IT'S ALL ABOUT ME NOW + EASY WAYS TO SAVE MONEY! [CHIT CHAT + VLOG]Dec 24, 2021
I have everything I have everything I can't complain I can't I don't even know how much I really made I forgot they don't put some light in here so I can see they feel like an old lady Oh it's too much like that yeah ok it's currently 923 in the morning . I need to start preparing because I have something exciting that I'm doing today and it might not be exciting for everyone else, but it's exciting for me because this is something that I've put on. for a while, i'm just trying to work things out on my own, but today is my first day back in therapy after i left los angeles.
I basically didn't go to therapy anymore and I mean from the time I basically got to Dallas like a few months later, my dad passed away, then I ended up leaving Louisiana after the funeral with two kids and then in the middle of all of that, it happened so many things that I didn't talk about before my father's death that I was dealing with. a lot of trips back and forth because he was sick so we already knew you knew Now his time was pretty limited and like I said when I moved to Dallas because that was one of the main reasons, a bigger reason why I I chose to move to Dallas on top of that to be closer to family and just to be a part of my nieces and nephews' lives because I had been away for so long in the military.
I was gone for eight years. I didn't really have a link with them and especially with the death of my two brothers. I felt the need to be my brother keeper and keeper and yeah just salvage whatever relationship I can get out of them, you know, like I said, in the middle of moving in and becoming a mom overnight in a sense and dealing with some other things that i just put on the back burner you know i put my feelings and thoughts on the back burner i've been going through a lot of mixed emotions feeling a little guilty about leaving LA when i was in the prime of my career but at the same time i feel very rewarded because i gained so much more aside from notoriety if you know what i mean i got absolutely amazing relationships with my nieces and nephews and thats the time in memories i cant get back and that i treasured but sometimes i dont I can't help but feel in the back of my mind what I would have been doing had I never left Los Angeles where I would be in my career if I had never left Los Angeles I would have basically staged myself a little more instead of putting my family first. and that's something i al
wayssay and that's something i al
wayswill and would do again my family comes first um and me deciding to be a father overnight literally i will never put my life on hold but i just was just focused on them, you know, I was like, damn, this is what it's like to be a stay-at-home mom as you know, I'm like looking at all the things my mom did while she was, you know, stay-at-home mom and she was always available and I just wanted to be that for my niece and nephew while they were here and then when I got to take some kind of trip because I didn't do much while they were here maybe maybe a few trips maybe three maybe four short trips because I just didn't want to leave them alone and even after P left the pun was like going on a trip like I could stay alone and then I was like huh I don't know I'm scared so I'm here calling my friends trying to put up a family care package iliar together to make sure there is always someone available for him and he is like a teenager.
Shorten my time on my travels. I would never stay small as long as I wanted or whatever. So, I felt like I needed to be home. the issues i discussed with you about me having fibroids and the constant battle with each other i had surgery and knocked this guy out i go in or find other ways to fight this and get through it without letting a surgeon put a knife in me but even this weekend Last week right now my eight minutes knew I would be sleeping but even right now I have meds near my bed. because the past week has been terrible, I mean to the point where I am, I was kind of passed out, very fatigued, just weak and hurting more than usual because my doctor wanted me to stop taking birth control pills back to back and put me on a guy different from medication because he doesn't like me well my new gynecologist doesn't want me to have surgery right now, especially if I'm not going to have kids right now and I love him as much as I love him for that decision - It's just that he ruined me all last week, so i was like oh my gosh i think i have to go to the hospital if this is too much information guys only you know go ahead and skip it but later. you know switching to pedestal progesterone my body i guess i was just trying to find common ground between coming off a birth control i've been taking continuously for a year which was amazing because it basically limited the cycles a lot and even every time you had a cycle it was hardly any but you had something like withdrawal bleeding so with it changing me to my body needed a chance to I guess recognize that oh there's no more estrogen coming into the body now it's progesterone so it's like my body has gone crazy so this past week even right now i'm not feeling my best but i'm pushing myself to get up because i'm excited for my first therapy session.
