POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION IS REAL!!

Hello guys, welcome back to my channel. I've been dying to film this specific video because I know you guys had a lot of questions about childbirth,

postpartum

, and a lot of umami stuff because now I can finally relate to a lot of moms, esp. because I'm talking about a new mom and as you can see, I'm inside a baby's room right now and the only reason I don't mind showing you part of her room is because I've already shown you her wallpaper. so yeah, but isn't it so cute? Its theme is unicorn. The wallpaper has cute unicorns, rainbows, castles and whatnot, but I'll be filming a video tour of the nursery soon.

I'm just waiting for a couple more things to come. but if you are new to this channel, hello, my name is elsie, I give away 100 and each of my videos I just have to deal with, just comment, like and subscribe. Don't forget to comment on your cash app, so I did. mention in my last video that I'm going to answer questions that you guys have and I actually went on Instagram to ask myself a bunch of questions and you guys asked me a

real

ly good question so I'm

real

ly excited to film this. video because I almost feel like I just need a van and I feel like I have a group of friends now as many of you can relate and I hope it helps some of you or it's informative for some of you but I'm going to talk to you about what I experienced and I'm going to be 100% honest with you, so to start, I got a question where someone asked me how far away my contractions were and how I knew when. go to the hospital and there is also a way to speed up the process to give birth or dilate more, but as I said, I am going to be very, very honest with you, I will tell you how it started from the beginning because if you saw my previous videos you know that You and I were staying in a hotel because the hospital was super far from our house and I was already four centimeters dilated when we decided to go to the hotel and I just wanted to be safe and be close to the hospital in case my water broke, so We stayed up in a hotel for almost a week, it was like five days, but the only reason we decided to go to the hospital was Saturday.

In the morning it was around three, I don't know what time it was in the west because my doctor's office recommended a lot of things to speed up dilation and sex was one of them, so I really hope not. Underage girls are watching this video because I don't want you parents to come to me and hate me for what I'm going to say so you and I decided to do that and then after the sex happened we decided to going to the hospital when we got there I was actually six centimeters so if you're wondering if sex works, yes it works because I was four and I ended up going up to six and that's when it all happened but I'm I'm going to cover all that while I'm answering questions because you asked me questions related to that, so the first question I'm going to answer is how long was I in labor?

Well, if we arrive around four. o'clock when we arrived I was six and we were dilated, they used pitocin, I think I might be saying it wrong, it's the medicine that helps you dilate more, but it wasn't working for me, so I woke up. again it was like 12 in the afternoon and I was still six centimeters dilated so the pitocin pitocin I think I'm like you said it wrong I think I'm saying it wrong it's like pitocin platismo panacha baptism I don't know since I was Still 16 minutes dilated, my doctor decided my water broke and it was around 1 1 when my water decided to break and let me tell you once my water broke, okay, I don't want to say like 10 minutes later. my contraction started like that and they were extremely painful and then that's when the next question comes is from 1 to 10 how strong were the contractions I really want to scare people who are about to go into labor but I'm going to say it was like 15.

And this is with my pain tolerance. Honestly, I think I have a high pain tolerance and I still think it was like 15. It was just super, super, uh, I don't know, I honestly didn't expect contractions to feel like that, I honestly thought they were going to be a lot less painful, I don't know. why I thought they were going to be so strong, but I was wrong because those damn contractions were so strong and this is where the next one comes. The question comes as to why I decided not to get the pain medication, which is the epidural, so throughout my entire pregnancy I've been saying I really want to do it naturally, that was my goal.

I wanted to go to the hospital and do it naturally. I already had my mindset of what I wanted to do and in reality, however, when my contractions started, I mean when they were like 20 minutes after your water broke, I was asking for the epidural, the contractions were too painful, so I was Like No I can't, it honestly feels like you're being stabbed in the womb, but the pain was probably ten times worse. No, I don't even know how to explain the pain. The pain was so bad that I had contractions all the time. They were going up, I was just kicking my feet like I didn't know what to do, like I was so uncomfortable, like I literally felt like you just wanted to get a knife and just leave, it was that bad, like I and I knew.

