like i want to go i want to change i want to move and the other half of you is like no either you can't or you don't deserve to or you're stuck or what makes you think you...
could go beyond the other side what makes you think you could change because i'm getting the feeling that this is kind of the energy we've been in and this is the energy that half of you craves but that you're still stuck in this energy of either

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ing a job you're not satisfied in doing something you don't love to do in a relationship that doesn't serve you and you're just trying to like stand your ground even if it's with yourself and one of your

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s might be and again

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s are things like i i feel so i honestly i talked about this in the intro i feel so anxious talking about this topic because i feel like i don't know enough to educate and i'm not trying to educate i'm just trying to give guidance and i hope you guys receive that um but

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s are things that are kind and my and my personal knowing obviously if you guys want to kindly educate me i'm never upset about that you guys can gently tell me in the comments i love to learn as well but to me what i've learned from

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is that

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s are things that are so hidden in our subconscious that we don't even always realize that they're that they're there and they just kind of affect our day-to-day life they are kind of things that are you know affecting the way we talk to people affecting the way we talk to ourselves affecting the way we

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affecting where we

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affecting the way we go about our day-to-day life but we don't even...
really see them because they're the parts of ourselves that are so hidden that we don't even acknowledge them within ourselves much less to anybody else and so when we do

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brings out these

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brings out these

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s these things these burdens these baggages these things that we've been holding on to for years that have been forming different aspects of who we are and then we see them we address them we face them and then we move on and let them kind of go we face them and we tell them they don't have any power here and then we gain strength from that and one of the energies i'm getting whether this is external whether this is internal is that you just kind of feel the need to constantly defend yourself but my question to you is where does that come from why do you feel the need to constantly defend yourself why do you feel like you're always having to fight off everybody why do you feel like you have to you know i have to stay in my position like if someone says something to you why do you feel like you immediately have to go there why do you feel like you immediately have to say i no no it's fine i am like you know those people and this is not a bad thing at all but the people whenever you talk to them it's just like they need to constantly defend themselves and every time i meet people like that i just hurt and my heart hurts for them because i wonder who made them feel like what...
they were saying was not enough before they had to defend their position and that breaks me and i really really feel that and if that is something that you are dealing with a

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i'm getting is just asking yourself why do i feel that way why do i feel like i have to defend myself constantly even if no one is saying anything against me even if i'm just talking to my best friend or my lover or my parents or my dog or whatever i don't know but no matter who i'm talking to why do i feel this need to constantly be on the defensive and you know sometimes we go through cycles of that i personally personally like for the longest time until i started doing

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was like that and i didn't even realize that in my opinion everyone else was just rude all the time but to be honest what it was is that i was constantly having to defend my position someone would say something to me like um oh are you oh my gosh i can't even think of any example oh you're gonna put your pumpkin there and like maybe what they meant was oh you're gonna put your pumpkin there i love it it's so cute but i would interrupt them before they even got to say something and i'd be like yeah do you have a problem with that like i love my pumpkins and i would just have to like not immediately go into my defensive position that was the worst example i could have probably ever given but i hope that you guys get what i'm trying to say and i'm going to ask you questions...
during this and you don't obviously don't have to answer them to me you don't even have to answer them to yourself but the reason i'm doing that is because that is what i'm called to do to kind of make you think about what your

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s are because i cannot address your

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s for you that is something that is so personal so raw and so real to yourself that really only you can do that what i hope to do though is ask you questions that make you think i ask you questions that make you think to yourself oh shoot okay yeah i didn't even realize i was doing that why am i doing that and one of those being why do i feel the need to be on the defensive just ask yourself that ask yourself internally or don't but if you're called to ask yourself internally why do i feel the need to defend myself and you will be surprised it might stem from someone in a childhood always discrediting you maybe it was a parent maybe it was a sibling maybe it was a friend maybe it was a teacher constantly trying to remind you that you're not worth it and that

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brings these up and it's like oh my god i did not even realize that i've been dragging that trauma from childhood or adulthood into my life and it has been affecting the way i

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the way i live my relationships etc and so if that is a

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i'm immediately feeling like you might want to just think about and look into and again don't be alarmed this pile right this right now is simply...
just talking about

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s to be addressed i pulled a bunch of guidance and loving affirmations afterwards that reason i am just took talking about this right now is because i asked i specifically asked what

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s need to be brought up and need to be addressed and then we got the nine of swords energy and the nine of swords to me is super interesting this is the card of anxiety and worries and fears and doubts the message i am getting again tara to me i believe is beautiful because you can interpret it the way you like and the way i am interpreting this card right now the message i am specifically getting is that this is the card of just feeling like why do i keep bumping you i feel like i just need to hug you or something because i'm just like constantly bumping what was that that was me trying to air hug you i love how i ask myself a question and then answer it myself like olivia bestie what are you doing the nine of swords energy to me it's just this energy of like overthinking and worrying and anxiety and i'm not saying that that's not real because besties of all people to tell you how real anxiety is couldn't relate more okay i could not relate more but the message i am getting here is just again having that moment with yourself oh my gosh and thinking to yourself all right where are these thoughts coming from where can i address them because oftentimes we don't these thoughts might not even be your own these thoughts might be coming from...
something so far down and the message i'm getting is that this might be something that's causing you a lot of stress this whatever is going on in your life maybe it's the constantly needing to defend yourself or maybe you just are anxious maybe you have a lot of anxiety and i'm not saying that

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will heal your anxiety i am not saying that i still have anxiety and i've done

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but what i am trying to get across is that maybe this is something that you can look into and address because the nine of swords is the card of just like my god like give me a break like i am so tired my brain is tired like give me a moment give me a beat give me a nap because i'm done so and i feel like this is a time to another additional message i'm getting is that if you've just been going through it also allowing yourself to take a rest allowing yourself to take a time to take a beat take a moment again finding that balance because we need to rest when doing something as intense as

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if you have already started it remind yourself to rest nine of swords is just the card of anxiety so again we were channeling the energy of what

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s may be brought up right now kind of wondering and thinking and seeing again maybe not anxiety because that is a medical diagnosis but if like you overthink a lot or if you kind of always think to the worst or if maybe you're someone who thinks glass half empty a lot of the times instead of glass half full...
seeing where that comes from where that stems from seeing in what aspect of your life that started and how you can kind of address the trigger face it head on and say you don't have any power here taking your personal power back into your own hands and releasing that so you can blossom because then you have the temperance and the temperance is really interesting because the temperance is the card of balance and i told you guys right off the get-go that balance is so loud here even because of the color schemes with the dark colors and then the bright colors there's just like a card of balance and i'm not necessarily getting that this is when you need to like this is a

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but maybe it's something just to implement into your life it's just finding the balance in your life finding the balance between

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and play finding the balance between having time with your significant others but also having time with yourself finding balance between all these things in your life so that you can go into an eb and a flow that way you don't get into that nine of swords energy if you are someone who over

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s himself or gives so much okay that's a loud message i'm getting if you are someone who just gives gives gifts gives gives emotionally mentally physically spiritually whatever and you get to the point of just burnout where you need to just like lay down take a minute take a beat and then you get to that point where you can't do anything finding that...
balance all right and also talking about a

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here seeing why you feel the need to constantly please everybody and again i'm getting such a it's an interesting energy and i feel like i'm feeling kindred to it because it's who i used to be and it's because i was constantly on the defensive but also needing to please everyone and it's like how you might be thinking how do those two things go together i'm assuming if you're listening to this pile you might already know how those two things go together because you can be someone who is constantly craving satisfaction from others and still think that when they are talking to you that they are still coming for you and that's the loud message i am getting here it's just you know finding that balance and making sure that you're not giving so much of your time you're worth your energy to other people that you get so burned out on yourself that you get to this point of just being like nobody talk to me for weeks like i'm effing done you know what i'm saying and then now we're gonna get into these other

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s that i'm feeling because listen the fool is a beautiful card asa pentacles is a beauty called and to me death is a beautiful card death to me represents that things have to be let go so that you can move on and again i talked about this in the beginning i feel a lot of fear from this group for the fear of moving on i feel a lot of fear of if i move on then what...
what am i without my past what am i without my trauma what am i without this job this job is what defines me do i love it no but it's who i am how do i find myself outside of this i'm just feeling a resistance to change like i feel like i can feel someone who's like ready to take that leap of faith like the fool and then i just feel like the shackle is binding you to this ground and it's not allowing you to take that step and this message i'm getting is just again easier said than done i'm not even pretending that anything i'm saying today is easy i know that none of this is like okay perfect i'm gonna go you know take that leap of faith thanks bestie you did it no okay this is a journey this is something you have to do for yourself whenever you are ready no one can push you pressure you or convince you to do your

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this is where that comes up organically and it happens when you are ready to face it but the message i am getting is just somebody is resistant to change and somebody is resistant to taking that leap of faith and they're holding on so tightly to what no longer serves them they're holding on so tightly to whatever is holding you back with the death and the death guy he rolls in and he's like listen i'm actually here to bring you peace i'm here to bring you harmony i'm here to bring you these beautiful things that are laying on the other side but in order for you to move on you have to let go of what...
is no longer serving you whatever it may look like for you and again easier said than done but i'm just getting this message that the what is on the other side is so beautiful financial success new opportunities blossoming after a hard time but it's just this resistance i am feeling and maybe ask yourself why am i so scared of change maybe you moved around a lot as a kid maybe you are constantly moving from school to school to school to school to school that you are craving stability okay that was me for a while i moved around so much for a little bit that all i craved was stability all i craved was a constant and that happens to us and that kind of affects us there are so many different aspects i'm not going to go into every scenario because there's millions of people on this earth but you guys know what i'm trying to get at hopefully i shouldn't assume but i i should say i hope you guys understand what i'm trying to get at here it's just this energy of needing to you know let go of what no longer serves us to move on i know it's scary i know it is so scary because you know the term the grass is not always greener on the other side that literally scars people wait no the grass is always greener is that what they say right okay so okay literally i'm just dealing with one of my

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s right now live with you guys because i was always told kind of like just from people i was around whether it's family or friends or whatever that hey...
you know i went this place and i'm going to tell you straight up the grass is not greener on the other side i wish i never left and that causes trauma and that causes this fear in me to never want to shift and grow because i've been told so much the grass is actually not greener so you might just want to stay and that can be hard if you are someone who has also been told that a lot in your life there is like that's a

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right like i'm literally coping right now and trying to see that that is and that's always affected me in my life again i told you this pile i feel very kin kindred kiss kindred spirit is that what it's called yes i feel really close to i feel really close and knit to you guys because i'm the exact same freaking way i literally resist change so much i dig my heels into the ground my freaking solar plexus chakra is so like it is so closed off because my personal power is also snuffed out and i literally like dig my heels in i like dig my heels in and i'm like no no no no no i don't want to go i don't want to go i'm like the woman in this business reading like please pleading with the death card like okay but what if i x y and z then do we have to let go and the death card is like you don't understand how much beauty is on the other side of letting go of this of letting go of the

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and then another message i'm getting now i'm going to put a trigger warning here because i don't want to upset...
anybody but i am going to talk about actual death real quick this might be another

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i never ever like to read the death card in tarot like it's actual death because full disclosure it is not about death if you get this in a reading and you're scared no one is dying it's nothing like that however something i am getting personally a personal message i am getting is that sometimes as humans we can have a fear of death maybe it's a fear of dying personally maybe it's a fear of other people in your life dying i am a helicopter daughter i like to call myself because i have such a fear of other people dying in my life that i've kept my circle super super small because i always thought and again the reason i'm pulling like so much my own experience into this is because that's what i know so that's what i'm trying to show you guys um but i've always kept my circle incredibly small and i always thought to myself oh it's because i'm just picking out the best quality of friends and it wasn't until i started doing