I don't even know if I'm going to upload this
vlog, but I felt like I should document it anyway, but still. Having said that, the move, losing my father, taking on kids, just medical stuff, thinking about the winner, I should have, when it comes to professional relationships, kids, it's like I feel like I'm overloaded and I've been doing a great deal. I've been working these past couple of years with ke to bounce back, but I promised myself that as soon as Darian graduated, it was time to bounce back to pick up the pieces that felt like they were falling quietly and, you know, there have been times when I just I was in my car at night. cause my car is like my little happy place get in my car drink my wine and have a tear fest and right now sometimes i don't even know why i'm crying but i got overwhelmed i was just thinking like oh my god what I'm doing?
Oh my gosh, I've come this far, thank you, God, I was able to do all things through Christ who strengthened me, like I was just saying things like that. a pep talk and one of the things that confirmed my thoughts and my desire to remember myself and pull myself together was a few weeks ago i was a little down in my head. I was going to church because it wasn't going up as much. and i was trying to get stuff together for darion for college research ch and a bunch of stuff trying to get things done for graduation we also had nieves birthday party here and then on top of that beauty comes with her and i got some stuff too summer trips i'm taking so i had all this how i'm really going through my head trying to figure out if i want to do this if i want to do that how am i doing this how am i doing that am i doing this correctly am i not doing this correctly where is the manual of life that's how i felt and right around the time i was starting to feel discouraged and not really knowing what my purpose was or i felt like i didn't know what my purpose was anymore.
In fact, I received a magazine in the mail and fell over. my phone I got this magazine in the mail and I forgot I actually had this interview I'll show you real quick I got these magazines in the mail from Progress Lighting and in the magazine a full page article on home decor and this was a magazine paired with a better magazine landlady and then when I had never seen this and I got a letter from the team, you know, saying thank you and how they enjoyed my interview and just talking about me doing home decor and my passion for it, even though I'm not an interior designer, just to see. that I got a chance to be a full page in the magazine it really made me feel good it really did something in my train of thought and I was like yeah you know what I'm going to take control of how I am and I'm going to stick with my therapy appointment I'm going to keep the promise I made to myself and I'm going to go and talk about my feelings in 2009.
I was actually diagnosed with anxiety and depression after my brother was killed and PTSD and I went through a difficult time and, of course, they gave me a medicine, all that, but I felt that I am not going to take this. I'm going to learn to navigate life on my own that was the worst thing I could have done because my emotions were literally all over the place, they were raging and when even every time I thought I had an idea about certain things I would explode the way I that my psychologist at the time explained that he said the normal person let's think about you you know a cup a normal person's levels will start at half so imagine water a cup of water is in the hat that's normal for the average person, well, my is already touching the rim of the cup, so any extra drop or two will literally overflow me while it's needed. much more for the average person to reach that level of breakdown the chemical balance in my brain so what I think he was explaining is that it's not like leveling out and there are medications that he prescribed to help me calm down and to be calm but like I said , I wasn't, I wasn't willing to talk, I was like, oh no, it makes me feel weird, no thanks, but then over time as I got older and I learned to just be Russa and not be a victim of situations and taking responsibility for whatever reason and just to rationalize, you know, rationalize the situation, think before you speak, it really helps me calm down a bit and then, one thing I'm thankful for, I'm not even going to lie uh- huh when from the Darien NP whoa P I always say that she was she would wear my patience but those three literally taught me patience patience patience patience when all of them for taking the time every time I called and said Oh Missy calm down it's not so serious look look at it this way look on the bright side my niece and nephew are like whoo I can't say what I want to say to them so it's ok walk away go think about it come back in turn and then say what you have to say Say it for the last two years , it's been a learning experience, okay, but I know at this point they sat down and talked to you.
I arrive a little late. I have about 20 minutes to get ready for my therapy appointment. like I said I don't even know if I'm going to upload this I'll see how I feel when it's time to edit but yeah this is already 16 minutes so we'll see but hey yeah I'm going to start preparing for the therapy. and i guess i'll let you all know how everything went well see you soon bye great guys i just had my iced coffee and now i'm on my way to therapy i'm excited to really combat this like i wouldn't even call it negative energy.
I would just simply call it this aura that I release is like lingering. I need to get some holy water from a house too because you never know with all kinds of spirits coming into the house. That's why. I wasn't a big fan of having guests, but at the same time I'm trying to be a little more relaxed and like I said, I could do all things through Christ looking down on me and no weapon was formed against me. i will thrive so that would be crazy i hope the therapy works and makes me feel a lot better a little nervous ok guys i'm in control i'm just waiting for my therapist to come and make me a little nervous because it's my first time that I meet with said therapist, so I don't know how they will be viable.