It sounds very scary, but I'm just saying this from my experience, like I didn't know what to do, I felt like I was going crazy, I felt like I wasn't in a mental institution and I wanted to kill people and that's it. how painful it was and my goal was to leave and naturally I just walked out the window. I thought screw it, I don't care about this, this is my body, this is how I feel right now, this is the pain I'm in right now, but I'm going to say this, I was very lucky with that girl, she wanted to cum so much, very quickly because I felt like I needed to take a big bath, it was around 2 p.m. m., but then the next question arises, how long?

I was bidding so I wasn't bidding for that long. I mean I was bidding for half an hour. I thought it was 10 minutes. I swore it was like 10 minutes, but I guess I was in so much pain that I just lost track of time and this is when the next question comes: You guys ask me if I booed myself and no I didn't, surprisingly I didn't, But let me tell you, when you pick it up in so much pain, you don't. Give up, you don't care, even if I locked myself up I wouldn't care, it probably would have been like I just had a fucking baby and I don't care right now because I'm in so much pain and then the next.

The question I read a lot was if I would be embarrassed if the nurses and him saw my entire vagina and no I wasn't because like I said when you guys are in so much pain you don't care about anything like I might have been. Instagram live showing you my vagina and I wouldn't have cared because I was in a lot of pain and then another question you guys asked me was if I tore and if they had to sew me down there and I tore, but I don't know how much just because I didn't ask my obstetrician when he was stitching me up but I know they did give me stitches and I'm not that mad about it because he didn't mention that he put extra stitches in there so technically I'm a virgin again and it's like being down there so I don't care at all .

I know a lot of people are worried because they think having a baby naturally ruins your vagina, but I basically had to free myself from surgery. to tighten it more, so yeah, I got a question where someone asked me if sex feels the same after getting stitches or after having a natural birth, because a lot of people think that their hole down there gets super loose and it just gets super big, which is not the case at all, but after giving birth you have to wait six weeks to do anything, get in a hot tub, go to the pool, you can't exercise, you can't have sex sexual, so that's it. my answer: I haven't had sex because you can't have sex because you could break it or you could just get an infection like it's unsanitary and it's not safe because you need to give your kitten time to heal and you can't pick him up. any heavy object, so yes, that's my answer.

I haven't had sex, but I'm not going to lie. I'm a little excited to see how it feels, especially now that it's tighter down there and if this is too much information, I'm really sorry. guys, but I told you I was going to be 100% honest with you and at the end of the day I'm a mom now so I can't act childish and, like, I'm talking about being sick, you know what I mean? obviously everyone knows I opened up because I had a son so that's it and then this is mom talk so I hope it's just girls talking to me right now we're having girl talk we're having girl talk mom, we're talking about what's really going on with mom and our kitten and all that crazy stuff and I'm going to put up screenshots of things that I've been using to help Mikey heal because you guys really need to take care of him and then another question about our kittens Down there. you guys are asking me how painful it is if i could sit up if i could walk surprisingly i was walking pretty normal it didn't hurt that much it hurt a lot to sit up especially when i was breastfeeding her like in bed oh my god it would hurt a lot but i was using a lot of ice packs to numbing her, it helped a little, but the ice packs were so thick that I felt like I had a break there.

Feeling

postpartum

is very uncomfortable and painful but it is just one of the processes we have to go through after giving birth so we will have to deal with it and I always tell myself that the pain is only temporary and that recovering is only temporary and it hasn't been that bad, I won't leave them, I honestly thought that after giving birth I would feel like I had a huge surgery, but no, it wasn't that bad, I want to see. The pain level for my kitty down there afterwards was like a six, it wasn't that bad, however it was like a 10 with the discomfort, I don't know if that's a word, but yeah, when you get up.

Walking around, it almost feels like your vagina weighs like 100 pounds, but I haven't had my six-week appointment yet, so I'm hoping to pray that I've taken pretty good care of it and that it's healing pretty well, so the next question was now. that I experienced giving birth, if I want to have more kids, it's funny, you have to ask me that because I joke with you now, right after I gave birth, I told you I don't want more kids, I just said no, thank you Alani, that's good. We are ready, she is the only one we need after experiencing this.

I don't want more children, but then again, she was speaking emotionally. She was talking about how I felt at the time, but I don't know if I want more children. The only reason I say that is because since I had my firstborn naturally, that's how I would like all my labors to go. I don't want to give myself painkillers and I don't know if I can handle it. Like I know I shouldn't be putting myself down, I shouldn't be so hard on myself, but I really don't want to get the painkiller and I'm not saying it's bad to get it, I personally didn't want to get it.