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and i actually realized that the only reason i keep my circles so small is because i've always had this fear that the more people i add into it the greater chance i have of losing like i'm literally about to cry right now thinking about it because it's still a

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like i'm still

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ing through it but the more people i bring into my circle that means there's more i can lose right and...
that's how i always thought about things so i was like no it's my mom and me and that's it and then my fiance and i was pissed because that was another person i now care about and i'm so scared of losing and i realized how much that is limiting me in my life how much that is holding me back from creating true connections because i'm so scared and terrified of the idea of death and i had to do some

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for myself personally everyone has their own you know past and trauma and mine had to do with someone dying with someone in my family when i was you know it's not it's personal information obviously but that literally imprinted me and scarred me so much that i just had this fear of death i guess forever and now it's to the point where i'm like trying to address that and again i practice spirituality in a specific way so i now why am i keep bumping you i guess i i literally keep holding my hands like i'm going to hug you so if you need a hug just know that i am energetically giving you an internet hug um and this message i'm getting is just i keep getting distracted is that you know i like i said i practice spirituality specifically so i am now the way i'm coping is understanding that i personally personal believe that you know when people die i hopefully will get to see them again if it's not in this life it'll be in the next one because i know the people i have in my life right now i've already had past lives...
with and so it's like it's no more of a fear but more of like a okay and it's a process like it is still so hard for me to cope with that but that's just an additional message i was getting and i just want to give the trigger warning because i don't like to ever use the actual like i don't like to actually talk about that because i don't believe that's what it's about just the message i was getting was just that fear around it and that is incredibly normal but duality is something that exists in this world and it's something we have to learn is it easy no do i have it mastered no i am literally still so scared of death besties and i'm

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ing on it every single day but it is a journey it is a process so be gentle on yourselves and then the full card paired with that it's just like i'm not touching too much on the floor because like i said it's just the same energy of just fear of change the fool is the card that's like let's freaking go you got it upright they are trying to tell you there are so many cool opportunities and all you have to do is take that leap of faith but i'm just getting that resistance there so definitely look inward and see where that

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lies and again with that ace of pentacles i'm really feeling a black money mindset here because the ace of pentacles to me excuse me it's a card of such a beauty and a card saying there are so many new opportunities right around the bend for...
you there are so many new opportunities just literally right around the corner but the energy i am getting when i read this when i see this is that someone could have this offer directly to them someone could be like let me offer you an amazing experience for all of this money and then i just get this energy of someone in this reading who's just like no i don't trust that why would you offer me that what makes you think i deserve that kind of money i'm not worth that i'm not good enough for that and so again looking inward and seeing where does this idea around your worth and money come from and where does it stem from and then typically for me what i do personal personal personal thing that i do i'm not saying to do this i'm not saying you have to do this this is what i've learned and what

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s for me only always ever do what

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s for you but what i have learned is like when these

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over eye

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arises differently for everyone for me it shows up in my thoughts and my emotions from my fiance it's in her dreams and for my other family members it's in meditation like it's so weird or experiences like something will actually happen mine is experiences and thoughts feelings and all that good jazz as well but you know everyone's everyone's

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is going to come up differently so when i see a

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i literally envision like a blob monster like the one from seoul if you guys have...
seen that like the lost soul blob monster and then i just stare at it and this is what i've learned again take whatever resonates with you but i stare at it and i say you have no power here and it doesn't go away instantly freak no this is this is a freaking

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that's been building for 23 years in my life okay it's like i am not leaving i am stubborn however every time it comes up whether it's in an argument with my fiance or something that triggers me or anything like that i will look at the

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gets smaller and the monster gets smaller and smaller and so one day it's gone and so that's what i do personally and so that is another technique you can use if you would like to again i'm not teaching you i'm not even trying to teach you i'm just telling you what i've done and what

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s for me then i pulled some oracle cards these were more like guidance because i know that this could be kind of heavy addressing like

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s that we might need to face and so i was just asking our dragons and the mermaids just for some loving loving kind of like affirmations and guidance so oh my gosh right off the bat you guys got freaking initiation with queen alba no big deal and then you got silence and then for the mermaid cards you guys got alchemy and again i do have a surprise for you but that comes after these so freaking right off the bat you got...
initiation initiation is with queen alba the queen of all dragons okay first of all this card is incredibly powerful because it is the queen of dragons i want to read this card for you actually because now here's the thing this is the dragon wisdom oracle deck this is all going to be linked in my description box minus the mermaid tarot you guys know the drill if you are new here this is no longer being sold my mom literally found these from when i was a baby and um hodge podge them together i'm obsessed with them but these are going to be linked in the description below so that if you are really called to these meditations and these exercises you can buy the book or buy the deck and just trust that but this does go into like the initiation ritual which i'm not going to read because it's incredibly long and i don't want to tell you guys to do something unless you're feeling called to it so this says the queen of all dragons is white as freshly fallen snow her scales are set with thousands of diamonds as she sparkles and glitters in the sunlight with her long curvaceous neck golden eyes and delicate head she is a wonderful sight she wears the golden flower of life as a crown on her head and her own symbol on her breast what is she wearing oh yeah that's her symbol a heart within a heart why i could just kept reading olivia a heart within a heart with a six-pointed star in the center vibrating at a high frequency every creature that encounters the...
dragon queen alba feels a deep great love a love that we hear on earth we humans here on earth have forgotten and yet it has not been lost the dragons are bringing it back for us and then it goes into the initiation and for personal and copyright reasons i'm not going to read that but this is going to be linked in my description but holy cow queen alba first of all she is welcoming you if you have not yet found your dragon i have a um how to find your dragon video how to meet your dragon isn't that a movie how to train a dragon not a trainer um how to meet your dragon video i will link that as well in my description if you are interested but queen alba is reminding you of this frequency of love again this is i'm channeling here with these oracle cards guidance loving a hug okay because i know that those tarot could be heavy and queen album is just saying bestie i love you let me hug you let me remind you i don't know if the queen would say that but olivia's saying that but queen alva is saying i'm here to show you your power i'm here to show you the power that you hold i know it can be hard going through

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i know it can be hard but any guys let me tell you going through

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you come out so much different i literally am getting the visual i've been seeing butterflies a lot lately and so i feel the need to share this i'm getting the visual think of a caterpillar all right think of a caterpillar caterpillars are really...
freaking cool first of all they're also one of my favorite insect creatures but caterpillars are worm like bugs okay they're critters i guess if you will and they just kind of crawl around and they're kind of struggling i'm assuming it's way easier to fly than it is to crawl maybe that's a poor assumption but what i'm getting is you know you're kind of going through the

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moment you're kind of like having to crawl to move to

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to get to where you want to go and then

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is like going in the chrysalis is that the right word going in the cocoon and just kind of turning into goo and then you're going through the hard

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you're literally deconstructing all of this stuff you've already known you're letting go of what no longer serves you you're literally saying goodbye to what you used to be you're letting go of that you are saying okay that caterpillar lifestyle it served me for a season thank you for serving me when you did however i am ready to turn into goo and become my highest self become a higher vibration and what i'm getting with the initiation is that that is literally the card i'm getting where they're telling you it's time it's time to start that because think of

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as the goo stage where you're literally kind of going through the hard

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the weird

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the literally deconstructing what you once were to build the beautiful thing...
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you bloom and you turn into this amazing wonderful powerful different creature like a butterfly how even and i just feel like it's such a different creature it's a completely different it's a completely different animal and i think we just see butterflies going about our day to day and we kind of forget the cycle of life they go through and how insane it is that they deconstruct they literally lose their old body to turn into something different to turn into something more better not better that's rude to all caterpillars but just more powerful they have a different strength about them and i just find that so incredibly beautiful it's making me emotional and so if that resonated with you as poorly as i described it take that how you will i believe the reason you got the initiation card is because queen alba is saying you're ready i know it's scary i know it's hard i know it no one is saying

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is easy but queen alba is trying to tell you you're ready you've got this now is the time and then you got silence silence represents taking some time away whether it is from social media i feel like i've been pulling this card a lot lately and i kind of feel like they're trying to talk to me subconsciously because silence is about literally taking time away whether it's from social media whether it is from you know certain people that no longer serve us whatever it...
is whether it is from you know certain aspects of yourself just taking time away in silence to heal recover and recuperate because again

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can be hard we can get into that anxiety we can get into that overthinking we can get back into those aspects of ourself and the thing with

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is that it brings it up right so these are things that have been so shoved down in our subconscious and then now we're like pop here we are ha ha and it's like now we have to deal with them right and so allowing yourself to rest during that period one of my

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ethic or how they're living or what they look like maybe taking some time off of social media as well and seeing where does that stem from right like all of this stems from something all of these things all these triggers in our life they come from somewhere it's just about finding out where they come from facing that

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and telling it has no power here so just spending time alone going through this

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spending time alone spending time in quietness even if it's not alone even if you're like i don't want to be alone i want to be with people same bestie literally me i'm obsessed with at least one person in my life and i like being around...
people right like i like being around my fiance all the time i'm a needy needy thing and so i like being around them and that's totally fine but when you are around them allowing yourself to have that quiet time reading books you know taking a long bath going on walks doing things that serve you doing the things that bring you into alignment and giving yourself that time and that serenity away from the day-to-day life away from the stress that you may feel so that you can bloom again because like think of like the caterpillar and the chrysalis i think that's the wrong word think of the caterpillar in the cocoon they're not talking to anybody they are quiet they are silenced they are

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ing and they are growing and then boom out comes the butterfly the last card you guys got for here again i have a surprise don't leave yet is alchemy you have the minus touch right now and every project you begin turns begin it turns to gold i mean did you get a better confirmation that now is the time to start

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if you haven't yet bestie you got initiated oh no you got initiated by queen alba queen of was literally saying it's time let's go do it and then alchemy is telling you this project this goal this journey of

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it's it's it's going to be beneficial for you every project you touch turns to gold

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s like a project buster you okay like i'm just when you sing super honest with you so yes okay so now i have a...
little surprise for you so i actually picked oh my gosh could you see those the entire time oh no just a

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of them okay i picked some stuff for you guys so i got these a while ago probably like four or five months ago and i've just been really nervous to use them because i don't know a ton about them they didn't come with the guidebook so i'm just going off what i've learned and like looking it up on pinterest and all that good jazz or looking it up online but i thought what better time to showcase or debut one of my new divination tools and that would be runes i again now listen besties full disclosure i am not super familiar with runes i am learning to this day but i just thought it would be so cool to still use these with you guys as i am learning if any of you in the comments down below and are very well versed in runes educate me kindly besties i love to learn i love to grow i love to expand my brain i will never say no to one of you guys wanting to educate me it's just about doing it lovingly you know what i mean like no you guys don't gotta come for me but like if you say it lovingly and kindly you know i'm gonna freaking listen to that and so if one of you guys knows a lot about runes go ahead and educate me but i picked these two for you guys i'm not really sure how you're supposed to pick them so i just kind of put them and then mush my hand around and then pick the ones when my hand starts to tingle so you guys got these...
two i hope i'm holding them the correct way this is the first one that you got or maybe it's this and then you've got this one or maybe it's this so i'm going to look those up for you guys real quick and then i will be right back because i want to read you guys the full meaning and definition of them okay also i am literally pulling this straight from pinterest because uh my thing did not come with a guidebook if you get runes maybe try to find one with a guidebook i thought mine came with one but i was obsessed because these are rose quartz runes i'm just literally utterly obsessed with them so that's why i was like you know what it's okay i don't have a guidebook so this is the first one and this is d i believe again correct me if i'm wrong this is just something new i'm wanting to try with you guys for fun so please be kind please be gentle i just thought it would be really really cool and it's something i'm actually super called to i've really really been called to them i've just been nervous it's a