I hope we hit it off because I thought like he was a pretty important person that you know I feel like I'm connecting with and that any advice or exercises on whatever is given is coming from a more genuine place and not just a paycheck than he You know, oh, basically, the psychiatrist diagnosed me with you. i know poor unipolar i am NOT bipolar but he notices some signs just based on our conversation he went through a list of things and god was the truth he went ahead and put me on a new medication based on the history of the medication i had before now and a sleep additive so i thought it would have been more like a counseling session today but it wasn't it was more like a diagnostic type of session but i have counseling next week so why does it say that based on in a conversation i definitely need to sort out my feelings, which i already knew, but the good thing is i don't have any manic traits that would have put me in the bipolar realm. at one point being the press four to seven days at a time get up and have energy and then all of a sudden crash down and stay there for a long period of time, high sexual drives and doing sexual things just for the thrill of it. no risky sexual stuff just for the thrill of buying imposed on impulsive decisions and all i dont have those signs i can flip the switch or get out of the rut even though i feel inside i can maneuver through the day with my face of the game on, so with that being said, he felt that the unipolar diagnosis was the most appropriate.
He said that the medication he is prescribing will help me manage my emotions. depression that way once the depression is sort of under control, theni will be able to handle my anxiety and anxiety attacks panic attacks all of that but like you know better so yeah that's the update on that um like i said i have counseling next week and they could have taken me tomorrow but it's a little far from my house and he was not available until 4:30 pm. and that traffic is going to be horrible so i have one scheduled for the morning of next week so yeah i really dont know how i feel about taking meds but i am NOT going to be against it because like i said i promised myself do everything.
What should I do to take better care of myself mentally, physically, spiritually, so that's what I'm going to do and if the doctor because this is the third doctor in ten years that has diagnosed me with the exact same thing without seeing the history of the previous doctor or something like that if everyone says the same thing then i guess that's what it is i definitely feel like you know it's ok to self-diagnose but sometimes i feel like i'm trying to self-diagnose you can be a little dramatic and say oh i'm the press or oh I have anxiety when really that's just normal filler for whatever that person is going through so it's always better when you have these constant feelings and these constant mood swings It's important to get evaluated because mental health is very important and you have to protect your headspace and so if that means getting rid of anything toxic, anything negative from someone who has said it's toxic, someone in that it is negative, then so be it and if you have to have a professional.
I'm going to tell you these things so that it's true and carries some weight, so do it. boys are proud ok guys i know i'm at the mall im about to meet you forever 21 and a few other stores to see holiday swimsuits because your girl is going on her first girls trip from 2019, oh, that's nice. of darkness so I'm going on my first girls trip of 2019. I told everyone to get up and running and get back on the trip now that the baby has officially graduated high school and is on her way to college. I go to my home.
Grinnell who you guys may have seen on a number of my blogs as well as my buddy MK and two of her friends and this is like my military girl group but we're going through but we're going to Croatia for the cool island festival and I'm super excited because MK is the one that planned this you contacted everyone and I thought maybe I'll stay out of this this was before Darion graduated but then I started thinking of him as Hell no I'm going I'm gathering my Shi T. I'm trying to stop my cousin, but I'm gathering my Shi T and I'm going to have fun.
I feel like I deserve it, so that's what's going to happen. um, yeah, i just need to find some nice blankets and stuff. I want to see what forever 21 has and I like Windsor and a few other places. They could do some online ordering, but of course, there are always other things in stores. that you can find so yeah and also a lot of people have been asking me about giving tips and things when booking travel a and how to save
moneyon that so one of the methods I've been using aside from regular saving, it's my digit app and i'll explain a little bit more about the digit app and a little bit like once the car comes back or whatever but that's been a lifeline to say it as little short term goals yeah so i love it but let me run to forever 21 real quick and i'll be back shortly.