I honestly don't know, I don't know, just because it was so painful and I don't want to get any pain medication if I decide to have more kids, but I don't know if I can do it. Not many of you, I'm not going to be a hardass and say, you know what you know, I have this because I don't, no, thank you, I'm very traumatized and no. I don't know if it's because it's still fresh, but I'm putting off the kids right now. Another reason I see that is because I want to enjoy my baby right now, she's a newborn, I really want to enjoy the baby hairs that I really want. to focus my attention on her, so no, like right now I don't want to have more children, so the next question was do I have stretch marks, I don't have stretch marks, I'm going to put a screenshot of what I use to avoid the stretch marks. brands, but disclaimer.

I tell you this right now. I am not promoting that this product prevents you from getting stretch marks because you should keep in mind that stretch marks come from genetics and I read an article where a doctor said that you can put hundreds of different oils to prevent stretch marks, like cocoa butter, they can put anything you can say you can literally put anything and if your family has those genetic experiences because they get stretch marks eventually I'll get stretch marks so I mean every person is different and so is my body type so I just You have to keep in mind that I'm five eight and I have a very long torso so basically I had a lot of room for the baby to go and not just that I was small so I feel like that helped me a lot in understanding why my stomach didn't stretched so much and why didn't I gain that much weight so yeah it's perfectly fine if you use the stretch marks stretch marks no big deal I have stretch marks on my butt I have stretch marks on my hips on the inside of my thighs like I don't know a single one girl who doesn't have stretch marks, even boys have stretch marks like that. perfectly fine at the end of the day you kicked out a human being and then that's all that matters and the next question was whetherThey lost hair after giving birth.

I haven't seen a change in my hair but I also think it's because I'm still taking my prenatal medications, I know that has a lot to do with hair loss after giving birth. I heard you guys stopped taking your prenatal medications. You're going to see a big difference with your hair and I'm still taking my prenatals and these are the prenatals I'm taking. I'm going to take a picture and I'll put it somewhere here for you and the next question I was asked was did I have postpartum

depression

so I'm going to say yes because I mean the first two weeks and I think that's why I haven't been active. on social media or I haven't been on YouTube because I haven't.

I gave myself time to realize that I was going through postpartum

depression

and I just needed time to release all that, but I think what has helped me is having a good support system to around me, a good companion that I have to keep. Telling yourself it's normal, it's okay, it's not your fault, we got through it. I would say try not to avoid it and actually let yourself feel it so you can release it and as the days go by I promise you you will. get better because I want to see the first two weeks after giving birth were the worst it was just hectic and now that she is a month old everything has been going great so when people say the first two weeks are the hardest they have absolutely right and The next question was: Did I keep my placenta?

To be honest, I didn't. I didn't really do any research on my placenta. Maybe I should have, but maybe it's just a Reiki mistake. I didn't look into why white people keep it. about the benefits of keeping it and speaking of the placenta, you guys also asked me if punching out the placenta hurt as much as giving birth to a baby. I don't think it was that painful. I remember my ob warned me that he just pressed my stomach really hard and that's when I felt the placenta come out but I don't think it hurt that much and the next question was did the hospital provide a special water to let it there when are you going to urinate, so the hospital?

They give them pretty much everything they need, since I bought everything for postpartum. I recommend that you go buy it because they don't give you much and the next question was if I should take a cover. Testing Yes, I'm pretty sure all hospitals will make you do a coverage test before giving birth to avoid passing it on to your baby, so yes, it is definitely a requirement that you do a coverage test and I know that this video it's great. It's been a long time, but the next question was: what did you use for me from your hospital bag? um, you don't really use much.

I overpacked, but the silver package is better than the unpacking, but you don't really use, maybe as the first outfit you are going to wear to the baby in your postpartum essentials you don't need bottles unless you plan to give the baby formula right away, but if you plan to breastfeed her you don't need bottles, we didn't really use it much, we just used her first set, my things, your personal hygiene things and I think that's it, we used a swaddle, maybe like a blanket, no you should worry about bringing too much stuff because the hospital provides literally everything so that helps a lot and the next question was are you planning to exercise or are you okay with my mom?