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of mine i have a lot of imposter syndrome i have a lot of things of feeling like i'm not good enough for stuff and so this is literally one of my

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wrong i'm sorry dagus d-a-g-a-z or da gauze day dawn breakthrough and awareness oh my gosh besties that is beautiful you're kidding me why is this making me emotional this represents breakthrough awareness a new dawn day like things are happening it's going to be beautiful come on now like i just see again the darkness coming into light with the breakthrough the breakthrough of understanding that you are worthy of this you are able you are capable of breaking out of the things that no longer serve you you are able and capable of identifying your

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s and saying you do not have any power here i have my power and i'm taking it back i don't need you to hold my power like i you have no power here and i just feel like with the day and the dawn and the full with the beautiful sun and the like literally the sun is in all three of these cards why is it making me emotional do you guys see that sun sun and sun none in the others and i just feel like this is so remin it's stoner reminiscence this is so beautiful because it literally talks about day and dawn and a breakthrough and i just feel like that is what you're just being so heavily divinely guided to go on this journey again whenever you feel called to you do not do something just because of a reading ever when you are called to when you feel like the time is right there your guides have your back it's going to be so beneficial for you and then the next one i picked for you i just want to make...
sure i'm holding this up correctly okay the next one i'm holding up for you ironically it looks like a z but it is actually a y this is e i h w a z this talks about stability strength reliability and enlightenment wow okay actually i'm doubting myself because there is two these look the same oh no they don't yeah okay that's the right one i'm sorry besties like i said we are learning i'm not coming on here pretending to be an expert you all know how i roll you tree stability strength rehab re liability and enlightenment all right besties let's embrace that energy let's embrace the energy of enlightenment let's embrace the energy of growth of stability of strength of enlightenment let's awaken that aspect of our self and welcome in the new welcome in the growth welcome in all of these beautiful things that are going to come from going through our

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besties you guys have got this i'm again thank you thank you thank you for letting me experience this with you guys this was honestly really hard for me because of my

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s but i i knew this was something i still needed to do i really hope this resonated i hope this made you think a little bit and if you are called to

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definitely experience it definitely dive into it when you are ready and doing so in a way where you feel like you are comfortable doing so and again just thinking if you when you feel ready come back to this video and listen to the things that i...
kind of maybe triggered or talked upon to see if those are things that you are ready to dive into and then these are just guidance the runes the cards and the oracle cards those are just meant to be loving affirmations and guidance to kind of give you some encouragement to go through this and kind of encouragement of what's to come on the other side you guys are so amazing i love you so much i hope you have a beautiful morning evening night whenever you are seeing this and i hope this provided you some kind of comfort i love you guys so much thank you again for all of your support on my channel i really feel it i know sometimes it can be like you're talking to something in a box on the screen but it is a person here and i do feel all of the love and support that you guys have been giving me i adore you as a reminder i am accepting private readings at www.marinastaro.com if you want to book there my availability has officially changed quite a bit as tomorrow actually when i'm filming this to the uh september 2nd is my last day at my day job so hooray hooray i'm pursuing this full time and i am chasing i'm tackling that

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and i'm really taking my dreams and my goals and my life seriously and living it the way i want so september is going to be a big month there are a ton of changes coming not necessarily to this channel but just like with me in general like i want to do like more live streams with you guys and just find ways to interact with you um...
but if you are wanting to book a private reading that is a great place to do so i think that's all of my updates all of my links will be down below my venmo if you're feeling generous in one attempt or my emma's tip or my amazon wishlist if you're wanting to do anything like that as well and also all of my socials like my instagram all that good jazz and i just appreciate you i hope you guys know how supported you are i hope you guys know how loved you are and how amazing you are i hope you have a wonderful evening morning day whenever you are watching this always remember to show others love show your light and shine so bright i adore you have a beautiful beautiful beautiful time pile number one bye besties all right pile number two you guys chose the torment elated tormented okay i don't know oh my gosh i'm really losing my voice now i don't know if it's tormentalated or tormented so it's tourmaline in quartz so i feel like really however you want to say it i say torment elated but maybe that's super goofy but you guys chose this stone tormented quartz is so beautiful and such a powerful healer stone because it actually has the ability to remove negative energy from you your energy or your like inner circle or the people you come in contact with and then turn it into quartz which is like this clear powerful beautiful energy it's like a dispelling stone but also the ability to see the negativity turn it into love and light and then...
put that back out into the universe so if you are an empath a highly sensitive person or just someone that really is like intuitive and takes on a lot of people's emotions tormentilated or tormented quartz is an og for sure i have it in bracelet format as well because i simply need it um so i picked some tarot cards for you guys today and then we have some oracle cards so just so you guys know the way i'm doing this the tarot cards have the energy of

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s that we might need to address or

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s that may have gone unseen and then the oracle cards i was just feeling like you know sometimes talking about

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s can be really heavy it can weigh heavily on our hearts so then with the oracles i actually set the intention that i'm asking for loving guidance and support from our dragon friends and our mermaid friends just to get some loving affirmations after and then i have a surprise for you guys if you already watched pile one then you know what the surprise is but i'm not spoiling it okay so don't smile for you guys too um but if you already have seen it no worries but i do have a little fun surprise for you guys at the end so definitely stay tuned if you are interested i feel like i'm over hyping it but that's okay starting right off the bat we are starting with the tarot and remember i am just telling the energy of

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s that need to be addressed or you know what

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we have the three of pentacles reversed sorry five of swords six of swords reversed eight of wands ooh i love that card the world reversed two of wands and ten of ones so starting right off the bat you guys got okay wait i forgot to say if you are not familiar with tarot we have there are two different kinds of categories i guess you could say in the tarot cards we have a major arcana and then we have minor arcana they sound very much like i mean they are very much like what they sound like major which you only have one here being the world major is kind of things that are more heavy-handed by source things that are more like definitive i guess you can say and minors are more of the day-to-day things in our life and then you have a couple of suits we have the suit of wands here which represents fire passions or passions creativity and then we have pentacles represents earth which is um you know finances jobs careers that kind of path and then we have swords which represent the suit of thoughts which is just like i mean the suit of air it's like our thoughts and our intellect you do not have any cups actually i don't think i've seen any cups so far in two days and any of today's readings we'll see for pile three but not yet i don't think i've seen any so starting right off the bat before i even jump into it the overall general message i'm getting right now is kind of the fear of commitment we're going to talk about this more but that is just...
like kind of the immediate vibe i'm getting from this this pile of cards in particular it's just like the fear of commitment i talked about this a lot in pile one and i okay as you guys know i don't feel super comfortable like i'm not here to educate you on

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i'm not here to try to convince you to do

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or anything like that again i keep bumping my chin on this i should move if you are called to this video i feel like you were called to it for a reason however and so if you are interested in

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definitely do your own research there are a bunch of other youtube channels on here in youtube videos that talk about the basics of

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like

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one on one which are all going to be linked in my description so that way if you want to watch that first and get a basis of what

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is and then come back and watch this totally fine totally cool because i do not want to miss educate you guys so i'm just going to be and i'm not trying to educate you guys i'm basically just trying to give you guys guidance and so that is what i'm going to be doing is giving you guys guidance so what i'm going to be doing as well is asking you questions to make you think asking you questions when i talk about certain things and obviously you do not have to answer with me and you honestly don't even have to answer them with yourself but it is an easy way to identify some

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kind of triggers you i'm going to ask questions like why where does that stem from where does that start and that is kind of an easy way to track down a

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because they run pretty far and they're very very sneaky and so it's a good way to kind of track down a

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look at it head on and then deal with it so starting right off the bat you got the three of pentacles reversed the three of pentacles reversed talks about the fear of commitment also guys i was already losing my voice for in the intro and now after doing already one reading my voice is like kind of in a weird uh i don't know a weird audio tone so bear with me if you're like why does she sound squeaky it's because i'm losing my voice um but the three of pentacles is such a beautiful card wait what am i talking about it is a beautiful card i'm not discrediting that but the three of pentacles reverse it talks about the fear of committing to something a fear of committing either to a project to yourself to someone else to an idea i feel like there's just something that is just stopping you from committing fully this also talks about this talks about kind of a lack of motivation almost or for example like things just not always going the way you want and maybe the lack of completion is kind of the energy i am getting as well and it's really interesting the way that this is depicted because here it is a nude woman i love this deck by the way this is a modern witch tarot and i...
love it because they use all kinds of different bodies and all different kinds of colors on this deck and in these cards and it is just so beautiful because there is so much inclusivity in them that it just makes my heart sing but this is a beautiful woman in the nude and is being painted by an artist and someone is like commissioning her for that

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she is modeling and she's getting paid to do so but when it is reversed i'm getting such a specific message here and if this is not resonate don't just take it and throw it away it's fine you don't have to take everything maybe not everything will resonate but that doesn't mean the rest of the reading will but the message i'm getting here is that specifically with this deck which is really interesting but i'm just getting this message in this reading right now that a

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that might be lying underneath is the feeling of not feeling like you're worth modeling for maybe the feeling like you're not worth your time being paid maybe feeling like you're not worth your

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your effort your talents what you have to offer to the world maybe you feel like you don't have anything to offer to the world maybe you feel like okay that sounds good and great but like i don't know how to do that i feel like there is just this energy where maybe maybe you just feel like you're not quite deserving of the success that comes with the three of pentacles...
and maybe the commitment is a commitment to yourself or a commitment to something and maybe that commitment issue lies in the fear of not being good enough maybe the commitment issue lies in the fear of feeling like you know if you try something maybe you'll fail and that is a big thing with commitment right like okay what if i commit to this and then i suck at it what was like what was worth that now people can oh did you hear that i'm getting this energy that someone just feels like they're not even deserving or worth the success and the abundance and the worthiness that you actually could have and i feel like again i told you guys i was gonna prompt y'all with some questions okay i feel like a question maybe to ask yourself a question to look inward and think to yourself is why do i feel like i don't deserve success why do i feel like i'm not the model of the ball what no why do i feel like i'm not the model of the pain what is it called a model yeah why do i feel like i'm not deserving to be a model why do i feel like i'm not deserving to be that center of attention and that's just like a very specific message i'm getting it's just something that maybe feels like they don't deserve to be the center of attention they don't deserve to have that energy they don't deserve to have their time and to be the person that is getting you know drawn i personally struggle with that if you have body issues as well where does...
that come from where does that stem from and asking yourself those things now i am going to tell you guys the way that i deal with my

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s personally but listen besties i am not here to educate you guys i'm not here to teach you guys because again i don't really feel like i'm qualified enough to do so however i have had my own personal experiences and experiences with my loved ones as well so i'm going to tell you guys what i have done for me but only ever do what resonates and what

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s for you if this does not resonate with you do not do it do not take it it is literally no big deal definitely do your own research and like i said i will leave all those videos that i could find down below ones that i feel like are credible in the description box down below so you can watch and learn as well but one of the ways that i deal with