I always like to gravitate towards the men's side. because I feel like men always have bombshell shirts and things like this rose up there with a woman's face. I'm definitely going to get that because I can wear this with my heels and some shorts which are really cute. I like that. a lot so I'm going to get that and I need to start looking for dairy and some, you know, like little t-shirts and stuff for school so I'm trying to see what they have that's cool and I said me and this is my little outfits Today's casuals are just t-shirts and jeans and my LV sandals and my real backpack ly here we go well someone was trying to put together a cute little outfit this is cute sometimes forever21 can be a hit or miss this is Tatum in makeup . thats two you can bring this with anything super cute oh horrible though i should go half the size but they are actually so oh guys these are hey guys i know some people probably dont like it you'll like these but i do and they're so comfortable but i don't know if i should go with Nets here or the black but that's what jean look like our scratchy shorts tied at the back budgets a little weird with the hog and white but it would be a great transition from summer to fall is fine so i ended up not having a second pair that was ready to ship but just substituted my wedges and got a nice black backpack.
They're giving me a new one but it's at some point that you can wear like on the shapes or like the crossbody so I think it will get a lot of use I like to buy bags if I'm not going to wear them I think this check so guys It looks like I'm having a productive day. white rice and then we have some cornbread so everything is set to eat around 7:00 and right now I have clothes to fold so I'm going to knock that out and then have dinner and then relax for the rest of the night take me A glass of wine, okay, I'm going around pretending campus femininity without time passing like it's the other way around.
I don't even understand the excitement running through my veins right now Lord Jesus guys let me tell you how excited I am right now not to bring people out came with some wine. I know you give someone else it's so much better you taste better it's like taking someone first no you ain't taking none of my bottles well oh what Alan bought telling you you're for something do you even drink wine like that? oh probably yeah no this is new so this is one of the two first time in this grocery store it's called winco but my friend protects me she was like girl sweet red it's on sale for 290 and now you know i don't want sound like an alcoholic bullet bullets when you hear the wine is also 298 you like it nah that's not it doesn't have to be like a marketing promotion like if you subscribe to the store card then maybe you'll get it for 298 or maybe it's 298 all for a reason oh i don't know what the rooster but this reminds her of the party approval the c90 i mean soon i need to be alright so even the rooster yard is why right here paisley bought me this at the party bribe for nieves and this was so good it's on sale for literally 298 298 what's good at walmart is like six nothing there's a sweet pineapple and a rose a a swe et strawberry and a sweet apple you wanna try on street so What, Strawberry, you think you like it first, oh yeah, it's so exciting that it's working for someone but the 180 so I feel good.
Mila could sacrifice over or through the same size yes this oh yes look this is much smaller than way sweet how many milliliters is this oh seven do you think I would like to try oh there is a sweet peach no I don't want time oh do you think sweet sweet strawberry you already tried this candy ok so have that six today even though the alcohol content in this is pretty low and me personally no that's not low that's nine percent on the back. the sweet red, where do you think the water? Oh beer maybe 298 will make you do something you never did in life on the block period no way no way oh that's why it's for 98 I might know bro the bottom it's like bigger than help which side does someone have to be on in the show let me see if it's there because we're done with my 750 milliliter sweet so sweet where did you ask me what's 814 here?
It's the normal size, so I mean, it comes out the same, right? What is a liter and a half? So how many liters, how many milliliters are in the leader? Can you do the math on your phone? milliliters tape measure hey sarah how many millimeters milliliters processor zero hang up sir hey sir how many milliliters in a leader my license is what no milliliters 1,000 milliliters to 1.5 so this is resident labor leaders that's one point five true yes 750 milliliters Oh honey Oh , gosh it's alright here this man so yeah Toto is 14 because he's 15 tonight he goes out to two bottles he's so radical for that fire and then 30% could be 15 well you think two bottles is more cheap than a bottle up to 1920 the 96b ig apartment let's go first man i thought i ran into what what is that is a new new Melanie Rowland who ate I heard arm Stella Rose mango tropical is actually pretty good because my broth spilled the red down the sink yeah her downstairs are pretty bad elements as wolfe ain't gonna happen be very stubborn ok but its not the same feeling angry we should just there are other sides we understand me but you know what she was still looking for so say you want so if i get it 20 bars how much is mommy sixty five sixty five let's give me ten that's going to be the line you drink with friends i brought two bottles and if we pass for these to guess i would hang up because ours is ok well yo' I'm a little disappointed but i can't be 100% because it's ok it's much cheaper so $38 for 12 bottles of wine yup in the Z. re bad because it will be the receipt don't let me drink alone h Hey, you have my wine on dates.
