COOKI IST TOT💔

hey guys i think this is my 3rd attempt at starting the video and i just can't do better than now. I don't even know where to start and what to say first, but I think you have the right to find out what just happened and even if it's very difficult for me right now, I just have to tell you what happened. I can't really talk about it yet. I hope you don't blame me. Where should I start? Months ago and we also did a really big Aku so it came out he's in great shape as I told you in my video when we picked him up during a routine dental exam my vet also always has them doing Gollum and Valentino's teeth. just found out his hair was broken and then they tried to get the bracket out which didn't work and then we went to the vet clinic in Lüsche you may have watched the last video and you could see that not only one tooth but also the tooth of next door it was badly damaged and then before the operation the tooth was supposed to be operated on so we did a CT scan on both teeth and the vet said yes the finding is just a catastrophe we have to see if we can still do something there he actually had several very swollen teeth all of which had to be pulled so i still thought yeah maybe you can still fix them then you can let them operate and then it will happen again and then you'll just scrape the opponent every six months because the tooth no longer has an opponent, unfortunately that wasn't the only thing with the ten, but I still had a really big tumor that just couldn't get through. the nose of him, he could still breathe and I wonder how I was able to ride this horse so normally I can't figure out how it worked at all, I could ride it so normally I could touch his head and I said I couldn't.

I didn't do that but the vet said he's had him for so long he got so used to it and I've only known him three months and then I met him like this and I didn't know like him. maybe normally it's only when you don't have pain the problem is that this huge tumor is so advanced that it can't be removed so easily also several nerves that are already damaged and unfortunately an operation would not do it I would have had to operate over and over again and again, the problem was that with these operations many complications could arise, then he would have had to have one tooth operated at a time, then he would have had to stand up again, they would have locked him up. in the box all the time until it heals then it would have been the next tooth then it should have healed again then it would have to have been the next tooth then it should have healed again and that is of course the worst for such an animal to stand in the box all the time and in the end you don't have to eat what comes out and it's very important to an animal and so he couldn't have eaten properly all the time and then he could have developed colic and I find this torment He just didn't deserve it and so you wouldn't know what would happen in the end and of course you would always want to continue because you don't want to let the horse go anymore and then I got a second opinion from someone else I went to the vet.

He said that if I think rationally and differently, unfortunately I have to have it. That was really the worst decision of my entire life, but I think you only have to make one decision for the horse. I really didn't want to admit that that's how it should be now, you still can't understand that a seven year old horse just isn't allowed to live anymore because he was recognized so late I don't even know what. say yes its just terrible it was so hard for me and it really broke my heart to have this great horse and that i fell so in love from the start he was just a perfect match he just took to himself so well and understood valentine and everything it was perfect and i would have loved to help him.

I really would have done anything for this horse because he was just a part of it, just like my other two horses, and then I drove to the vet clinic with my mom. , where he was still standing, then we waited until the evening until it was relatively calm and then he was in the India box and he just put up with everything and then we went to the hall, the vet advised me not to stay but somehow I think you owe it to your horse that you're there somehow Well I wouldn't have done it any other way with Gollum and Balance so I really wanted to be there too and then they put him to sleep so they put him under anesthesia and then I fell asleep very very peacefully and then I petted him for a long time and said goodbye to him we didn't get a chance to really enjoy the time we spent together for me it's just the most important thing my horse can just lead a pain free life or at least have the chance to stop being in pain I think everyone knows maybe if you've had a toothache or when I had my wisdom teeth out for example how bad something like that hurts and you took pain relievers Again I'm beyond sad and wished So much for Cookie that she could stand in a meadow without pain for another 20 years, but unfortunately she should.

It just can't be like that and how bad is that when you are trapped in your own body and someone helps you then it's too late. I'm at least reasonably happy that we were able to take some of the pain out of him because otherwise he'd be at some point in his tumor. Unfortunately, he is already gone. to the other side of his nose and it would have gotten worse and worse. It really touches my heart that this young man has to leave now. I miss him so much now. I think you can see that I'm not doing so well at the moment, but it will improve again, but I'm trying to give a stable because I also have the other two and the first two have something to do with them.

For five days I could hardly go to the I stabled because I felt so bad and I just couldn't do anything and now I rode for the first time yesterday I don't even know how I'm supposed to stay here on Youtube like this, I mean myself Right now it's not really suitable to be in front of the camera but I thought you had a right to know what's wrong with Cookie because you know him too and I'm getting a lot of questions right now and that's why I thought I'd make this video to let you all know that's all I wanted to tell you for now, for please try to appreciate every day with your horses and then we will see each other, I would say again in the next video.

I don't know when the next one will come because I need it right now, a little break for me to be able to process it all because of course it was also a real shock. I hope you have a very good day and then see you in the next video bye