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s is that so again as a reminder my gosh squirrel right as a reminder

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s come up differently for everybody for me personally

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s come up through experiences or knowings or just basically emotions and triggers like something will trigger me with somebody and then i realize oh f that's a

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sometimes like my fiance her her

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s come up in her dream state every single one of them that is when they are triggered and then i have other people in my life with their

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s come up during meditations and so if you feel like you're not seeing a

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must not be doing it right be gentle on yourself i did not even know my

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s are coming up and i was like no right like i was so pissed about it because i didn't want to i didn't really want to do the

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but i knew i needed to i did want to do it but it's like you know you want to do something but you don't like you know like we haven't

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out because you know it's good for you and you know you'll feel better afterwards but you don't because also it's like

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that's how i was feeling um so how i deal with my

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s kind of come up and they make they look like blob monsters i am a very visual person my imagination is very vivid and so i like to use visualization so i will see something that triggers me say my fiance and i are having a discussion and all of a sudden i'm triggered instead of just saying hey you're triggering me i need you to stop doing that i actually instead flip the script and i say hey i'm being triggered i need to go fix that because i under i identify now that if i am being triggered it's actually no fault of my fiance and it's actually something that's been or not just my fiance...
that's just an example i'm using like my mom my friends my co-

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ers my boss whoever myself i'm realizing that those triggers are things that are

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s that have yet to be dealt with and that is why they are still affecting me so i go and i take my time by myself it's not easy sometimes i still sit in my it's a trigger moment but oh no yawns i feel like they always come for pile too um actually i was probably yawning in pile one two but i like take some time to myself and then i sit there and i'm triggered by something let's say for me i have a lot of triggers with like my past and my ex or something and so i am triggered because i felt unsupported and maybe my fiance was being supported but i felt unsupported in a specific word or phrasing that they said and i have to go figure out why that bothered me so much so i go by myself and i go into the room and i literally sit there and visualize and i kind of think like where is this coming from i literally do soul searching and i'm like why does this piss me off so much and then i'll even be surprised because i'm like oh it's probably because my ex and then i dig deeper and i'm like well why did it bother me when he did that and then i dig deeper and it often stems from something from childhood or something from a long time ago for me personally that has yet to be dealt with that was what keeps showing up in relationships and gets worse you know what i mean and so then i envision...
a blob monster because again i'm a very visual person so you can envision whatever you want or you don't have to envision jack squat but i personally like to it kind of looks like the blob monster from seoul you guys have seen the movie soul the um lost soul that's kind of what i envision and then i just stare it down in my brain or in my head and i say aggressively you have no power here aggressive is the wrong word assertively i say you have no power here you have no power here does he go away immediately i don't know why i just identified him as a heat that's a

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bro not even joking does it go away immediately no does it become easier easier immediately no but over time even if it's the next day it comes up again and i say you have no power here i consistently tell every time the

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comes up every time this trooper comes up i look him in the face oh my gosh i keep calling him a he oh shoot i've got some

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to do guys okay i'm not even lying i look them in the face and i say you have no power here consistently and repetitively every time it comes up and then suddenly it becomes smaller and smaller and smaller and smaller and smaller and smaller and then the

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's gone and i realized that those things don't trigger me anymore and i realized that i can have conversations about things that i used to never be able to have conversations about because those triggers are gone now this does not happen over day over a day this...
does not happen overnight be gentle with yourself be easy with yourself but i just wanted to give you guys a way that i also deal with my

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s in case you were interested because i felt like i don't know i feel like i should tell you guys at least something um so then you got the five anyways yeah so the very pentagon's fear of commitment might be a

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looking inward and saying why why am i scared of committing why am i scared of committing to a project an idea a person whatever where does that fear lie where does that fear stem from and then you got to find again also with the feeling of worth and then you got the five of swords and the five of swords represents just like conflict and bitterness did i mess up my camera i'm bumping this so much today i am so so sorry thank you guys for being patient with me i'm just like bumping all over the place you guys got five of swords five of swords is really the card of just like conflict and kind of the feeling that there is no it's a lose-lose situation there's a better way to say it there is no winning here it's a lose-lose situation and the message i am just getting is that this can be kind of the energy you embody sometimes and definitely i was about to say call me out if i'm wrong but i guess you can still do that in the comments i tell people when i do private readings for them i'm like listen besties if this is not resonating with you call me out okay and also you don't have to...
call me out i guess but just take what resonates and leave what doesn't that's a better way of me saying that instead of inviting criticism but the five of wands i'm just getting this energy that like maybe this is how you feel sometimes like maybe you just feel like you know there is no it's a lose-lose situation like maybe you do try to talk about your triggers or you try to talk about the things that bother you and you feel like you're just in a dead end at a standstill you feel like there's not really anyone that's getting you or that's vibing with you or that's really understanding what you're trying to say maybe they are instead assuming what you are trying to say and you're just kind of like pissed off about it right this just resembles like relationship conflicts financial or not financial family conflicts and just things and

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and things just kind of being stressful because there's like it literally just it's just like a no-win situation and so it's really advisable right now to just kind of step back and the thing that i'm getting is that if you feel like you find yourself in this situation a lot where you're just like lose lose like you feel like no matter what you say you can't win if you feel like you're constantly in this situation see looking internal and seeing if this is really how it's happening like people are actually treating you this way or if it's more of like an inner...
thing where you're stemming from an additional message i'm getting right now is that this might highly represent some family

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s all right because this does represent like family distress family conflicts or relationship conflicts and just feeling like there's a no-win situation and if that triggers you and i'm saying that maybe looking inward and seeing why why does this trigger you and where does this stem from and then again facing that

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right because the five of swords like i'm just getting this energy that maybe when you were really little or maybe just growing up kind of your whole life it didn't matter what you'd say like maybe your mom was like don't talk and you'd be like okay and they'd be like why'd you do that and you answered and they're like i told you not to talk kind of thing it's like a lose-lose situation you can't win and i feel like if this was the energy you had a lot as a child that you were just constantly walking on eggshells trying to appease your parents or that you were constantly just trying to like shuffle a bunch of things to appease your parents or just to keep the peace in the family maybe you had a little bit of a harder childhood and maybe you felt like you were the peacemaker maybe you felt like you were the one that had to constantly make the peace had to constantly be the one who balanced things so instead of ever speaking up you just kept your mouth quiet because you felt...
like it was a no-win situation and then maybe you're finding yourself in that way in relationships now as an adult right maybe you find yourself in those same predicaments and i feel like again this is going inward and facing that

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and saying you have no power here i'm not you don't control me anymore i'm not that little boy girl they them anymore you do not control me i am my own and taking back that power for yourself and then you got the six of swords and the six of swords is really interesting because again i think i talked about in the beginning the fear of commitment and this is so interesting to me because the six of swords upright is actually a big commitment it's like you're making a move you're making a journey you can talk about immigration and having to move to a whole different place for better opportunities and a brighter future but when it is reversed it kind of represents the delayed aspect of that and the energy i'm specifically getting here is that there is just this fear around commitment in every way shape or form there is a fear around committing to a craft or a project or an idea if you are a creative person i feel like you are just in this situation where you don't really know what to commit to and i feel like your guides are just trying to show you that this might be a

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that is ready to be addressed because the six of swords when i see this card i think of it as like this is such a big commitment to like...
literally move across the pond if you will and this card but again across the pond i'm saying like to a different like not even like moving moving physically but like shifting growing changing pushing moving and i just feel this fear of commitment i feel like there's this energy that's just holding you back and i think it's really interesting because you got the eight of ones and the two of ones and i feel like these these are both cards of like get going like get going the eight of wands is an action card it is literally a ready set go kind of card and i think that that is so interesting that you got this paired and the energy i'm still getting even with the two of wands there because the two of wands is also a car that's just like get it go like new opportunities are thriving no opportunities are coming for you and the message i'm getting is that these things do show up for you you do have opportunities present themselves even if you don't see it you do have things arise you do have things kind of come to the surface and show themselves and bring themselves to light you have these opportunities at your fingertips even if you don't see them yet you have the whole world at your fingertips but there is just sorry there is just this fear of commitment there is this fear of going there is this fear of changing there is this fear of if i commit then what that it's just holding you back from this eight of wands it's holding you back from...
this ready set go it's holding you back from this two of wands that's like girl the girl boy they them you know what i'm saying guys we do not believe in binary here it's just i'm reading the energy of the cars which this one is feminine i talk about this in every video so if you're sick of hearing it bear with me because i don't want anyone who's never seen my video to stumble upon here and think i'm saying what i'm not i when i say she and i say he i am um channeling the energy of yin and the energy of yang feminine and masculine we all have it every single person on this planet has feminine and masculine energy and so it's just about that's the energy i am channeling here it's not about a gender but the energy i'm getting is that she's sitting here and she has the world at her fingertips this girl has the world right here all she has to do is click a button and new relationships could start new friendships could blossom new careers could flourish anything like that and the eight of wands is like yeah let's frickin go after i'm ready to move i'm ready to shift i'm ready to grow but i'm just feeling this conflict and conflict is a loud word with the five of swords too and maybe it's inner conflict as well of just feeling conflicted and feeling like i don't really want to fully commit to something maybe you're someone who likes to start projects but doesn't always finish them same...
bestie and that is because there's a fear of commitment because if you commit to something oftentimes you have to change you have to shift you have to grow and we don't like doing that right that means that their things are going to change things that are going to shift and that makes things a little bit more uncomfortable and so if you are relating to this your guides are just trying to ask you to look inward and say why am i so scared and maybe scared is the wrong word why is it so why is change so adversive to me why am i so adversive to change to shift to grow to commitment why am i scared of settling into a commitment right and i'm not again commitment can often be tied with relationships if that is something that resonates with you take that and take that that's totally fine but if it doesn't if you're like i don't even care about relationships i'm not even just talking about that but committing to yourself enough to focus on something fully and see it through committing on an idea enough to focus enough and see it through committing to yourself to put your worth into yourself to know your value to know your worth to know that you deserve only the greatest out there and committing to that committing to yourself committing to another person if that's what you ask for committing to a job committing to a career path committing to a friendship committing to a you know a path of any kind and now let me tell you commitment does not mean...
that you can't change you can commit to something for a year and then be like you know what it's no longer serving me so i'm going to change my commitment that is 100 okay and also incredibly normal so do not feel bad about that do not be like well if i commit to this okay that's a loud message i'm getting maybe you're someone who's like well i don't want to commit to something because if i commit to something then i'm stuck and i don't want to be stuck because what if i want to change my major okay tapping into college besties here if you're like i don't want to commit to this because what if i want to change my major in a year i'm sorry i'm playing with this that might be bothersome to some ways because i just picked it up but um if you're like i don't want to commit to this because if i want to change a major or my career or my job you can freaking change it is okay it is normal to change it is normal to change what you want we are not the same person as we were five years ago and thank god for that come on i think we all can agree thank goodness we are not where we were five years ago and if you are not related to if you're like girl i wish i was where i was five years ago you can get back that energy you're fine no worries manifest it back into your life but what i'm trying to get at is that you can commit to something and then change your mind a year later or six months later if that's not...
what serves you and then recommit to something else that is normal that is okay just be gentle on yourself be okay changing your commitment past be okay changing what it is you desire it's all right that still lies in the energy of commitment into learning to change and shift and grow and then you got the world but you got the world reversed the world in general is about reward and success but when we see a reverse it is really really interesting because i'm sorry because this talks about that your success is still coming your success is still inevitable because again the world is a freaking major so your success is still coming to you without a