I don't think it's smart to put it in the trunk. Okay guys, so I'm finally home. The dishes are washed. The wine stops when the sitter is bored. hello my big sloop you're light you're really getting alcoholic he's back first of all first of all you know my friends drink a lot of wine which is actually a lot smaller than this book isn't it probably just because its clients 290 and your mom takes me to which is good the way sweet girl girl you know starting something maybe 10 rooms you made some water i drink well what are you anyway yeah i'm excited i don't have to do anyone this sorry ok door ok oh dear how do you start?
Let me find a way these things are so I was thinking I was thinking hunter green Holly Hunter I don't like the color of palm trees so wrinkled like a white khaki and green you already did blue and gray you already did black blue and silver ya ya ja d red whatever color you want to do or is that what you want to do red black and white that's irish I talked about me going on my girls trip so they actually got me thinking about a lot of questions really got me thinking about a lot of the questions i got regarding travel how do they book their trips why do they travel alone how do they travel alone how do they save
moneyto do these things XYZ I discovered this video with shameless maya and a financial guru and they talked about different ways to save money the financial guru He talked about this app that basically took money out of your account without you realizing you were withdrawing money and kept that money for you on a daily basis.
I was on a separate account, so when I heard that I was fine, what is this? I mean having different streams of income, different XY and Z savings accounts, and I was okay, this kind of piqued my interest, like how come this? The financial guru talked about this app. digit and basically in it's in the auto saver app that plugs in the shoe of your bank account and it would pull some money between billing cycles of whatever you've been billed or taken out automatically calculates your expenses analyzes all your bills and all your expenses and then you take money between all these expenses without really noticing without really noticing that you have seven dollars left over to go into the savings account or 63 cents left over to go into this account when I was listening to the video of whatever she was talking about the app being fdic approved and that was one of the only apps she really recommended now fdic approved what does that mean because when i heard it i was like what does that mean like how do I know if I leave my account I won't be scammed FDIC stands for Federal Deposit Insurance Corporation which means your money up to $250,000 is protected is insured or by this app which means you know if your information is breached if your account is hacked if your money scams all of that is covered in FDIC jargon I'll say ok this sounds interesting let me do my own research as well I researched the app I looked at the FAQ I read about the FDIC Clause they had and it was pretty legit I talked to some friends in the military who were really big on funding and they all had to type that so I downloaded the digit app and plugged in my bank account immediately.
I was like wow within the first week I was taking money from areas I didn't even realize I knew between bills and expenses shopping for groceries shopping for pain Bill is doing this and that he was taking money here and there on a daily basis and putting it in this Savings Act and I was like great if you have short term goals if you have something in six months you want to do a year even long term goals if you want but I prefer to use the app for short term goals term and you can go into the app and basicallyset these little goals that you have and you can set the amount that you're trying to hit for X amount of time which makes the app basically scan your account and tell you every day if you have money just sitting there that they can take and put in I miss this goal of yours without you now.
The good thing about this application is that when they see that you have bills to come because again it analyzes your spending habits and all that when they see that you have bills to come they will say hey we can't save anything today or hey we'll pay them we fix t or take twelve bucks out of your account today and spread it out to these goals you have or you'll say hey we can only take out two hours it might make sense to spread it out to these goals you have that's the cool thing about this you update it every day with your checking balance as of now compared to what it was yesterday, so when I saw all of that, I was like, oh my gosh, this is great.
I linked my bank account. I fully registered again. It's one hundred percent safe FDIC approved it's not like a store where the extra information and you know I don't even understand how I did it or why I did it compared to the thousand upon a hundred thousand people who have the cash app and they've screwed everything up that's because it's not even FDIC Approved like someone breaks in and takes your money and this isn't sponsored or anything like that your health so your team didn't even know who the hell I am. I really loved it, that's why I'm promoting it for you. if you are not financially disciplined and there are goals you want to achieve if you are trying to pay off student loans trying to pay bills trying to save just for little things are big things you can actually download the app I will put a link right below this video you can click on that and the cool thing about it is when you sign up using my referral link i will get $5 for your activation and you will get $5 to boost your savings now you don't have to click my link if you don't if you want you can go directly to the Apple I Apple Store or whatever and download the app, but you won't get the $5.