Yes I plan to exercise but I can't exercise until I get the green light after my six week appointment and I want to say yes I'm fine with my mom's body the difference I saw was with my tatas my breasts They became very saggy even with implants and pens, I won't save you with that, my breasts look very strange now because my implants are like here you can see the sheet with my implants and then they go, so my breasts look very, very, very rare and I'm fine with that right now. I plan to have my breasts done, yes, because I want a reduction.

I want smaller implants, but I wanted smaller implants. I was going to have surgery before I found out I was pregnant and I'm fine with my stomach right now. I'm pretty much into everything with my body. um I'm not in a rush to change anything right now I'm just focusing on taking care of the baby and that's it and then the next questions that you guys asked me and I've been updating you guys on Snapchat about it is what's my verse like? ? pumping how is my milk supply? This is where my heart breaks because unfortunately my milk supply I know I've been opening them on Snapchat, oh yeah, it's been coming in, it's been coming out, it's been coming in.

Unfortunately, my milk supply has been coming in extremely slow, I think slower than the last time I updated you on Snapchat that a baby is officially on formula, so I had to switch him to formula and breast milk. She is doing both. I'm breastfeeding her. so I'm doing all three right now, I'm breastfeeding her, I'm pumping and I'm giving her formula. I haven't switched her from 100 to formula like yet because I'm not going to give up my breast milk. I'm still doing everything I can I'm still eating oatmeal I'm still drinking whatever provocation I have to drink I'm just doing everything at once to be honest I'm eating those Gotham cookies it honestly doesn't help but in my head I'm just saying please just give me a drop of breast milk.

I'm still breastfeeding her. I still express milk. I pumped before and was only able to get three ounces before filming this. That's what life has come to. and I honestly think my milk supply went down a lot because I had been stressing about how I can produce because I know if you get stressed that has a lot to do with your milk supply, but I still have more to come, I haven't dried up. completely which I'm glad because I can still give him breast milk and I will continue to give him breast milk until my milk completely dries up and that's perfectly fine because I know people say fat is better as long as the baby is eating it's fine .

I keep trying to tell myself that as long as my baby is being fed, that's all that matters and I assume there are people who don't breastfeed at all, but my personal goals were to breastfeed and then switch away. to formula completely I wanted to breastfeed her for at least six months, but my boob said what they thought, but yeah, thank you all so much for watching. I know this video was incredibly long, but I hope I covered pretty much everything and yeah, thank you all. Too much to look at, don't forget to enter the giveaway.

What you are going to do is comment, subscribe and comment on your cash app, since we are talking about moms, vaginas and babies. I want to choose a mom for this giveaway. comment whatever comment your baby's name comment what helped you speed up your process it's going down whatever so I can know your mom has the Cash App so I can pick one of you to win, hopefully in my next video. the nursery, so I can show you all because it's so cute, um, but yeah, I'll see you guys in my next video, let's put her cheetah down there, no, it's cute, oh, you can't even see them, she's looking at me like who.

Well, I know she shouldn't be cursing so she was in the process of eating and I just grabbed her. I'm so sure, I'm sure right now, you're going to tell me you're already a month old, yeah, how can I? You guys look like a mom, like when I found out I was pregnant, I was like I couldn't imagine being a mom, I always presented myself as the only one and the fun one, I kind of knew I was wrong, at least I had my own little person to ruin your own little background oh she's so cute when she's getting so big it makes me so sad you know she's just the cutest little girl ever I think everything babies do is the cutest thing you've ever wanted to like ah even when she cries like that It's not me I laugh and say oh my god because it's so cute except when she starts to cry but when she cries she screams like a little pigtail and wants your food right away.

She is so cute now. We have to take care of you, little one, you drink the whole bottle, you're so bad, it's okay, she's okay, you want one, you want chichi, I can teach you, okay, I'll quickly take her off camera and I'll be Since she just turned one month old, I was thinking about her and I was like once for the birthday, baby, time for the birthday and she was like, "I'm kidding, oh my gosh, guys, she's getting so chubby, I love it, I just love everything I love her double chin I love it her little skin is so perfect and so nice she is so cute I love her butter nose I love her little ears I love everything I love her little mouth she is so cute she is so cute I want her to stay This little girl forever I don't want her to grow up I feel like I have a voice very soft and I speak very very soft it's perfect for me being a mom because I don't have to worry about waking up a baby she is like smiling let me show you guys.