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of a doubt you will be successful but this talks about delays delays in that coming and it does another message of the six of sword is a delayed travel and i think that this is so interesting because i want to say this with as much love and light possible i think one of the delays is choice the choice not to move grow shift change evolve commit and i feel like you guys are trying to show you that once we do commit to certain things and again i'm not telling you to go sorry my rings are like really bothering me i am not telling you to go and commit to something as soon as you are done listening to this reading whenever you feel ready you will know you all know when you are ready to commit to something does anybody else get super hot when they're doing tarot and then all of their jewelry just starts to hurt them...
oh my gosh sorry about that my fingers like we're literally swelling because i get so hot when i'm reading um like when you are ready to commit when you are ready to tackle the

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busty when you are ready to commit to something you will know you will know without a no pun intended

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of a doubt that that is what you are called to do you will be aware of that because it is intuitively it is divinely guided so don't push yourself to do something until you are ready to do it don't push yourself to go for something until you are ready to do it until you are ready to make that change that growth that move but when you are ready to do it trust yourself listen to your intuition and go for the dang thing because the success will be there the opportunities are there for you the things that you are desiring will come to you it's just the energy i'm getting here is just delay like a lag and i think and i'm saying this as so much love and light i think the lag is slightly by choice and i think it's a lag where we are just like kind of scared to go and so the lag is kind of coming from that energy and the world is saying you will be successful you will have everything you desire all of those gifts all of those amazing things that you want you can have them you can have anything you desire but we have to get out of our own way a little bit and be okay committing to something even if that commitment...
changes and then it's interesting because you got the two of wands which like i said is the card of like freaking opportunities at your doorstep and the way that this is written the way that this is portraying to me with the other cards that you got is so powerful because the two of wands if you can see the woman here she has a telephone in her hand that is supposed to represent the world because again this is the modern witch tarot that's what like normally in the tarot department like the world in their hand and what that represents is that you have the whole freaking world in your hand and you got the world so it doesn't get any louder than that besties like you have the world in your hand you have the world at your fingertips but that fear i am just feeling and fear it's like it is a fear but it's more of like stagnation like i'm feeling like stagnation and comfortability i'm feeling comfortability in what we've known our whole life even if it's not what we want to do even if we know we're called to change i'm feeling like there is a um a lag because it has been so comfortable because it has been we've always known comfort does not always mean it's good comfort we can be in toxic relationships right i'll speak from a personal experience that i'm not putting this on anybody i was in a toxic relationship that was so awful i'm not putting that on him or on me just in the relationship in general we were not good...
for each other in that time i mean we were we really pushed each other um but personally it was toxic for me i was in a toxic situation and i stayed way past its expiration date because it was something that i knew and to me that toxicity became comfortable because i knew what was gonna happen i knew what the where the abuse was gonna come from i knew every single day was gonna happen because it was familiar and that is not good comfort it's still comfort but it's not the good kind of comfort and so just really addressing that and making sure you're not staying somewhere just because it's comfortable and i'm going to pull even more on to that here because you got the 10 of wands reversed the 10 of wands reversed literally talks about taking on all of these burdens right like there is this woman and she's carrying all these ones she's carrying all these ones and she's like oh my god my back's hunched over i'm in all this pain i can't even freaking see when it is reversed it represents that you are taking on all of this extra

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all of these extra burdens maybe it's other people's emotions maybe it's other people's problems maybe it is other people's situations maybe it is just taking on too much

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at your actual job maybe it is not being able to say no to others oh my gosh i'm getting such a specific message besties if you are someone who has a hard time saying no if you identify as a people pleaser...
bestie oh my gosh listen i okay the ten of wands because my eyes are going crazy the 10 of wands talks about taking on so much because it's comfortable it's familiar if you are someone that has a hard time saying no looking inward on that

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and seeing why am i so afraid to say no where does that stem from did i get in trouble oh sorry was no not an option for me as a child as it's not for a lot of us if we want to do something and we say no no is not an option right even if you're overwhelmed over

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ed burnt out a lot of parents raise us in that way and i'm not coming here to crap on any parents if i have parents listening i know that you are doing your absolute best and i fully believe that a lot of times our parents are doing the absolute best that they can do in their time in their moment and they were raised by their parents but that doesn't mean that that trauma still doesn't lie this is not a blame-putting situation i'm not putting blame on anyone's parents family members or anything like that i'm not even putting blame on yourself it is simply about recognization recognizing where these recogni oh my door just open recognizing recognization recogni recognize oh my god what is this word recognization right oh my gosh you guys know what i'm trying to say recognizing where this stems from identifying it so that you can move on and heal is simply all i'm trying to get at here it has nothing to do with blame i do not...
plan i do not place the blame game there has been so many the instances in my life where i have been hurt and you will not catch me blaming anybody because to be honest we are all just souls doing our dang thing trying to figure out our life i don't place my own my ex my family anything like that because i know that they are just trying to survive and so and it doesn't help me to place blame you know what i mean but it does help me to identify acknowledge and move forward and so if you are someone that is a people pleaser looking inward and seeing why do you feel this need why do you feel this desire to constantly please to constantly satisfy wow my jewelry is i'm like breaking out spirits fiery right now i'm like breaking out all over my skin my my i really feel like a

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here might just be looking inward and thinking why am i constantly needing to do so freaking much why do i feel like what i'm doing is not enough why am i constantly i'm going to give so much to myself or my back hurts and again that's um a physical thing but i'm talking metaphorically like why am i giving so much of my energy time

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efforts whatever why am i cons constantly giving to the point of being burnt out why can't i just say no why is stopping me from saying no why do i have this fear around saying no and then addressing it and then i pulled some dragon cards for you guys and some mermaids so both the dragons and the mermaids i pulled for like not...
confirmation affirmations and loving encouragement because i know that talking about the stuff i talked about in this reading can be kind of heavy and so i really wanted to just pull some cards for loving encouragement and kindness and just positive affirmations and guidance as to you know kind of like reinforce going through all of this and so let's see what the dragons have to say first the first card that you guys got is wisdom one of my favorite cards i love the wisdom dragon i don't know where to put these the second card you guys got is scars i feel like we talked about a bunch of scars in this reading and then air chalice i kind of want to read wisdom for you guys i realize that i sometimes really like reading the book because i love interpreting the book all the time but with this deck specifically i feel like reading the book is just sometimes so freaking powerful all right oh i was going straight to scars that's so funny i wasn't even gonna read scars but i guess i will now my brain went there my my hands went there my brain didn't so i guess that needs to be heard the silver moon dragon brings you the energy of the moon the moon has always cast its spell over humans with its mystery and beauty at night the soft light of the moon caresses our skin imparting an irresistible sheen that's beautiful most of the great goddesses are directly linked with the energy of the moon and many represent wisdom the moon dragon represents the feminine aspect...
biting its time and trusting in divine guidance this beautiful dragon would like to teach you that wisdom and trust go hand in hand the silver moon dragon will teach you which will teach you respect for all existence it will remind you that nothing exists without the right to do so all understanding this means converting knowledge into wisdom each day some of our actions are based on particular knowledge we buy food for example because we know that we will be hungry at some point we pay our bills because we know that there will be an unpleasant consequence if we do not however sometimes we act also in wisdom without knowing what we have to do doing so because we trust implicitly that it is the right thing the time has come for you to open up to your wisdom trust me when i say that all wisdom lies within you you think you know who you are but you can discover this truth only when you open yourself to the divine to your divine wisdom oh my my that was intense oops why do i keep bumping you guys i'm so sorry okay so i mean right off the bat tapping into your wisdom bestie my my that was heavy i don't know why reading that made me feel heavy that is so powerful because it really is reminding you that you are more powerful than you realize you got the freaking world don't forget you got this world you got this success you got this completion coming your way you have the expansion and the knowledge coming your way the only only energy i was getting with the world was...
like resistance towards that but it doesn't mean it's not coming it's just saying that it's delayed in this moment for x y and z maybe it's our own resistance you know what i mean i was also i guess called to read scars because it my hands went there i'm very familiar with this card but they were wanting me to read it for you so i shall if you draw this card it's time to look at the scars light has dealt you in a new light life has dealt you in a new light the supposedly darkest hours of your life have left the deepest marks they draw out the divine light within you one or more of your scars may certainly still cause pain as some wounds heal slowly but the violet dragon would like to teach you that there is a miracle miraculous cure for your wounds and scars this macrolist powder oh this is cute is a mixture of 70 forgiveness 20 acceptance and 10 devotion this is the recipe for the elixir oh my gosh okay and then it goes into an elixir for it listen besties i feel like they just cracked the freaking code and told you a super effective way of handling your

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s seventy percent forgiveness twenty percent acceptance and 10 devotion oh my gosh and again don't devote yourself to those bad the people that hurt you but devoting yourself to yourself bestie devoting yourself to your time devoting yourself to your energy devoting yourself to you claiming your energy claiming your power forgiving accepting oh my god that is making me so feel some kind...
of way besties they were just giving you a clear way of handling the

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s and that is so beautiful and a reminder that yes the deepest parts of our life the deepest parts what we've gone through i feel like with this reading particularly i talked a lot about scars from maybe childhood or from things that we have gone through in our life and i just feel like those scars are going to come up in your

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but you have now been giving the freaking recipe to heal them that is beautiful and then we got air chalice air chalice is a meditation my door is so loud air chalice is a meditation and it isn't a meditation with air if you are also an air sign or if you are just called to meditating with air they said i think them giving you another way to meditate and a reminder to meditate when you're going through

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you might be the kind of person who does a lot of their healing and meditation that is something that a lot of people in my family do i i have a hard time meditating because i get bored but i do not say that to everybody like i definitely promote meditation it definitely resonates with almost everyone in my life i'm just stubborn uh but if you are as meditation kind of person i feel like your guys are trying to heavily tell you going through the

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period going through this time allowing yourself to meditate and allowing yourself to heal in those meditations and maybe doing some meditations with air maybe going outside to meditate...
maybe meditate maybe going outside and spending some time with the earth and the nature and the wind and allowing yourself to be cleansed by gaia's loving loving breath all right and then i pulled some mermaid cards with some extra additional love so let's see and then don't forget i have a surprise for you guys i feel like this has been kind of a long reading so thank you for bearing bearing with me and paying attention and just keeping keeping clutch so the first mermaid card that you guys got is accept heaven's help you've prayed for help so get out of the way and let heaven help you again if heaven or prayer are trigger words for you replace it flip the script no big deal heaven can be gaia heaven can be source heaven can be universe heaven can be goddess heaven can be higher self prayer can simply be request talk divination whatever

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s for you you have asked for help so get out of the way and let heaven or gaia or god or source help you sorry that was loud if you have been going through the dang thing if you are going through the dang thing with your

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ask for help ask your guides for help ask your if you communicate with guides ask them for help during your shout out

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if you don't communicate with guys ask gaia or your higher self for help during your

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and then allowing yourself to receive the help that they are wanting to give you allow yourself to receive whatever you have asked for if you are...
asking to allow yourself to commit to something step out of your own way and allow that allow your guides and the gaia and source and god whoever you resonate with to step in and show you allow yourself to receive the help that has been being given to you the next memory card you got is pay attention notice repetitious signs and and your inner guidance as this can yield valuable information all right this is a really interesting card to me because this is the card of like synchronicities i mean not really there's a card that's called synchronicities but this card is also heavily talking about synchronicity because it's like if you're seeing repetitious signs if you're saying 11-11-222-555-101-171-191 butterflies every single five minutes you know that might be extreme but like if you're seeing the same colored car all the time if you're seeing the same car all the time if you're seeing certain animals all the time if you're hearing certain ideas or songs or messages or whatever listen to that because that is your guides or whoever you