If you choose to use my link, you can get $5. I will get $5 which will boost your app and you can refer your family and friends and every referral you get will get $5 as you can see I had over a thousand dollars in my rainy day app at one point and now I have 600 so I transfer them a bit. I needed to get it and I'm pushing so if you're thinking about going on a summer vacation or saving up for Christmas presents or birthday presents or whatever, this is an app that I genuinely wholeheartedly put along the lines who vouch for this app is awesome you guys know i save money the best i can i have my regular savings account connected to my checking account and i have two other savings accounts elsewhere however this app is legit because it literally takes my lost money those dollars, my lost coins and stores it in a safe place so that I can achieve my small short term goals that I have set for myself and I can withdraw at any time there is no penalty there is no reprimand for getting your money back all you have to do is save the withdrawal and it will return it to your account that you have linked if it is the easiest the fastest way to save money if you are not disciplined because I know people who open they'll go to a savings account and then something happens and they need to take out of the account or they're taking out $20 here at $30 here $50 here and there's only three four hundred $llars in their account and then before you know it they're out of back in $50, so it's like you saved this money, but you're using the money you're saving because you need it, you know what I'm saying.
It sort of defeats the purpose of actually saving, so I just want to post it if you're interested in maybe taking a mini-vacation, either in the US or internationally. I like to use Google flights whenever I search for a trip because the flights are like super duper cheap and it also tells you which days are the best days to fly and tells you which days are cheapest when booking a flight so with my app digital combined with google flights combined i can easily travel to whatever i want to travel to without accessing the other savings accounts i have i literally look at my digit app as a disposable money saving app which means this It's money I'm saving to spend.
I cut back on iced coffees and you'd be surprised I cut n on iced coffees how much money my digit app saves weekly ok weekly from just iced coffees how much the digit app saves weekly from fast food only so if you're the type that likes to go out and get like McDonald's here and there or you'll go and you're with lashes or makeup from the beauty supply store or whatever if you don't need it you don't need it so try to do without the digit app that it'll stop you in your tracks before you even know it because it's like oh i took out 12 leprechauns today more than they put in 12 that were out today just wouldn't get iced coffee at your not fast food we're not having fast food today but guess what i can do on a trip next month and not have to worry about it and i have to worry about tapping into my funds ok so if you guys are interested like i said the link will be under this video it's literally right under this video click see more or show more the first line will be the digital app download if you click that if you want to boost your savings with five bucks oh one other thing sometimes there are promotions where for example you sign up with my right link you get five bucks and then next week you can get a promotion and you say oh if you refer five people you can get $250 literally no trick literally , just send them your referral link to sign up ie if you really liked the app don't refer the ad to anyone unless you really liked the app but the promotion could be you recommend to five people you get $ 250 and after that everyone gets an extra five bucks that's a surefire way to be able to travel and do whatever you want to do literally just hope and save money and be optimistic about it Q I want you to use it.
I want you to genuinely tell me in a few weeks time how you're liking it again. It is FDIC approved again. There are no penalties every time you withdraw the money you are saving for. you what else what else Auto to save for a short term goal and something and you need the money you can literally withdraw it and it's back in your account there's also overdraft protection so you can set it up where you don't does. take any money once you reach a certain amount in your account and then you can also hit pause let's say for whatever reason you're sitting there and maybe you're in between jobs and your money isn't flowing the way you wanted it to flow man you can literally click pause on the app and it won't take any money from your account until you hit resume like you guys i literally have over $1300 without me doing anything and that's literally 1300 bucks on top of the money i already withdrew because i saved so much on my rainy day app and i reached my goal.
I'd take that money out, put it in my checking account, do whatever I had to do with it, and I'm still saving, so that's a surefire way to save money. Short term goal s and be able to travel be able to pay bills be able to pay off debt do whatever you want to do but you have to be self disciplined so with that being said guys im tired i have to go ahead and eat my salad but im in this
vlogright here I hope you enjoyed I hope this was a very informative video because everything I said in this vlog should impact someone in some way if you have some difficulties with mental stability don't be afraid to communicate with people, no be afraid to talk to your GP, friends or family and get it sorted out, so with that being said, I hope you enjoy, be beautiful and I'll see you. boys later, bye, okay, we're leaving, baby, crying in a good state, popping apples and for robberies in
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