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ing and learning how to communicate with you so if you start seeing those signs do not ignore them definitely take them seriously and definitely listen to them and look then look into...
them and see what they are trying to tell you because those messages are going to be super freaking loud and then the last card you got for the mermaids is waves of prosperity new abundance and exciting opportunities wash over you now i feel like they are giving you so much reinforcement here because again you did get this two of wands you did get the world you did get the three of pentacles money success financial freedom anything you desire is coming your way we just have to get out of our own way and receive it we have to allow ourselves to receive it waves of prosperity new abundance is coming to you once we tackle these

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s once we understand that we are deserving of receiving love we are deserving of receiving success we are deserving of receiving financial prosperity we will receive it besties you will receive it once we allow ourselves to once we do the hard

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of seeing why the heck am i blocking myself from growth and we look inward we face that

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we tell them they don't have any more power here doesn't mean it goes away immediately no but does it go away definitely okay it does get easier it doesn't mean it happens overnight but it does mean that it happens and your guides are trying to tell you and help you understand you have amazing things coming in your direction you have amazing things coming your way it is just about getting out of your own way long enough oh my goodness olivia to receive the amazing opportunities that are wanting to...
come your way to receive the abundance to receive the gifts to receive the world to receive every good thing that is coming in your direction oh my gosh chaos we have to first step out of our own way so that we can receive it all right besties and then i have a little surprise for you guys again if you watch pile one then you already know what the surprise is but okay i talked about this in power once you may already know but listen i okay i got these a while ago like quite a few months ago and i've never used them because i've been super insecure and again i deal with imposter syndrome and it's literally one of my

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s and do things that scare me why not add these as well so with that being said i am a beginner i am not coming on here and acting like i know everything you bet you're pootie patootie i do not know what i am doing entirely i am here to learn i am here to grow i am here to shift so if you do know a lot about what i'm going to show you definitely educate me kindly in the comments if you have knowledge to share but i am here to learn and grow with you guys i want to evolve i want to expand my knowledge and i want to show you guys along the way because how freaking dope is that so i picked ruins for runes i don't know i just messed myself...
up right off the bat i picked rims for you guys these are gorgeous rose quarter runes with gold um writing on them i am obsessed with these they are just called to me so so much and i decided to pull some for your guys's reading today why i don't know but i was really really called to do so so i did and i picked two for you guys i picked these ones here and i do not know what they mean so i am going to use my dr google and i just went to pinterest and i pulled up these here because mine did not come with a guide book definitely try to get runes that come with the guidebook same with like tarot and stuff when you're learning i did not know they did not come with a guidebook but that's totally okay i'm not upset about it at all all right so the first one you got is this one here if my audio sounds different that's cause i'm trying to read um this tablet real quick all right so if i'm mispronouncing this bear with me besties i believe this is k as well as c they both are the same and they both are kena's k-e-n-a-z this represents torch revelation knowledge creativity and inspiration are you kidding me we love to freaking see it with those wands that you got and it's the torch i'm obsessed revelation knowledge you guys got the wisdom dragon okay like literally revelation knowledge creativity okay besties and inspiration your guides are giving you so much love giving you a hug and letting you know what capabilities you have and the...
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they are showing you the creativity that's going to inspire you they're showing you the knowledge and the wisdom that's going to come together and help you bloom and grow they're going to show you the revelations that are going to be had going through this journey and then the next one you got is this and now i don't see this okay i think i found it i think this is p if not i'm really sorry but that's the closest one i can find on here this is pertho p-e-r-t-h-o pawn magic mystery and feminine do you guys remember what the wisdom dragon represented divine feminine energy and again that was so aggressive i'm gonna tell you guys again feminine does not equal women woman does not equal feminine feminine is energy feminine is yen we all have yin it is a certain energy that you have and this is talking about that certain magic mystery and feminine energy that we can embody okay i love that for you besties and again if feminine is hard for you to hear place it with yin it is simply energy pile number two i love you guys i feel like this was so loud and so loud i just i adore you thank you so much for being patient with me and understanding that this was also kind of a

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for me to do this reading because of my you know my own doubts and beliefs and i'm just so thankful for you guys being patient with me being kind with me i i feel so safe on...
this channel because you guys are so nice to me and i understand that that is such a privilege to have such a wonderful amazing supportive community and i just cannot say thank you enough i'm so so grateful and i feel your support i feel your love and i feel your energy so i just really want to say thank you i also wanted to remind you guys that i am accepting private readings at www.marinasterra.com if you are interested you can book there my availability has officially changed in september and i forgot to say this for pile one but if this reading did resonate go ahead and leave a comment down below if you would like i love interacting with you guys you guys know i'm all about hanging out with you guys in the comments section it brings me so much joy to go through and read not only how nice you are to me but how nice you are to each other it is so uplifting and you guys inspire me every single day so i also want to say a huge thank you to everyone who comments because you're also helping my channel grow and that means the world to me you guys are so amazing and i just adore you so thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you so much for all of your love and support all of my links will be in the description box down below like the decks i've used my venmo if you're wanting to tip never required but you guys know i appreciate it my amazon wishlist because again never acquired if you're wanting to feel spicy and send something you know...
what i'm saying um my instagram all that good jazz everything and my website will be linked in my description box down below if you want to check that out i love you guys so much thank you for your constant support i hope this helped i hope this gives you gave you some guidance i love you thank you so much for everything i hope this helped the host gave you some guidance and i hope you have a wonderful morning evening night whenever you are seeing this and i am just sending you so much love and light always remember to show others love show your light and shine so bright and i will see you guys for my next reading bye pile two love you all right third and final pile last but in the never bit least pile number three with the gorgeous sardonic stone again this one is more of gray tone i absolutely love it it even has some browns in there sardonyx is an incredible protector stone it is so good if you are needing protection it's definitely an easy stone to find and one that's good to pick up my animals are going crazy in the background so if you hear that it's out of love they're just playing and it sounds crazy so i picked some tarot cards for you guys and with these tarot cards when i picked them i was asking kind of

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s that needed to be addressed and then with the oracle cards here i was asking for like loving guidance and then i have a surprise for you guys at the end but so with the tarot i am mostly focusing on

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this instance all right besties so let's go ahead and get on into it so starting right off the bat you guys got the tower reversed okay queen of swords i'm just gonna put these over here the moon reversed six of pentacles reversed knight of cups can you guys see if it's down yeah you can see and a ten of swords all right besties so before we get into it i like to explain a little bit of the difference here between the major and the minor so starting right off the bat you guys have two major you have the moon and the tower major and so there's two different categories when it comes to tarot there is the major arcana and then there is the minor arcana the major arcana is kind of what it sounds like it's things that are more like big big deals and a way that source has a heavy hand in the situation and minor arcana to me and my personal belief and opinion is more of like the day-to-day things things are like a little bit more mundane and then we have some suits we have the suit of storage represents the element of air your thoughts your intellect we have the suit of pentacles which represents my animals the elements of earth um finances money tangible things and then cups which is water represents element of water which is our emotions our feelings and our relationships so we see the tower reversed and the ten of swords and both of these things talk about an inevitable end and ending that is definitive and an ending that is definitely going to happen so...
there's two different energies i am getting here so first the first energy i'm getting is that this is something that has already happened to you there has already been an ending in your life something has already come to an abrupt halt and it was something that you were not ready for it was something you did not expect it was something that you were not prepared to handle or prepared to deal with and this could be an ending of a relationship this could be losing someone personal or close to you this could be losing a job this could be losing an aspect of yourself this could be something very traumatic i don't know i don't assume but whatever has been lost i'm getting this feeling that there is so much guilt built around this situation because the tower reverse energy so 10 of wands talks i mean 10 of swords is like you feel like there's just an inevitable end that's happening and you're just hurting so bad and that's very similar energy to the tower it's just kind of like having your world rocked but when we see the tower reverse it's very interesting because the tower reverse talks about kind of putting blame onto ourselves for something that has happened kind of taking the blame and almost like not resisting the the ending because there's not really a way to resist it because it's it's definitive if something is definitely ended oh wait i forgot to talk about the second energy i'll get back to that but i feel like...
the energy i'm getting right here what was that it's just the feeling of self-blame of kind of blaming yourself and harboring the feelings of whatever has happened if something has suddenly happened in your life lately if you feel this energy that there's just been like an abrupt chaos that's just been causing you so much stress i feel like a

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that has been harboring and maybe one that's not even conscious harboring is the feeling of blame and guilt around this event now if this was like a relationship that ended or something like that or any really any ending it is so normal to kind of have that feeling of oh if i would have said something different if i would have done this differently than this wouldn't have happened if i would have reacted differently if i would have kept my mouth shut if i wouldn't have said anything if i wouldn't have spoken up but besties what this what these cards are trying to tell you is that this ending came for a reason and the other energy i was channeling is that if this ending has not happened yet this isn't any that might be coming up soon you might already be like kind of aware that's kind of coming in the loops or maybe it's a resistance to the end a resistance to the ending of a bug a little fly a resistance aren't bugs supposed to be like they resemble something i don't remember i have a book that talks about it but does it i feel this resistance to maybe again just like maybe you...
feel that there is an ending kind but you're holding on so tightly you're holding on to a ship that is already sunk so deep that you are now sinking too is kind of the energy i'm feeling if either one of those energies resonate i'm talking to you bestie because what i am feeling is that when this ship sinks and when we hold on for dear life you might be also blaming yourself and you might be sitting in this energy of guilt and shame and sadness which is normal it's okay to feel your feelings you will never come to this channel and have me tell you it's not okay to feel your feelings your feelings are always valid no matter what they are if you broke your nail and you are having a bad day your bad day is i is exactly what am i trying to say your bad day is equal it's enough okay it's enough for you to have a bad day one thing that is like one of my biggest pet peeves is people comparing their bad days like if you tell someone oh my gosh i had like the hardest day and then they're like oh yeah well i had this this and this so mine's worse so you're not allowed to feel bad f that you're a bad day is your bad day and it is okay to feel your energy it's okay to have a bad day it's okay to feel sad frustrated anxious upset the energy that we are channeling here though is looking inward and being able to identify those feelings and then face those

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s that they no longer bother us i talked about this in all of my other...
readings so i'm going to talk about it in the pile 3 as well i would like to remind you guys i am not here trying to educate you i am simply trying to give guidance i personally don't feel like i know enough about the topic to educate i only know my own personal experiences and those closest to me but i did find some really amazing youtubers who have done like little uh

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one-on-one videos and i'm going to link the ones that i personally really vibed with down in my description box if you want to go watch that first get like a

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one on one quick session and then come back and watch this that's totally fine however i am going to tell you guys how i deal with my

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s in case this one that resonates with you and something that you want to also embark on in your life so this is one thing that i have learned and it's basically when something comes up like a trigger if someone says something to me and it triggers me if it is a something that is bothering me if it's something that i the way i live my life or the way i go to

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or why am i staying in this job that's no longer serving me it's a

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and then i kind of go introspective and i kind of really look inward and think okay i'm gonna give you guys the example i've been getting in my last two readings say my fiance says something to me i'm just using her because it's easy um we do not it's like i mean she does trigger me because she's also like...
whatever she's like one of my soul mates she's like a soulmate who kind of like triggers me so i can heal healthfully um but say she says something to me and it triggers me so deeply and i immediately go and i go in respective and i think oh it's because of my ex my ex shooting me this way and that's why that triggers me and then i go even deeper and i say well why did it trigger me when my ex did that now some things do stem from that relationship from abuse and toxicity but something stem even farther back from childhood and then i faced that

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and to me i'm a very visual person so i envisioned like a chaos

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y blob of just anger and madness and frustration and i look at dead in its face and i say you have no power here does it go away immediately no does it disintegrate immediately no but over time with me constantly telling the

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that it has no power it gets smaller it gets smaller i start to feel lighter it gets smaller i start to feel stronger it gets smaller the stronger i feel the smaller it gets and then one day i tell it it's gone and it's gone and then my power i feel strong i feel confident and i will tell you those things no longer trigger me they don't even they don't even come up anymore and so that is how i personally deal with my

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but always always only do what resonates with you and what clicks with you don't just do something because i or any other person on social media or youtube told you to...
do it do what your what your inner guidance is telling you to do all right besties just want to give you that quick little i don't know what to call that your quick little mini lesson from me i guess is what we'll call it but yeah i'm just getting this energy that's one of you guys may have either gone through something or feel something is coming to an end and are just either holding on to a ship that's already sinking or i've already saw this ship sink and are now sitting on the shore thinking why i could have done something different this is a good analogy actually i'm going to keep using it because say you're one person and an entire ship sank and you're like i could have done something different if i would have just pulled harder i could have kept the ship afloat i could have done something different but the reality is that ship was going to sink one way or another and this energy that we're feeling is that you are you it's so easy to put this blame and this guilt on yourself it is so easy but figuring out where that comes from and again i talked about this my other readings what i'm going to do is ask you questions to kind of try to give you a quick way to find your

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s i literally ask myself well why does this bother me why and then i go go go go on a little journey to figure it out right and i feel like the situation i feel like whatever happened to you i feel like this feeling of loss...
and heartache and sadness has really put you into an independent track with this queen of swords wow this fly my gosh somebody tell me what that means i literally have a book right over there i might grab it towards the end of this reading but i feel like this trauma this thing that's happened to you this

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that has literally created this blob around you right now if you've been going through the dang thing i feel like it's made you incredibly independent but the energy i am getting because the queen of swords she's incredibly independent and again when i say she i'm channeling yin energy not the woman i do not believe that tarot is binary i am just channeling the energy of the feminine the yin energy we all have yen we all have yang and when i say she that's what i'm channeling but the queen of swords she is very independent she is very intelligent she's very smart she's very on her own but i'm getting a very specific message here and that is that there is a beauty to independence but if this independence is built based off of fear shame or guilt about letting anybody else into your life after what happened it's not as healthy because if we're independent because we are like i am

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ing on myself i'm loving myself i'm vibing with myself i'm good i'm gucci i'm good to go that's beautiful bestie stay in that energy but if we are independent to a sense where we don't want anybody in our life...
because we are like i am so scared to have somebody in my life after what happened one that's normal be gentle yourself be easy on yourself but making sure you identify that as a

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for you and saying oh my gosh like it's maybe not the healthiest thing to not let anybody in our life beast out of fear because not everyone is who we once were with you know what i'm saying or what once did happen to us and again this is not a light switch this is not you're not i'm not expecting anyone and i'm not asking anyone to go away from this reading and be like boom i'm fixed everything is fine everything is good everything is amazing i have no problems anymore bestie come on i've been doing

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for six months and i'm still on the journey it happens

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s keep coming up and i keep addressing them and i'm growing every single day i'm no doubt but it doesn't mean it happens overnight but the message i'm getting with this queen of swords is just making sure and kind of doing the inner

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and seeing is this independence because i'm confidently independent in myself and i don't feel like i need anybody or is it out of fear of allowing someone into my life based off of past situations if that it's the lather that is a

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that's ready to be addressed and then you guys got the moon reverse and the moon reversed is so interesting the moon in general is the card of intuition the card of...
the psychic it is a beautiful card it is a powerful card when we see the moon reversed the moon reversed talks about our fears our anxieties and our worries running amok in our head so to speak if you guys can see the little creature in the water that's what's lurking beneath and that is what's kind of coming to the surface right now when we see the moon in its reversed position the moon reverse talks about how fears our worries and that's so interesting because i wasn't even channeling that when i was reading the queen of swords i'm really getting this i'm getting a big

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besties and if this is not for you throw it away and only take what is you y'all know what i'm saying on this channel this fly besties i'm getting a loud

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here a big one that whatever has happened oh my gosh this is so i'm getting such a very clear message here and again if this is not for you that's totally fine only take what is if this situation that happened to you has been creating the

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if this independence is formed out of fear rather than confidence the moon is addressing that

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and saying oh my gosh i'm so sorry it's this annoying fly the moon is addressing that

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and saying where do these come from these are fears these are worries these are literally

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lurking beneath the surface ready to rise and so you can have this because i'm getting this energy that...
you're blocking off emotional relationships i'm feeling like you're blocking off emotional relationships and feeling like you're blocking off friendships with financial relationships i'm i'm i'm getting this energy that you're just blocking off people from your life you're kind of closing yourself out you're creating this wall around you i am getting a very specific visual and i really hope this is not offensive but i'm literally getting an elsa moment because elsa literally went through so much trauma as a kid she was trying to play with her sister and help her and then accidentally hurt her and then her parents were like shoving her away for her like whole life essentially and then she kind of shut everybody out because of this trauma and again i'm not saying you had ice powers and did that but you guys i hope you get the visual that i'm trying to say you sh maybe you're shutting people out you're shutting out these aspects of your life to uh like to yourself like you're not allowing these people in because of the

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because of this trauma that happened because of the guilt we are feeling because of the burden we are feeling because of the hurt that happened we are like closing the door and we're saying no like i don't want anybody in because if i let somebody in and they can hurt me and i'm done being hurt i'm done i'll be on my own and i'll be fine i don't need anybody and you...
know what you don't need anybody you don't you don't need anybody in your life however it is really nice to have people in your life who support you who encourage you who uplift you who bring you up and bring you together and the energy that i am getting and again i'm even getting a lot of energy that this tower may have been years past this tower may have been from a long but time ago i was going to say the a word but we're not doing that because i don't want to get flagged but this could have been from a long time ago this is like trauma that may have just been built up for freaking years and it's just still causing this independent wall and i'm not trying to crumble on independence i'm not trying to poop on independence because i i fully believe independence is so beautiful but there is a balance to it there's a balance to being independent because you're going and

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ing on yourself and you're wanting your own time to yourself so you can blossom and bloom and be your own full person but there's also an independence out of fear and that's the channel that's the one i'm channeling here and this moon is like literally bringing a

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to a surface i can feel it so deeply and i really hope it's reaching the people i need to reach because i feel this energy of just because the knight of cups you all is a romantic loving sweet harmonious time and i'm literally feeling a brick wall as soon as i read this...
card it's like no and i'm getting a visual because you guys know if you watch my channel i'm a very visual person i see oh my god i'm about to cry i see someone riding on a horse willing to give you love willing to give you a relationship willing to give you what you desire and you are so in this hurt and again your feelings are valid feel them as long as you need to bestie but here's the thing these people like these energies are still trying to come in your direction and i'm just getting this energy that you were just like no like i have been done i'm sorry i'm done hurting i don't want anybody like leave me alone leave me alone and i just keep hearing somebody say that like leave me alone like i don't even want it because it's not worth the pain bestie that's a

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because yes people heard us god yes people heard us they heard us and they heard us they heard us but here's the thing not everyone out there wants to hurt you not everyone out there has your intent your worst intention at heart and oftentimes i'm going to tell you something even worse people don't even always mean to hurt you now sometimes they do sometimes they do not everyone has some people have malicious intent but sometimes people are just trying to do their thing and we get hurt in the crossfire i know that's not doesn't make anything easier but it's just it's a truth and i'm just getting this energy of just blocking it off...
and that just is so loud to me because the nine of cups is writing and the ten of swords is like no like stop it i don't even want to look at you like i'm just going to lay down and distract myself because you're i don't want you right now like i'm literally getting the energy to like turn this over because i feel like someone is angry looking at it because that's how much they don't even want to see it and besties that's a freaking

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and it's ready to be addressed it's ready to be talked about it's ready to be faced it's ready to search and see and yes going back to that tower moment and saying god why do i you guys really want this flipped over god why do i want to why am i keep blaming myself for this why and forgiving yourself first forgiving yourself for what has happened i'm not saying it had anything to do with you but if you are blaming yourself starting with the forgiveness forgiving yourself for what has happened forgiving yourself for everything and then forgiving the others and then look and again forgiving does not mean excusing we do not we know okay i'm not condoning or excusing anybody's behavior forgiving is really just for you i have forgiven so many people and not talk to them i forgive internally okay because i want my power back and this these are cards telling you to face your

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in the moon water and say no your worries your fears your anxieties have no power over me anymore i'm allowed to frolic in the moon i'm allowed to have fun i'm allowed to be into it i'm allowed to tap into my divine feminine nature i'm allowed to be this person i don't need this lurking under the water coming out to get me because i am now enough with myself that i will look at to the

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and i will say you have no power here and then you guys got the six of pentacles again with the reverse energy and the six of pentacles reverse is just kind of i'm gonna be super honest with you the energy i'm getting is just mistrust and i feel like whatever happened to you in your life i feel like whatever happened there is just a mistrust around finances there's a mistrust around new job opportunities there is a mistrust around anyone trying to help you or offer you anything i'm just feeling like you get this i feel like i'm getting this energy of someone who is like if something good comes your way i feel like you might be the kind of person who immediately tries to figure out why like something that's wrong like looking for the hidden element looking for the hidden feature looking for something like looking at the fine print so carefully that you maybe create something that wasn't even there to begin with because you just don't believe that anything good could happen to you but bestie you are worth receiving you are worth...
good things coming your direction you are worth love you are worth passion you are worth financial success you are with creative endeavors you are worth passion you are worth intuition you are deserving you deserve to receive that i know our

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s make us feel like we're not i know i know bestie i know i know i know i can feel that way but you do i'm literally about to cry with you guys pile number three you do deserve it you deserve the love you deserve to heal you are allowed to heal again if this was something so traumatic for you that you don't want to let go of what a person or whatever i'm not saying you have to let go i'm not saying you have to forget them i'm not even saying you have to forget the situation but you allow yourself to heal so that it doesn't hurt you consistently bestie okay i feel like that was so heavy that is the reason i pulled some affirmation and loving cards from our dragons and our mermaids because i felt like someone really needed to i hear those heavy messages but i knew that i i didn't i don't i don't always channel while i'm flipping them so that i give you guys my real authentic authenticity but i just got the energy that like we're gonna need some loving affirmations after the heaviness of dealing with our

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s so that is what i pulled for you guys so for our dragons we got gifts queen alba you're kidding me oh my goodness fire chalice and home okay i want to read these for you hold...
on i've been really called oh sorry i've been really called today to read the book sometimes i'm not because i really like to just channel the messages but something about reading the book today it feels like i i feel like i need to i feel like it maybe will help somebody i feel like you need to hear word for word what they are talking about queen alba we frequently forget to be thankful for the gifts we receive all too often we focus on our wishes and desires and what remains unfulfilled in our lives and in doing so we exist in an energy field of absence wishes and desires are of course good to have and are often the mainspring of our actions but our goals and gratitudes need to be in balance we should both pay heed to our desires but also be grateful for our gifts the beautiful queen alba is looking at you recognizing the beauty of your soul and vibrating in perfect love for you turn today into a day of celebration of the gifts you have already received write down all the things for which you are grateful as a dragon writer you will never whoa you will never forget the companions you ride with you honoring and protecting you have friends is having friends is a marvelous gift besties i literally am about to cry look at the list again the following day to make sure you have not forgotten something or someone good things come in three so check that list is complete on the third day as well then pick out two people whom you would like to express your gratitude in...
the form of a gift if one of these people is your mother you might like to give her flowers if one is a being that does not dwell in our dimension then consider a heartfelt prayer or lighting a particularly beautiful candle oh my gosh i'm getting so much energy right now oh my gosh with that six of pentacles energy holy crap this is literally the card of gift giving you guys like you guys can see that right gift giving is the energy of this card and yet we're feeling in lack and we're we're avoiding that and again i was getting that energy of what's it called isolation and this gives card one yes it's telling you to acknowledge the love that you already are the gifts that you already have gift back to someone you are grateful for and again if this person is no longer on our dimension or our plane lighting a candle and saying thank you i feel like this is going to help heal the tower energy now let me say something very specific if you are grateful for someone well i feel like if you're if this involves someone who is toxic or hurtful to you do you do not have to go in person you do not have to contact them you do not have to touch them never do anything in a situation that would ever put you into an arms harm's way however you can do things energetically and that might be what you're also being called to do here wow i'm sorry i'm like reeling from that that was a lot for me i don't know if that was a lot for you but that like...
hit me really hard all right alba came in clutch again with the fire chalice but the fire chalice all of the chalices are a baptism a meditation a healing kind of ritual and you are maybe being called to meditate or heal with fire now this could mean candle magic since we got that with the gifts card or just lighting a candle and meditating with that or you know having a bonfire having a burning where you burn you know one way i healed some of my

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s was again this is like a basic therapy technique i think but writing down those things that you are ready to let go of and then burning them and then i give my ashes back to gaia and i let her turn them into love and light energy so in whatever way you are called your guys are trying to give you confirmation in a way of healing and one of the ways they are wanting you to heal is through a ritual or a meditation with fire or a way of healing with fire again if you do not want to use actual fire candles or just energetically that is totally fine as well and then the last cards you got from the dragons is home what does home mean to you have you already found yours the coral dragon of happiness folds its wing around folds its wings around you lovingly whispering softly in your ear it does not matter where you live your home is where your companions are those who think like you live like you and love the same things as you listen to the beautiful words of this female beautiful female dragon she is very wise and loves you so very...
much you drew this card because home is an unresolved energy for you perhaps you are still searching for it or have made a mistake in your choice or what you call home is not really where you belong think about this visualizing yourself wrapped in the wings of the dragon conversing quietly with it or perhaps even with your soul ask you ask about your homeland about the place of love and why you are here now let a coral colored light grow within you spread and surround the place where you live now breathe this light out of your heart and use it to envelop the home you have now chosen consciously or unconsciously this light will enhance and bless the energy in your home wow that is so freaking beautiful home okay besties i'm sorry but i'm like still focusing on the energy of that queen of swords and i'm just i don't know why i'm getting the energy of isolation if you have just been going through it or if you have this is a past energy and it's a

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you've already dealt with they are trying to encourage you that home is so much less important than where you live than it is with who you create your home around home is an energy home is a like a place of love a place of connecting with those who are like-minded as you if you are not feeling at home even if you have the most gorgeous house in the world a house is not a home unless the people are there like the right people the right energy the right environment is there you know what i'm saying...
and so really making sure that you are not in a situation of isolation let me specify even more i know we are going through a situation right now in our environment and with everything happening i and i understand that i'm not channeling that specific energy if that's what you are in isolation for you know what i'm i hope you know what i'm trying to say i'm i'm channeling more of like i'm thinking this is years like this is not just 20 20. i'm getting the energy that this has been going on for a while and this feeling of just kind of excluding yourself from things to not get hurt again and i feel like this is kind of trying to tell you with the gifts card the six of pentacles and the home card it's kind of trying to tell you that if you're ready when you're ready when and i'm gonna flip this back over because i'm getting another message when you're ready to welcome these energies back into your life to welcome the pe the friends back into your life to welcome dancing in the moon with someone back into your life to welcome giving back to those around you to welcome new friendships romantic relationships new love interests into your life and to welcome creating a home surrounded by those who really uplift you and bring you joy i feel like once you heal your

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s these things are going to be very loud and very prevalent for you and i think it is absolutely beautiful and then the last two cards i pulled for you guys were...
some mermaid cards and then besties don't think i forgot we also have a surprise at the end okay so let's go ahead and see the mermaid cards that you guys got the first one you got is music for manifesting to manifest rapidly think of your desire why you chant hum sing or play music so your guys are kind of trying to tell you a way of how to cope with your

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if you are going through your

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and you're wanting guidance on how to heal on guidance and how to forgive sing chant hum or play you know asking for forget asking for healing asking to help and that's the way your guides are trying to one communicate with you and to teach you how to manifest your desires into reality and now if

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ing for yourself is something you desire kudos because you got self-employment i don't know what this has to do with everything else but you are a born entrepreneur and your business is surrounded by magical opportunities if this is resonating with you bestie oh my gosh yes okay because the queen of swords about independence i'm gonna remind you independence is not a bad thing it's only when it's independent out of fear out of worry and out of isolating due to not wanting to get hurt again by certain people that is the channel and energy and channeling i love independence i am an independent person i am still engaged and i have a lot of people in my life but i'm incredibly independent i want to be my own boss i want to

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want to do my own thing i don't want anybody trying to tell me what to do i am incredibly independent but i still have people in my life but this independence is a beautiful thing and if you are someone who is so independent you're like yes yes yes yes yes go kill it slay bring that independence and oh my gosh i'm getting this energy of once you heal your

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with your independence so much more if you are already self-employed amazing but if it's something that you desire and you're like i am already trying this thing believe in yourself bestie because once we go through our

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s we face them down and we say you have no power here anymore and again and again until they eventually go away doors are gonna just start opening up for you and i feel like one of those is going to be this self-employment energy or a born entrepreneur and your business is surrounded by magical opportunities tap into that energy tap into that energy of that independence in a good way tap into the energy of the independence in a strong fierce passionate way because you've got this bestie and then i told you guys i have a surprise for you and i do so if you've already looked at the other two piles then you would already know what the surprise is but just it's okay just like we can still pretend if you have not watched the two...
piles and you are going to be so excited hopefully i don't know so i got these quite a few months ago and i'm obsessed with them but i've never used them like for a reading because i have a lot of fears and insecurities around that kind of stuff but you know that i am also facing my

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s in this video because i feel like you know lead by example right besties that is something i actually highly high highly preach is leading by example i feel like me facing my

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s live on camera with you guys will hopefully inspire you guys to face your

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s as well and will hopefully show you that you can do it and there is beauty on the other side so i got these a while ago and i have always been insecure showing them on here or like

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ing with them because i'm not educated in them enough but i want to learn and i want to grow and i want to expand and one way that you learn grow and expand is by trying new things and so these are still new to me because i like i said i haven't really used them because of fears but we're

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ing on that so if you do know about what i'm about to show you kindly educate me in the comments bestie i would love to learn i'd love to grow i want to expand mine i want to literally consume as much knowledge as possible so if you are familiar with this please communicate with me and show me i have been using them as divination tools and that's exactly what i'm using them for today so that is what i'm going to show...
you all right so today we are using runes i'm so excited i picked two rooms for you guys or actually they picked you if i'm being more honest and i am so excited for this again i am going to be using handy dandy google to tell me the meanings because the deck or not the deck the the ruins i got did not come with a description pack or a description book definitely if you are wanting to try these get one that does because i'm super confused and i've been having to like learn through like google and stuff which is not a bad thing but it's just been a little bit more complicated so i have my handy dandy little roon cheat code here and i'm going to read it with you guys and let's go ahead and see what your runes have to say again educate me kindly i am only doing this with so much love and light and as a way to kind of learn and expand and show you guys more and show me more as well okay so the first one you got is this one this i believe is m and i believe it's pronounced manas m-a-n-n-a-z or manas you guys tell me okay this represents self-mankind culture and friends besties my my i seriously am getting this energy that someone has just been closing off this door to themselves i don't know how to do this where you guys can also see it closing off this door to themselves for a long time and your guys are trying to tell you once you heal the

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you are going to be ready to welcome people into your life like it is going to blossom it's...
going to bloom and you are right you're going to be ready to embark on this new this new energy of allowing people into your life and then the next one that you got i'm looking it up because it's not on here so the next one that you guys got is literally blank and i didn't know what this meant so i looked it up the blank rune is silence the void of infinite possibility the space between words the breath before speech the tarot equivalent is the fool it is infinite possibilities these are also rose quartz that's why i called them stones they are rose quartz crystals with the rune writing on them and i just kind of got the message that it just represented like infinite possibilities infinite amazing opportunities that can come your way and just also the feeling and the sensation that you are the answer right like that was the message i was getting is that you are the answer the answer is internal the answer is it is within yourself and the answer lies within yourself it doesn't lie within the tarot it doesn't lie within the oracle and it doesn't lie within the runes it lies within you you are your healer and you are yourself and that is more powerful than anything i could ever tell you pile number three i adore you guys i really hope this resonated i hope this connected i hope this clicked with you i am so thankful for all of you guys and i'm so thankful for you guys bearing with me on this journey i feel like i was kind of all over the place...
today dealing with my own channels in the meantime but i hope that this gave you inspiration and encouraged you to also face some of your

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s today and also just to understand that you have the power to do so you are able to do so you are capable of doing so you are so much more powerful than you realize best you are a powerful powerful energy and i know that things hurt us and they knock us down and i'm not trying to discredit that remember it's okay to feel your feelings your feelings are valid for as long as your feelings are always valid and you can feel them for as long as you need to but whenever you are ready whenever you are ready face those

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s because they are going to be so beneficial for you to face them i love you guys so much i really hope this resonated i'm sorry if this did resonate please feel free to leave a comment down below in the description i love interacting with you guys you know it is my bread and freaking butter you guys are so much fun you guys are such a positive vibe such a positive energy and i just adore you i am so thankful this is just casting such a

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right now it's storming right now so it's like casting all these

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s i am so thankful for you i'm so so blessed to have the most amazing community here you guys uplift me so much and i you guys know i just love hanging out in the comments and being besties with you guys and not only do you encourage me but you guys encourage each other and that is just...
so powerful i also wanted to remind you guys that i am taking private readings at www.marina's tear if you are interested my schedule has officially been updated and changed in the month of september because we are on our own entrepreneurial self-employment track right now so much my ch my availability has changed so definitely check that out if you are interested and all of my links and everything is going to be down in the description box my venmo and my amazon if you are feeling generous never wanting to tip or anything like that never required but always appreciated also my instagram my website and all the links to the decks as well as the other tarot and not tarot as well as the other

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videos are all going to be linked down below in my description so definitely check it out thank you guys so much for being here i hope this offered you some guidance and some clarity i love you so much and i hope you have a wonderful morning evening or night whenever you are seeing this bye besties have a wonderful day